I haven't been posting on this forum for that long, but after thinking about this for a week or two, I've decided to retire from online gambling.
I've been gambling for about 8 years, and I've had ups and downs. I started off small, then my bets increased progresively, like everyone does. A few years ago I had some losing streaks and was bailed out about 5k - sounds like its no big deal- but I was very close to ruining my career. Since then I haven't gotten myself in any trouble, and Ive actually been doing decent. But I can't stand the fact that I waste so much time on this shit. I think about all the lost opportunties over the years. It's not the money thats the biggest problem - I'm up for the past few yrs, it's the impact this shit has on all other areas of my life, and the interest i have lost in everyday activities.
I hate the fact that I spent all my holidays in front of the TV more worried about the outcome of the scores than I was spending quality time with my family.
It sucks that I've ruined a lot of relationships with GF's due to my mood swings.
It sucks when I play hookie from work to gamble and get behind.
It sucks when I sit there, go up 4-5K, feel numb, and attempt to turn it into 10K to change my feelings, and lose it all.
There are very few people out there that feel are genuinely happy...people resort to sex, drugs, alcohol, money, fame, you name it...external solutions to achieve a temporary and fake happy feeling. I'm sick of using gambling as an external solution. My life was so much better before I ever made a sports bet, and I want it back.
I miss the quality time I used to spend with family and friends, the charity events I used to partake in, and I miss watching sporting events for the fun of it. i miss waking up on a weekend and thinking of all the good stuff i'm going to do, not thinking of what games to bet on.
It's sick to think that I see sports fans and think "wow these guys are morons, why do they even care? they have no $ on it"...funny to see that I'm the idiot wagering 1,000 on the outcome of the game, and they are the pefectly sane person watching the game for entertainment purposes only.
I'm not going to get into the gambling disease, I'm sure most people on here have researched it at some point. Quiting isnt easy. But i'm ready. I've done it before, before i started back up because i thought i was "OK". there's no control in this game, it's either you're in or out...i want out.
good luck to everyone, I'm signing off.
one last thing - i'm not doing this because i'm on a losing streak. i actually had a great weekend. it didn't make me happy, it made me numb to everything else.
I've been gambling for about 8 years, and I've had ups and downs. I started off small, then my bets increased progresively, like everyone does. A few years ago I had some losing streaks and was bailed out about 5k - sounds like its no big deal- but I was very close to ruining my career. Since then I haven't gotten myself in any trouble, and Ive actually been doing decent. But I can't stand the fact that I waste so much time on this shit. I think about all the lost opportunties over the years. It's not the money thats the biggest problem - I'm up for the past few yrs, it's the impact this shit has on all other areas of my life, and the interest i have lost in everyday activities.
I hate the fact that I spent all my holidays in front of the TV more worried about the outcome of the scores than I was spending quality time with my family.
It sucks that I've ruined a lot of relationships with GF's due to my mood swings.
It sucks when I play hookie from work to gamble and get behind.
It sucks when I sit there, go up 4-5K, feel numb, and attempt to turn it into 10K to change my feelings, and lose it all.
There are very few people out there that feel are genuinely happy...people resort to sex, drugs, alcohol, money, fame, you name it...external solutions to achieve a temporary and fake happy feeling. I'm sick of using gambling as an external solution. My life was so much better before I ever made a sports bet, and I want it back.
I miss the quality time I used to spend with family and friends, the charity events I used to partake in, and I miss watching sporting events for the fun of it. i miss waking up on a weekend and thinking of all the good stuff i'm going to do, not thinking of what games to bet on.
It's sick to think that I see sports fans and think "wow these guys are morons, why do they even care? they have no $ on it"...funny to see that I'm the idiot wagering 1,000 on the outcome of the game, and they are the pefectly sane person watching the game for entertainment purposes only.
I'm not going to get into the gambling disease, I'm sure most people on here have researched it at some point. Quiting isnt easy. But i'm ready. I've done it before, before i started back up because i thought i was "OK". there's no control in this game, it's either you're in or out...i want out.
good luck to everyone, I'm signing off.
one last thing - i'm not doing this because i'm on a losing streak. i actually had a great weekend. it didn't make me happy, it made me numb to everything else.