Well that condition runs in my family & before I saw my primary doctor I had lot of the signs of MS. Like daily fatigue for one, even though I keep myself in pretty decent shape, but what is happening I have my self getting weaker through the years. The weights I lift are getting lighter & lighter I can only do the machines now & no longer can do free weights. I’m 38 & I do know I have DDD for sure I was diagnosed 10 years ago right before my first epidural steroid injection to my lower lumbar. Other Symptoms are blurred vision & coordination balance issues/vertigo ,constant urination & muscle spasms all over my body my back being the worst of it. I just don’t feel right bro at my age.
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BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
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#36Comment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#37I’m in the process of getting all the proper test to verify my claim. My primary doctor said I’m in the early stages of MS most likely due to this disease being in my family.Comment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#38Just going to the grocery store for an hour and bringing the groceries in from my car I’m fuckin’ exhausted & I have to wear my back support how patheticComment -
edawgSBR MVP
- 07-09-11
- 2820
#39Life is a fist fight you really don't know who you are till you get smashed in the face then you see what's what. Try to find a good PT they will be invaluable. Try to stay away from machines when working out if at all possible and just use light resistance bands or dumbells(they make them in 2lb if need be) machines work muscle not motion and you will need to work motion and activate your stabilizers. Best of Luck!Comment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#40Life is a fist fight you really don't know who you are till you get smashed in the face then you see what's what. Try to find a good PT they will be invaluable. Try to stay away from machines when working out if at all possible and just use light resistance bands or dumbells(they make them in 2lb if need be) machines work muscle not motion and you will need to work motion and activate your stabilizers. Best of Luck!Comment -
BetterBiznessSBR Hall of Famer
- 05-20-06
- 5737
#41as weird as the thread is it's a great baseline for a mental health check.
It's basically "Rate your happyness on a scale of 1-10" but in our degenerate terms.Comment -
PharaohUBSBR MVP
- 01-23-07
- 4865
#42Thanks man for sure. It was rough but I learned some good life lessons. Thank god I had a great support group of friends. The fact that I owed them money was what kept me from jumping in front of that train when it pulled into the station. I didn't want to let them down, and decided I had to make it good with them before I called it quits. By the time I found myself into a position I could pay them back I was well on my way to improving my situation. I've lent a few friends money in my life recently. Most paid me back, but one didn't. I don't let it bother me. I made a promise to myself if anyone asked me for help I would help them if I was able, because you never know if you're saving someone's life. It's not easy to ask a friend for help like that, and usually they are in a worse situation then they are letting on, because of ego.Comment -
edawgSBR MVP
- 07-09-11
- 2820
#43"When you get discouraged" Mike Westhoff NY Jets special teams coach on hard knocks.Comment -
ThaWojSBR Hall of Famer
- 03-09-10
- 6757
#44I've always considered. Ever since 21 when my gf of 6 years broke up with me and I dropped out of college. Gambled my whole life away. Owe so much money. Student loans 100k that I didn't even finish..will never pay those back. Credit sucks. Old car that will die one day. Have a decent job that pays well because I work 60 hrs a week but I have nothing saved because I gamble everything away. The sad thing is I win a lot but I always blow it. I've had balances at btc books over 1 btc several times and never cashed out. I've probably bought $100k worth of crypto which now I have none. I even held some cheap alt coins for YEARS and had to sell everything..of course in the last 6 months everything has blown up. I could be rich right now.
Sad life. Burned bridges with family. No friends. No gf no wife. Overweight. Depressed 24/7. Blew everything I had in life. I've done some bad things to get money too. F me.Comment -
ChuckyTheGoatBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 04-04-11
- 37180
#45
My perspective on SBR. Check your skin color at the door. Black/brown/white, doesn't matter. Only color that matters is green, as in green-backs. Or maybe gold.
