Lost around 900 on online BJ, look at this crock of shiat I wrote on March 12, 2010

[OmgUrMom]

I was just fukking bored out of my mind today, I mean yea there is stuff to do but I think I am in what JJ calls isolationism. Too scared to fukking leave my house or talk to anyone and I was so fukking bored I just needed sum fukking excitement 4 my day. I said I wasn't gonna do it a thousand times, but I opened my online blackjack tables and bet $10 a hand, ran TERRIBLE, realized i was down about a $100, realized how stupid this was but instead of quitting i thought i would martingale back to even, Put down a $100, lost, Put down $200, lost, Put down $480 or so (last of my account) got a motherfukking 20...YEA BABY, dealer is showing a 2, but WITH A FOKKING 9 hidden, and BAMM, MOTHERFOKKING BIATCH OF A QUEEN TO END MY ACCOUNT. I don't know what the fokk is wrong with me, I just can't control myself. Too prove this further this is what i posted in my journal on March 12, 2010, YES LESS THAN ONE MONTH AGO!

A New Beginning (yes some of my journal posts get titles)

Today is March 12, 2010. The day I start my new life and try to get things in order for a prosperous future. I need to join GA because I do NOT have my gambling issues under control. Every dollar I work for I eventually lose gambling. It is terrible and it has to stop. When I'm gambling I don't talk to my friends or even leave the house, If I quit I can reconnect with the world perhaps. I haven't had a girlfriend in years, if i quit gambling maybe I can work on this.

Things I have going for me (gotta stay positive). I have an awesome job at a retailer, I make $9 per hour. I have 3-4 friends who sorta like me, I hate them but oh well.

I just have to forget about past losses and wins, they are the past and I'm starting anew, they do not matter! Life of a gambler sucks ass, (at least when your bad at it) Time to put the past in the past and March 12, 2010 is day one for me! It will be tough at times but I can do it. I just have to remind myself of all the reasons why. Things may not be great now, but as long as I start over today, I can make things better for my future.


CAN YOU BELIEVE I WROTE THIS CROCK OF SHIAT LESS THAN ONE MONTH AGO AND IM ALREADY BACK TO GAMBLING???

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME GUYS, WHAT SHOULD I DO?

[whatsgood5]

Things I have going for me (gotta stay positive). I have an awesome job at a retailer, I make $9 per hour. I have 3-4 friends who sorta like me, I hate them but oh well.

[as99]

Online gambling (CASINO) is rigged. You can't win. Why are you throwing your money in the garbage? Nobody is monitoring them........ they can manipulate the software anyway they want.

[fsugolf]

well that lasted long

[OmgUrMom]

Online gambling (CASINO) is rigged. You can't win. Why are you throwing your money in the garbage? Nobody is monitoring them........ they can manipulate the software anyway they want.

I know it is, that is why I told myself I would not play them! But I just can't fukkin help myself.

[fsugolf]

one word comes to mind


starts with a "d"

[Donkwin47]

Definitely go to GA dude

[OmgUrMom]

one word comes to mind


starts with a "d"

delicious?

[MartinBlank]

I played an online casino way back when......I cant even remember who or why---but I sat down and lost something like 400 bucks in 15 minutes.

I blocked the casino and never looked back.

[as99]

If you are going to waste money

Then might as well make this bet:

4/10/10 1:00pm UFC Fighting 1301 Matt Hughes -440* vs Renzo Gracie
4/10/10 12:00pm UFC Fighting 1602 Phil Davis -465* vs Alexander Gustafsson

PARLAY this. 90% chance of happening. About 50% return.

Then run.

[OmgUrMom]

If you are going to waste money

Then might as well make this bet:

4/10/10 1:00pm UFC Fighting 1301 Matt Hughes -440* vs Renzo Gracie
4/10/10 12:00pm UFC Fighting 1602 Phil Davis -465* vs Alexander Gustafsson

PARLAY this. 90% chance of happening. About 50% return.

Then run.

UFC fighting is barbaric, if i bet on it, i would be condoning it, I can not do that.

But I know you meant well, so tk you for that.

[Extra Innings]

I'd look up a meeting in the directory and go. Anybody who suggests otherwise should be ignored

http://www.gamblersanonymous.org/mtgdirTOP.html

[tltaylor89]

Sad but true these people play in these rigged casinos .You had a better chance playing in the Phoenix live casino.

[jagaf22]

Corbin will be here to help you soon.

[as99]

Well I have to disagree, MMA is full of humble individuals (every sport has their bad apples) training their hardest in martial arts...... injuries are more severe in other sports but I think gambling is very bad for many reasons but you are condoning that.

[tealish]

I'd look up a meeting in the directory and go. Anybody who suggests otherwise should be ignored http://www.gamblersanonymous.org/mtgdirTOP.html

^Take the serious advice here.

[fsugolf]

get in those meetings

[as99]

Lastly all these casinos are hooked up to sports betting. Either way they pool their money from MMA events and you are condoning it when you spend or receive a dime from any of these companies.

[OmgUrMom]

^Take the serious advice here.

I'm seriously considering it, but I am having such severe anxiety problems right now (when around people) it will be hard for me to go there and be the new guy. I know it's the right thing to do, but I don't know if I can do it.

as99, Yes I have a gambling problem, but I would never tell another person to gamble or suggest it to them.

