Guys I might be done gambling.

[Extra Innings]

Dear God,

I come to You as I come to no one else.

I am so sorry.

I have nearly thrown away my life, my body, my soul

—through addiction.

But recognition of my addiction

has never given me power to control it.

You know this.

You never blame me.

You know the truth.


Addiction is an attractor field - a low vibrational level.

I wound up there because I was trying to escape pain,

Or I was trying to experience something transcendent,

And I got stuck.


But there is a better way to escape pain,

And there is a better way to touch rapture.

I can receive an authentic calling from You.


Therefore, I surrender myself to what I can be

—to that highest level to which You call me.

I demand, now, in this moment, Father, that You call me

—that You call me loudly.


You call me and raise me up out of addiction

—and into a higher level attractor field.


And as You raise me,

So do You raise all of Humanity out of addiction

—and into a higher level attractor field.

Together we rise, as one force in You, one at a time and together.


You raise me because I deserve a better life.

You raise me because I am ready to be raised.

You raise me because the world needs me.


I rise and keep rising; I do not fall.

I rise because You need me.

I am Your Thoughts, Your Voice, Your Hands.

I rejoice in my inherent holiness.

For I am where You reside.


You lift me because I have asked

—and because you love me so very much.


By Your grace, as I read this,

My mind and energy align with Yours.

By Your grace, the power of my mind

Is multiplied exponentially by all who read this.

Aligned with You, we are more powerful than any evil

— or any substance—

Can ever be.


Together WE form a conduit of love.

It reaches into my need for addiction and I am healed.

By healing myself, I help heal Humanity's need for addiction.

Joy fills my soul. My gratitude is infinite.

Thank You, Beloved Creator.

And so it is.
Amen.

[mrmarket]

OmgUrMom you need to quit gambling.You can't handle it properly and have admitted as much. Admitting your problem is not a sign of weakness. Admission is a sign of strength. Some people just cannot gamble reasonably. These people aren't wired to do it. Much like I can't sing and some people can't dance. It's just life so don't feel any shame or feel like you're a failure either because you're not.

Also, DO NOT get sucked in by the conflicting advice you're going to get in this thread about "starting over". This nonsense is spouted by people who have a vested interest in seeing you continue. They don't care what happens to you as long as you continue to play because as long as you're in the game you lose.

Whether these people are motivated because they are Sportsbook shills who have a % of your losses, Sportsbook employees/owners who are paid to never tell someone to quit or just schadenfreude loving assholes who bask in your misery to make their own problems seem less glaring, we will never know. What we do know is they don't have your best interests in mind when they dispense advice so ignore them.

I have no vested interest besides not wanting to see a life wasted. I've seen waste before. I don't have a holier than thou attitude. I've ****ed up big time myself many times and no doubt will continue to do so. It's the human condition.

So get help any way you can. Tell friends and family so they can help you deal with the difficult road ahead. Call GA and set up a meeting. Certainly do not hang around an environment like this one where temptation abounds everyday. I hope I never see you again buddy.

Good Luck

[THE PROFIT]

Shari, there's no quitters here. Quit encouraging him to leave. Gambling & SBR is Hotel California

[OmgUrMom]

If you can get one of the mods to say it's okay, I have no problem doing it for you. I don't use points anyway, so it's not like you have to worry about me scamming you. I'm sorry to hear about all of this OMG.

thanks shari, i will pm a couple mods and ask them if it would be alright

[THE PROFIT]

Ei, wtf????

[Brock Landers]

Man looks in the abyss, there's nothing staring back at him. At that moment man finds his character. And that is what keeps him out of the abyss.

[flyingillini]

I think "liking losing" has to do with KNOWING. You hate yourself and what you have become and losing is akin to finding out your girlfriend has been cheating on you when you knew it all along. Gambling for most leads to death and destruction. Seek solace in the Lord....ask FlyingIllini for forgiveness.

“And Joshua set up twelve stones in the midst of Jordan, in the place where the feet of the priests which bare the ark of the covenant stood: and they are there unto this day.”

"So Joshua arose, and all the people of war, to go up against Ai: and Joshua chose out thirty thousand mighty men of valour, and sent them away by night.”