Props to anyone who posted in here. You live and learn and do your best. That's the best you can do.Where's the fuckin power box, Carol?Comment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#46I've always considered. Ever since 21 when my gf of 6 years broke up with me and I dropped out of college. Gambled my whole life away. Owe so much money. Student loans 100k that I didn't even finish..will never pay those back. Credit sucks. Old car that will die one day. Have a decent job that pays well because I work 60 hrs a week but I have nothing saved because I gamble everything away. The sad thing is I win a lot but I always blow it. I've had balances at btc books over 1 btc several times and never cashed out. I've probably bought $100k worth of crypto which now I have none. I even held some cheap alt coins for YEARS and had to sell everything..of course in the last 6 months everything has blown up. I could be rich right now.
Sad life. Burned bridges with family. No friends. No gf no wife. Overweight. Depressed 24/7. Blew everything I had in life. I've done some bad things to get money too. F me.Comment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#47Jerky, pretty good crop of dudes here at SBR.
My perspective on SBR. Check your skin color at the door. Black/brown/white, doesn't matter. Only color that matters is green, as in green-backs. Or maybe gold.
Props to anyone who posted in here. You live and learn and do your best. That's the best you can do.you’re at the top of the crop I must say from my POV.
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mjsuax13Moderator
- 03-14-15
- 25061
#48Yeah I’m having trouble holding down a job these days doing anything for 8 hrs at a time due to my chronic back pain. I’ve had 3 different employers this year from my usual electrical work, to warehouse work & even Security/Surveillance job at a Casino & every time it’s the same thing. My back flares up & I start to have back spasms during my shift which affects my productivity & my mental capacity to do my job. I’m in the process of finding a good neurological doctor to get an MRI for a second opinion so I can prove to the state that I have MS and DDD I may be able to qualify for social security disability which is really nothing maybe 1200 a month, but that will help with some bills/expenses. If I can’t take care of my son and myself I really don’t want to live pal.Comment -
Itsamazing777SBR Posting Legend
- 11-14-12
- 12602
#50vitterd -5000Comment -
mjsuax13Moderator
- 03-14-15
- 25061
#52Let me tell you something Jerky. First- keep your head up. Health is tough but you are tougher and will prevail. Second, you are doing the most important job right now and that’s being there for your son. It’s more important than anything you could ever provide. I understand basic life necessities but beyond that all the stuff piles up to one big pile of shit in the end... and I could fill a landfill with my own shit. I’m the living proof of a great father and so is your son. I don’t need to bore you with the back story but my dad raised 4 of us single and we always struggled but many moons later those days are over. Stay focused- things will turn.Comment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#53Let me tell you something Jerky. First- keep your head up. Health is tough but you are tougher and will prevail. Second, you are doing the most important job right now and that’s being there for your son. It’s more important than anything you could ever provide. I understand basic life necessities but beyond that all the stuff piles up to one big pile of shit in the end... and I could fill a landfill with my own shit. I’m the living proof of a great father and so is your son. I don’t need to bore you with the back story but my dad raised 4 of us single and we always struggled but many moons later those days are over. Stay focused- things will turn.Comment -
mjsuax13Moderator
- 03-14-15
- 25061
#55A lot of people ask me
Am I afraid of death?
Hell yeah, I'm afraid of death
I don't want to die yet
A lot of people think that I worship the devil
That I do all types of retarded shit
Look, I can't change the way I think
And I can't change the way I am
But if I offended you
Good
'Cause I still don't give a penetrate
I'm zoning off of one joint stopping a limo
Hopped in the window, shopping a demo at gunpoint
A lyricist without a clue, what year is this?