[OmgUrMom]

Sad but true these people play in these rigged casinos .You had a better chance playing in the Phoenix live casino.

that would be quite the drive.

[Extra Innings]

I'm seriously considering it, but I am having such severe anxiety problems right now (when around people) it will be hard for me to go there and be the new guy. I know it's the right thing to do, but I don't know if I can do it.

as99, Yes I have a gambling problem, but I would never tell another person to gamble or suggest it to them.

I'm pretty sure 90% of the people felt the same way as there is a reason why we gamble. I'd check it out and let them know about your feelings.

You're miserable. It's time to say good bye to this part of your life and get on with the business of being happy. You can always come back.

[Lockitup1x]

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

Go to a meeting just to check it out (It can't hurt). You can just sit there in silence if you are uneasy about socializing.

Tell close friends and family what is going on in your life, be totally honest.

Have someone you trust watch over your finances until you get everything under control.

[poker_dummy101]

What did you do before you started gambling? Go back to that. If that doesn't work write a few things down that you would like to do with your money. Start a budget, save up and do that. Realize how much better that is than gambling.

I wouldn't see how GA would work. Someone talking shit in your ear isn't going to help in the long run and that person won't be there when your home alone feeling that urge to throw a few bucks online. You have to do it yourself by being productive in other areas and setting short term goals and realizing them in order to achieve the long term ones.

[SamsNCharge99]

damn

[diamond]

This is really sad.

[Karayilan9]

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME GUYS, WHAT SHOULD I DO?

Work overtime, sell anything you have of worth, try get a bank loan they will probably refuse you so take out a big one with local loansharks and put it all on one game, all in, man up.

You can't go wrong with that advice

[Nismo]

Congrats, you just learned a lesson, "the hard way". Don't sweat it. There will be plenty more but, what you learn from them is what matters.

[soaked in sweat]

$900 = 100 hours @ $9/hour.
i feel bad for you omgurmom.
i hope things get better for you.

[mrmarket]

You are one of god's broken children but there is no god to help you. So welcome to the club buddy and take each experience as it comes. Savor the pain, pity and joy; The roller coaster of emotions that is the human condition. The ride ends too soon I'm afraid. Mother ****ing codeine.

Have you considered getting better at gambling? I'm not trying to be a prick but there are lots of resources at your disposal for less than $900 dollars that you can purchase that will make you a winning gambler.

[TexansFan]

Bet black 19.

[OmgUrMom]

What did you do before you started gambling? Go back to that. If that doesn't work write a few things down that you would like to do with your money. Start a budget, save up and do that. Realize how much better that is than gambling.

I wouldn't see how GA would work. Someone talking shit in your ear isn't going to help in the long run and that person won't be there when your home alone feeling that urge to throw a few bucks online. You have to do it yourself by being productive in other areas and setting short term goals and realizing them in order to achieve the long term ones.

I started gambling when I was 12 years old, playing online poker and using my moms credit card or getting an older friend to deposit for me and transfer the cash to my account.

I mean the problem with me is I do not learn, or simply can't quit gambling. I'm not technically stupid (going by IQ tests ect) but yet I can't help myself in making endless mistakes in life type decisions.

Ya I'm not at all convinced GA will help in the least, but i can't imagine it would hurt anything to go and I'm seriously considering it.

Bad life news as well, I'm working overnight shift (just got home) and I may be shit-canned after what happened last night. I took some icing off a pallet (its basically a 6x6 or so wooden type thing that product gets shipped in on). If you only have one pallet sitting out in the store, you are supposed to put red caution signs on top of it, well i had like 8 pallets in the back (like 40 feet away) and it was only gonna take me like a minute or less and I would be back, was gona add that pallet to the top of my other pallets. Well anyways, first off there is like never anyone shopping at this time and i only left it for a minute(literally one minute)....well you can guess my luck, some dumbazz runs into it while im back getting my other pallets. I would of been fired for sure if he would of said he was hurt, but he just laughed it off and went on shopping so now its a grey area, they can definetely still fire me if they want but I don't know its up to them. I'm broke, have had a serious gambling addiction for years, probably without a job now, single and have been for years. Tough to see any positives in my life at the moment.

[OmgUrMom]

Go to a meeting just to check it out (It can't hurt). You can just sit there in silence if you are uneasy about socializing.

Tell close friends and family what is going on in your life, be totally honest.

Have someone you trust watch over your finances until you get everything under control.

I wish I could tell my friends and family but either they are not very good people or perhaps it is me who has made them act this way towards me through my actions. Perhaps I deserve no compassion after the things I have done.

I would like to be able to tell them about these things but all they will immediately say is I TOLD YOU, YOU WHERE GONNA LOSE ALL YOUR MONEY GAMBLING. They do not want to listen to me whatsoever. I've neglected some of these relationships due to gambling but when I've tried to reach back out, I just get shot down. Like I said though, maybe at this point I deserve to be given up on.

[OmgUrMom]

$900 = 100 hours @ $9/hour.
i feel bad for you omgurmom.
i hope things get better for you.

that's a sobering statistic and its even worse when you calculate taxes into it as well. I do not want to see that figure

[JerseyLove]

Def. Get into GA. You sound like you have a serious problem

[Domestic]

OP, try and get some new hobbies or interests. Go buy some new videogames, start working out and building some body muscle or something. Pursue some interests.