[shari91]

Shari, there's no quitters here. Quit encouraging him to leave. Gambling & SBR is Hotel California

Believe me, I can't preach to anyone about quitting. I was almost exactly where he was when I was 21. I just learned to pick and choose what I was good at and more importantly if I was cutting into my rent, mortgage, bill money, whatever - if my quality of life was going to be hurt at all - I didn't bet. Now I can afford it to a certain extent, but I'll never make a bet I'll feel sick over if I lose. EVER.

He needs to do what he feels is the best thing for him. Not what a bunch of strangers on here think is the right thing to do. There's no shame in walking away from gambling - especially from something that has the power to destroy lives and where the majority of people end up losing overall.

[flyingillini]

Dear God,

I come to You as I come to no one else.

I am so sorry.

I have nearly thrown away my life, my body, my soul

—through addiction.

But recognition of my addiction

has never given me power to control it.

You know this.

You never blame me.

You know the truth.


Addiction is an attractor field - a low vibrational level.

I wound up there because I was trying to escape pain,

Or I was trying to experience something transcendent,

And I got stuck.


But there is a better way to escape pain,

And there is a better way to touch rapture.

I can receive an authentic calling from You.


Therefore, I surrender myself to what I can be

—to that highest level to which You call me.

I demand, now, in this moment, Father, that You call me

—that You call me loudly.


You call me and raise me up out of addiction

—and into a higher level attractor field.


And as You raise me,

So do You raise all of Humanity out of addiction

—and into a higher level attractor field.

Together we rise, as one force in You, one at a time and together.


You raise me because I deserve a better life.

You raise me because I am ready to be raised.

You raise me because the world needs me.


I rise and keep rising; I do not fall.

I rise because You need me.

I am Your Thoughts, Your Voice, Your Hands.

I rejoice in my inherent holiness.

For I am where You reside.


You lift me because I have asked

—and because you love me so very much.


By Your grace, as I read this,

My mind and energy align with Yours.

By Your grace, the power of my mind

Is multiplied exponentially by all who read this.

Aligned with You, we are more powerful than any evil

— or any substance—

Can ever be.


Together WE form a conduit of love.

It reaches into my need for addiction and I am healed.

By healing myself, I help heal Humanity's need for addiction.

Joy fills my soul. My gratitude is infinite.

Thank You, Beloved Creator.

And so it is.
Amen.

Be strong and of good courage be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest. Joshua 19

[Extra Innings]

[sickler]

He'll be back

[flyingillini]

And the Lord your God will give to you and to your seed a circumcision of the heart, so that, loving him with all your heart and all your soul, you may have life. (Deuteronomy, 30:16)

[flyingillini]

I was searching for the Lord, and he gave ear to my voice, and made me free from all my fears. (Psalms 34:4)

[flyingillini]

[blueghost]

your on tilt take some time off read some books get back in at low limits you didnt lose it all in one day you cant win it back in one all the tables will still be there when you think your ready to come back good luck to ya

[Brock Landers]

jesus, give the preaching a rest

Gamble your last dollar, then go fund somemore.

check n go will give ya 2500 tomorrow.

[toastedbread01]

Believe me, I can't preach to anyone about quitting. I was almost exactly where he was when I was 21. I just learned to pick and choose what I was good at and more importantly if I was cutting into my rent, mortgage, bill money, whatever - if my quality of life was going to be hurt at all - I didn't bet. Now I can afford it to a certain extent, but I'll never make a bet I'll feel sick over if I lose. EVER.

He needs to do what he feels is the best thing for him. Not what a bunch of strangers on here think is the right thing to do. There's no shame in walking away from gambling - especially from something that has the power to destroy lives and where the majority of people end up losing overall.

Forgetting about addiction for a second, everything is simply about marginal utility. That include gambling via the entertainment paradigm.

[OmgUrMom]

I believe its more than likely no god exists, i of course admit i have no idea but that is just my feeling on the subject. Thank you for the encouragement MrMarket and others who have posted in this thread

[THE PROFIT]

Right on Brock!!!

WWJD? He'd play the fukin yanks tomorrow because they won't lose this series

[Extra Innings]

And the Lord your God will give to you and to your seed a circumcision of the heart, so that, loving him with all your heart and all your soul, you may have life. (Deuteronomy, 30:16)

[THE PROFIT]

Dont let these guys fuk with ya with bible verses. Do what you gotta do. Not what you wanna do, but what you gotta do. If thats stop gambling then do it.

[flyingillini]

Lets start a donation thread to OmgUrMom! Lets get him an account at a book, if everyone chips in 5-10 he will still have action and feel good about himself. I will start with a donation of $50.00 for him, if we can get $300 minimum I will open the account for him.