penetrate a needle here's a sword, body pierce with this
Living amok, never giving a penetrate
Gimme the keys, I'm drunk and I've never driven a truck
But I smoke dope in a cab
I'll stab you with the sharpest knife I can grab
Come back the next week and re-open your scab
A killer instinct runs in the blood
Emptying full clips and burying guns in the mud
I've calmed down now I was heavy once into drugs
I could walk around straight for two months with a buzz
My brain's gone, my soul's worn and my spirit is torn
The rest of my body's still being operated on
I'm ducked the penetrate down while I'm writing this rhyme
'Cause I'm probably gonna get struck with lightning this time
For all the weed that I've smoked
Yo this blunt's for you
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
To all the friends I used to have
Yo, I miss my past
But the rest of you assholes can kiss my ass
For all the drugs that I've done
Yo I'm still gonna do
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
For every time I reminisce
Yo, I miss my past
But I still don't give a penetrate, y'all can kiss my ass
I walked into a gunfight with a knife to kill you
And cut you so fast when your blood spilled, it was still blue
I'll hang you till you dangle and chain you with both ankles
And pull you apart from both angles
I wanna crush your skull till your brains leaks out of your veins
And bust open like broken water mains
So tell Saddam not to bother with making another bomb
'Cause I'm crushing the whole world in my palm
Got your girl on my arm and I'm armed with a firearm
So big my entire arm is a giant firebomb
Buy your Mom a shirt with a Slim Shady iron-on
And the pants to match
"Here momma, try 'em on"
I get imaginative with a mouth full of adjectives
A brain full of adverbs, and a box full of laxatives
Causing hospital accidents
God help me before I commit some irresponsible acts again
For all the weed that I've smoked
Yo this blunt's for you
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
To all the friends I used to have
Yo, I miss my past
But the rest of you assholes can kiss my ass
For all the drugs that I've done
Yo I'm still gonna do
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
For every time I reminisce
Yo, I miss my past
But I still don't give a penetrate, y'all can kiss my ass
I wanted an album so rugged nobody could touch it
Spent a million a track and went over my budget
Now how in the penetrate am I supposed to get out of debt?
I can't rap anymore, I just murdered the alphabet
Drug sickness got me doing some bugged twitches
I'm withdrawing from crack so bad my blood itches
I don't rap to get the women, penetrate bitches
Give me a fat slut that cooks and does dishes
Never ran with a clique, I'm a posse
Kamikaze, strapping a motherfucking bomb across me
From the second I was born my Momma lost me
I'm a cross between Manson, Esham and Ozzy
I don't know why the penetrate I'm here in the first place
My worst day on this earth was my first birthday
Retarded? What did that nurse say? Brain damage?
penetrate, I was born during an earthquake
For all the weed that I've smoked
Yo this blunt's for you
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
To all the friends I used to have
Yo, I miss my past
But the rest of you assholes can kiss my ass
For all the drugs that I've done
Yo I'm still gonna do
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
For every time I reminisce
Yo, I miss my past
But I still don't give a penetrate, y'all can kiss my assComment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#56A lot of people ask me
Am I afraid of death?
Hell yeah, I'm afraid of death
I don't want to die yet
A lot of people think that I worship the devil
That I do all types of retarded shit
Look, I can't change the way I think
And I can't change the way I am
But if I offended you
Good
'Cause I still don't give a penetrate
I'm zoning off of one joint stopping a limo
Hopped in the window, shopping a demo at gunpoint
A lyricist without a clue, what year is this?
penetrate a needle here's a sword, body pierce with this
Living amok, never giving a penetrate
Gimme the keys, I'm drunk and I've never driven a truck
But I smoke dope in a cab
I'll stab you with the sharpest knife I can grab
Come back the next week and re-open your scab
A killer instinct runs in the blood
Emptying full clips and burying guns in the mud
I've calmed down now I was heavy once into drugs
I could walk around straight for two months with a buzz
My brain's gone, my soul's worn and my spirit is torn
The rest of my body's still being operated on
I'm ducked the penetrate down while I'm writing this rhyme
'Cause I'm probably gonna get struck with lightning this time
For all the weed that I've smoked
Yo this blunt's for you
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
To all the friends I used to have
Yo, I miss my past
But the rest of you assholes can kiss my ass
For all the drugs that I've done
Yo I'm still gonna do
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
For every time I reminisce
Yo, I miss my past
But I still don't give a penetrate, y'all can kiss my ass
I walked into a gunfight with a knife to kill you
And cut you so fast when your blood spilled, it was still blue
I'll hang you till you dangle and chain you with both ankles
And pull you apart from both angles
I wanna crush your skull till your brains leaks out of your veins
And bust open like broken water mains
So tell Saddam not to bother with making another bomb
'Cause I'm crushing the whole world in my palm
Got your girl on my arm and I'm armed with a firearm
So big my entire arm is a giant firebomb
Buy your Mom a shirt with a Slim Shady iron-on
And the pants to match
"Here momma, try 'em on"
I get imaginative with a mouth full of adjectives
A brain full of adverbs, and a box full of laxatives
Causing hospital accidents
God help me before I commit some irresponsible acts again
For all the weed that I've smoked
Yo this blunt's for you
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
To all the friends I used to have
Yo, I miss my past
But the rest of you assholes can kiss my ass
For all the drugs that I've done
Yo I'm still gonna do
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
For every time I reminisce
Yo, I miss my past
But I still don't give a penetrate, y'all can kiss my ass
I wanted an album so rugged nobody could touch it
Spent a million a track and went over my budget
Now how in the penetrate am I supposed to get out of debt?
