suddenly under siege

[bonusguy]

has to be. screaming adrenals. neck pain. chest pain

i dont deserve this. yes im having a few beers tonight but im waking up everyday at 10 no questions asked

then im going to get a job. also i snagged one strip of modafnil from my mother today she had an old one left but ill flush it down the drain i dont even need it

terrible adrenal pain.

[bonusguy]

cant be a coinsidence

[cincinnatikid513]

in need of attention

[bonusguy]

this will be my last night drinking. throwing the strip of modafinil away

dont even need it anyway

this is insane. how can i recover and feel even decent

[bonusguy]

there is a 15% chance i just have a really upset stomach but i doubt it

[RitaontheRocks]

Dude we don’t care, shut the fukk up


RitaontheRocks

[JIBBBY]

Lol....

[mpaschal34]

this will be my last night drinking. throwing the strip of modafinil away

dont even need it anyway

this is insane. how can i recover and feel even decent

Wasn’t this the story line from the other day?

[jtoler]

beta rays are no joke bro

[bonusguy]

threw the last strip of modafinil away. dont need that shit anyways

having my last few beers ONLY because im in pain

no more drinking after today.



not going to try and learn chinese im not able for that. just going to get sober and then get a job. have to believe that these guys have a heart somewhere and will let me recover from modafinil/alcohol/everything else ect and make small bets

because i need the money. theres no doubt about that and because a regular citizen would be given a chance to come off gambling and not ripped from everything

[firedawg]

This guy should of been banned 3 mos ago

[ByeShea]

has to be. screaming adrenals. neck pain. chest pain

i dont deserve this. yes im having a few beers tonight but im waking up everyday at 10 no questions asked

then im going to get a job. also i snagged one strip of modafnil from my mother today she had an old one left but ill flush it down the drain i dont even need it

terrible adrenal pain.

[bonusguy]

if the pain tonight is because of gambling then thats just bs. total bs

who (with no life) can recover from 3 things at once. never mind terror-month which sucked the life out of me

[mpaschal34]

So you saying he went a step further than his gay porn collection.

[bonusguy]

do you think i sit and watch these games and just love it?

im coming back from numerous things. and you are totalling mother who is married to a selfish workaholic with an 81 IQ

let me make $8/hr and see if i want to bet $100 a game. i wont.

[TheSchafe]

Bonusguy you remind me of Nicky Santoro. Same posting style. Good luck tonight

[TheSchafe]

Got any play for tonight? 10 o'clock slate

[bonusguy]

ill quit drinking cold turkey. done modafinil

but gambling is a right. its my liberty and the only thing currentyl in my life that gives me any enjoyment( and yes i will need something to do while i recover)

[bonusguy]

all you \*\*\*\*\*\* posters can penetrate off

[TheSchafe]

ill quit drinking cold turkey. done modafinil

but gambling is a right. its my liberty and the only thing currentyl in my life that gives me any enjoyment( and yes i will need something to do while i recover)

Fukk yeah my man. That's the spirit. You on a 10 PM game? Want to go along for the ride

[JIBBBY]

[TheSchafe]

[bonusguy]

ptsd is one thing. it cant get better or worse. thats that only way they can justify pounding me for this. thinking that i cant get worse so why not. im just asking for the ability to wager for a little while until i get over the hump from alcohol and find a job

just a few weeks. plz. ive never gambled while holding a job and knowing the value of a dollar

[bonusguy]

i know my purpose in life. its just to make $8/hr and maybe help other alcoholics

i wont just sit around all day and do nothing anymore i promise. and you know that my family despises me and that was why i was depressed. i had a bad deal since 2007. bad bad deal. but i dont blame anyone its just the way it is

[TheSchafe]

ptsd is one thing. it cant get better or worse. thats that only way they can justify pounding me for this. thinking that i cant get worse so why not. im just asking for the ability to wager for a little while until i get over the hump from alcohol and find a job

just a few weeks. plz. ive never gambled while holding a job and knowing the value of a dollar

Nothing like gambling when you're on the clock. Really makes the time pass. Plus I get hours of handicapping done during an overnight shift. It's really paid dividends. As long as you put the work in, you can build a nice account balance.

[bonusguy]

sick confusion

just sick. cost me a decade being confused and not knowing what the fuk to do

[bonusguy]

terrible system. who gets anything out of this. i should just shut my mouth as the more i post it seems the worse it gets

[JoeCool20]

ptsd is one thing. it cant get better or worse. thats that only way they can justify pounding me for this. thinking that i cant get worse so why not. im just asking for the ability to wager for a little while until i get over the hump from alcohol and find a job

just a few weeks. plz. ive never gambled while holding a job and knowing the value of a dollar

If you are in pain all the time, then that sux and it is a sheitty way to live.

But Why can't you gamble? Who is stopping you from it?

[bonusguy]

joecool the pain is less (i belive) not 100% sure but feels that way

of course the fear of pain is the kicker. every little pain makes you think you might be under attack.

[bonusguy]

feel like absolute sh1t. wont be posting for a while

[The Giant]

How can this guy be normal in one thread, and have a complete meltdown in another?

Is this all for theatrics?

Are you the internet version of Jim Parsons?

[TheSchafe]

It's a civil war of the mind, Giant. A fascinating case study, indeed.

[HurryUpAndDrink]

life sucks... gotta get used to it cause it never changes

[Bostongambler]

Why not just walk around in Time square with a megaphone 📣 screaming “ Look at me”!!!!

[JIBBBY]

life sucks... gotta get used to it cause it never changes

Lol...

Not true if you change your evil ways, get goals in life, work hard for them and don't give up, give love a chance also never hurts.... Give God a chance even better..

Life is a road and journey that is wide open for anyone to explore and to choose what ever path ya wanna take.. That's keeping it real...

It's a beautiful thing actually when you keep it positive.. I love it, I love life.... FREEDOM!!!!!




I love this song by UB40.. It's got a gospel twist to it... Song of hope if you are struggling in life..