[Extra Innings]

Love it

[minet123]

1)Identify with the speaker/person sharing DON'T PICK OUT DIFFERENCES replace "went to the corner to score crack" with "went to the casino" etc etc because you both ended up in same place/feeling
2)If you like everyone you met at the meeting YOUR DOING SOMETHING WRONG
3)Go to 90 meeting in 90 days
4)Get a sponsor and call him
5)Take suggestion

[stealthyburrito]

Right on Brock!!!

WWJD? He'd play the fukin yanks tomorrow because they won't lose this series

you're right they won't lose the series, cuz its only a two games series.

[OmgUrMom]

thanks for the points wtf, my debtors will be happy.

[THE PROFIT]

you're right they won't lose the series, cuz its only a two games series.

Thats right, they play TB wed dont they? Fuuuuk!!!!!

[flyingillini]

Love it

MMM. Picture this hyna is stockings and a garter belt! Extra, I fantasize about Sarah Palin, Janet Reno, Barbara Boxer and Barbara Bush all wearing stockings and garter belts surrounding my bed as I release.

[OmgUrMom]

1)Identify with the speaker/person sharing DON'T PICK OUT DIFFERENCES replace "went to the corner to score crack" with "went to the casino" etc etc because you both ended up in same place/feeling
2)If you like everyone you met at the meeting YOUR DOING SOMETHING WRONG
3)Go to 90 meeting in 90 days
4)Get a sponsor and call him
5)Take suggestion

i have found an NA meeting within 20 minutes of me, i think i will go, i very much respect your advice minet.

If you don't mind divulging, in what ways where you able to relate with the addicts at NA?

[shari91]

Lets start a donation thread to OmgUrMom! Lets get him an account at a book, if everyone chips in 5-10 he will still have action and feel good about himself. I will start with a donation of $50.00 for him, if we can get $300 minimum I will open the account for him.

This is a very bad idea. Because if he loses the money, then he'll throw more in. Your generosity is lovely and I'm always willing to help someone out on here, but not like this.

[OmgUrMom]

Lets start a donation thread to OmgUrMom! Lets get him an account at a book, if everyone chips in 5-10 he will still have action and feel good about himself. I will start with a donation of $50.00 for him, if we can get $300 minimum I will open the account for him.

thats a nice offer illini, i appreciate the thought very much (probably not the best idea but i certainly am not strong enough to pass up free money)

[excel]

Right on Brock!!!

WWJD? He'd play the fukin yanks tomorrow because they won't lose this series

[Brock Landers]

Get the AA Big Book, read it cover to cover, then start over again. Its a manual to living a different life

[stealthyburrito]

why are we tryna feed the addiction? he'll piss it away anyway.

[Grind-It-Out]

On my 18th birthday I deposited $300 into a poker room. I got it up to $2k and then lost it. Shortly there after, $200 more. Then $300 more. Then some in a sportsbook, etc. Over the course of about 5 months I ended up losing about $4k. The best thing that could ever happen to me happened. My parents saw fishy transactions on my bank statement and they did some research and eventually found out what I was into. I stopped. It felt great.

My problem was never a lack of ability to pick, or to play poker. I can summarize my problem into 2 things:
1) I didn't feel that the amount I was playing with was significant. Doubling your funds over the course of a year is an AMAZING investment, but how many people do you think deposit $100 and would be happy to turn that into just $200 over the course of a year? People want to play for something that they feel has meaning.
2) I was afraid to lose. It's not possible to make a sound investment when you are emotionally unstable.

After stopping, I ended up getting a degree, nice job, etc. About two years ago I deposited $5k into a sportsbook. That $5k is now $15k. It's also never been below $4k and never above $17k. I would argue that my ability to pick hasn't gotten any better.

The differences?
1) I don't play poker. I recognize that I don't have the ability to keep the level of calmness that is necessary, so I just don't do it.
2) I recognize the earning potential of the dollar. Even though $5k isn't much to some people, I recognize that by doubling it every year it will skyrocket.
3) If I were to lose my entire bankroll tomorrow my financial situation would not be hurt at all. I think this is the most important one.
4) I do it for fun. I hope that I make money, but that is not the main purpose. As such, if I were to blow $5k over the course of 3 or 4 years I would consider that a pretty good investment for the amount of fun it brought me.

Hopefully you'll do the right thing.