I can't rap anymore, I just murdered the alphabet
Drug sickness got me doing some bugged twitches
I'm withdrawing from crack so bad my blood itches
I don't rap to get the women, penetrate bitches
Give me a fat slut that cooks and does dishes
Never ran with a clique, I'm a posse
Kamikaze, strapping a motherfucking bomb across me
From the second I was born my Momma lost me
I'm a cross between Manson, Esham and Ozzy
I don't know why the penetrate I'm here in the first place
My worst day on this earth was my first birthday
Retarded? What did that nurse say? Brain damage?
penetrate, I was born during an earthquake
For all the weed that I've smoked
Yo this blunt's for you
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
To all the friends I used to have
Yo, I miss my past
But the rest of you assholes can kiss my ass
For all the drugs that I've done
Yo I'm still gonna do
To all the people I've offended
Yeah, penetrate you too!
For every time I reminisce
Yo, I miss my past
But I still don't give a penetrate, y'all can kiss my ass
High as fuk on bud tryna’ find a whore~
No way to tell if da motherphucka bout to score~
He sees the light when the powder goes up his nose~
Sloppy as fuk snortin’ , gotta 8 ball on his clothes~
Winners is all we chase cuz it’s all we knows~
that’s all I got I’m sober
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BrickJamesSBR Hall of Famer
- 05-05-11
- 9749
#57Completely broke in NYC. Parents cut me off. Didn’t have a place to stay for awhile. Didn’t tell anyone. Would do my best to hang out with friends and crash on their couch. If that fell through I’d sleep under my office desk. Showered at the gym. Was trying to keep up a professional demeanor while basically being homeless. Had some clothes stored in my desk at the office. Was lieing to everyone when things seems off with me or why I didn’t invite girls over I was dating etc. Defaulted on my storage unit and lost all of my belongings. Owed everyone money. Bills piling up. Credit score in the 400s. Didn’t see any way out my situation and considered suicide. I ended up meeting a girl who basically saved my life. Let me stay at hers for a little while and get my shit together. Got a better job that paid better and that allowed me to work anywhere. Left NYC and moved south. Repaid everyone with interest and almost done paying off my student loans and in a position now to buy a home. I’m a little behind where I’d like to be at 36 but I really can’t complain. Repaired relationship with my family. It almost doesn’t feel real that I was in that situation now. I now have a two bedroom two bathroom to myself and my dog. Me and the girl broke up but we’re still close and actually going to Vegas together in a couple weeks.
Gambling?
Poor decisions?Comment -
thezbarSBR Hall of Famer
- 08-29-06
- 6421
#58Off the board. I had a relative commit suicide the day he was supposed to sign his divorce papers. There is no way I would ever to that.Comment -
mjsuax13Moderator
- 03-14-15
- 25061
#59MJ steadily spittin’ bars galore~
High as fuk on bud tryna’ find a whore~
No way to tell if da motherphucka bout to score~
He sees the light when the powder goes up his nose~
Sloppy as fuk snortin’ , gotta 8 ball on his clothes~
Winners is all we chase cuz it’s all we knows~
that’s all I got I’m sober
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pologqSBR Posting Legend
- 10-07-12
- 19899
#60Completely broke in NYC. Parents cut me off. Didn’t have a place to stay for awhile. Didn’t tell anyone. Would do my best to hang out with friends and crash on their couch. If that fell through I’d sleep under my office desk. Showered at the gym. Was trying to keep up a professional demeanor while basically being homeless. Had some clothes stored in my desk at the office. Was lieing to everyone when things seems off with me or why I didn’t invite girls over I was dating etc. Defaulted on my storage unit and lost all of my belongings. Owed everyone money. Bills piling up. Credit score in the 400s. Didn’t see any way out my situation and considered suicide. I ended up meeting a girl who basically saved my life. Let me stay at hers for a little while and get my shit together. Got a better job that paid better and that allowed me to work anywhere. Left NYC and moved south. Repaid everyone with interest and almost done paying off my student loans and in a position now to buy a home. I’m a little behind where I’d like to be at 36 but I really can’t complain. Repaired relationship with my family. It almost doesn’t feel real that I was in that situation now. I now have a two bedroom two bathroom to myself and my dog. Me and the girl broke up but we’re still close and actually going to Vegas together in a couple weeks.Comment -
pologqSBR Posting Legend
- 10-07-12
- 19899
#61that is what we are here for. i am really sorry to hear about your issues/troubles. back pain is awful. serious back pain, where it is debilitating, gets marginalized by some but in reality it might be one of the worst things out there.Comment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#62Yeah I got a few old friends & family members think I’m full of shit, plus they know I gamble for income so from afar it may look bad, but those people don’t truly know me. They aren’t close in my life to know about my physical struggles they just here about it.Comment -
d2betsBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-10-05
- 39994
#63Depends how you define it. I might do it if I was already near-death and in horrible physical pain. Otherwise, 0 chance.Comment -
TheGoldenGooseSBR MVP
- 11-27-12
- 3745
#64My chances of committing suicide are zero. I'm the proud father of an adult disabled son who depends on me every single day. As long as I have an ounce of fight in me then I'm answering that bell every single day.
@ BeatTheJerk: The world can be a very lonely place. As evidenced in this thread it would be a very lonelier place without you here at SBR. In the words of Rocky's trainer, Mickey Goldmill, "I didn't hear no bell" GET UP YOU SON OF A BIATCH... because SBR loves you.Comment -
BeatTheJerkBARRELED IN @ SBR!
- 08-19-07
- 31794
#65My chances of committing suicide are zero. I'm the proud father of an adult disabled son who depends on me every single day. As long as I have an ounce of fight in me then I'm answering that bell every single day.
@ BeatTheJerk: The world can be a very lonely place. As evidenced in this thread it would be a very lonelier place without you here at SBR. In the words of Rocky's trainer, Mickey Goldmill, "I didn't hear no bell" GET UP YOU SON OF A BIATCH... because SBR loves you.Comment -
pologqSBR Posting Legend
- 10-07-12
- 19899
#66My chances of committing suicide are zero. I'm the proud father of an adult disabled son who depends on me every single day. As long as I have an ounce of fight in me then I'm answering that bell every single day.
@ BeatTheJerk: The world can be a very lonely place. As evidenced in this thread it would be a very lonelier place without you here at SBR. In the words of Rocky's trainer, Mickey Goldmill, "I didn't hear no bell" GET UP YOU SON OF A BIATCH... because SBR loves you.Comment -
pologqSBR Posting Legend
- 10-07-12
- 19899
#69Thank you brother you & the other posters who chose to share encouraging words it means a lot. This might sound pathetic, but I don’t have a lot of close friends anymore & some of you guys on here fulfill that role I need to feel normal. My circle is very small now in life & I’m ok with that, but a gambling brother/friend I can relate to the most & that’s where you guys come in.
i have a lot of acquaintances but not a lot of friends. i have a ton of cousins that talk when they want to talk. if i don't chase, i won't really hear from them. i already know when my parents are gone i will be lonely unless i get in a relationship. scares me at times when i think of that.Comment -
LongBall52SBR MVP
- 06-14-20
- 1319
#70A mind is a terrible thingComment
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