On tilt, booked a trip to Vegas on Friday

[benandjerry]

sorry to hear, if it makes you feel any better I got robbed on that one too, one of the worst beats of the season...

[Titanup28]

I had em at -2.5. Also had a small play on the 1st half and it hit with ease. Should have had it all on 1st half but whatever

[Regul8er]

sorry to hear, if it makes you feel any better I got robbed on that one too, one of the worst beats of the season...

Sure it was a bad beat......but the funny thing is, I had about 5 or 6 worse in the past week alone!

[InTheDrink]

cuser you got a pretty good perspective all things considered

good luck pal

[GamblerSpirit]

Cuse, i think you made that prepubescent twink CanuckG aka Zach jeolous. Kid was talking very salty.

[CanuckG]

Was on tilt Seattle lost settle dowm guy. Jealous of losing 6 dimes makes sense.

[jmillionz]

Cuse you got enough roxys to get by till you build your roll back up?? Running out is no joke!!!!

[70CoupeDeVille]

Thanks for the reports, Cuse. Best reading on the interwebs last couple of days. Real sorry about the bad beat, but you seem to know how to take it in stride. Hang in there, pal.

[MoneyLineDawg]

Cuse you got enough roxys to get by till you build your roll back up?? Running out is no joke!!!!

I love those damn things but a few people I know really went off the deep end

[Cuse0323]

Reality is starting to set in after sleeping all day feeling like shit/sweating/hot to cold from the ridiculous amount of drinking. I need to get my shit together or I'm not gonna be around much longer. Found an ATM that would take my card, my bank is a bitch and it never works out here so I was worried but got enough for a taxi and some food finally. Time to look for a job when I get home either right away or after rehab as long as my insurance will pay for it which they should since my probation meeting is in a couple weeks and they'll probably mandate it or something along those lines. All my court fees are gonna come hammering down in a couple months, gonna need to work for sure to pay that off. Still cannot fathom how they didn't cover but probably for the best as I would have blown the money on the things that are making me make such terrible life decisions.

[Cuse0323]

Cuse you got enough roxys to get by till you build your roll back up?? Running out is no joke!!!!

Luckily or unlikely, however you want to look at it...the one thing I'm good at in life is making sure I have enough of everything to get me through my 3 addictions, gambling excluded.

[Cuse0323]

And thanks guys for the support.

[MoneyLineDawg]

Luckily or unlikely, however you want to look at it...the one thing I'm good at in life is making sure I have enough of everything to get me through my 3 addictions, gambling excluded.

What are the 3 addictions??

Seems like you truly want to get your shit together which is the hardest part......GL

[tto827]

What are the 3 addictions??

Seems like you truly want to get your shit together which is the hardest part......GL

Ya. I've never seen someone who seems to be spiraling but can acknowledge it. It'll all be good Cuse, no matter how you go about it, the first step to battling the demons is admitting you've got a problem.

[Cuse0323]

I've been drinking since I was 13 so about 12 years in March and I'm addicted to benzos and opiates, not a great combination as they are three CNS depressants which I mix daily. I've always been pretty self aware of my issues and I really do want to change but it's just ridiculously hard when you've changed your brain chemistry because of all the drugs.

Nothing more in this life that I want than to be happy and not have the constant panic attacks/depression and anxiety without drugs. They don't help completely or really even make me feel good just "normal" but the other option has never worked out. I'm afraid of death but put myself in positions to die everyday because the fear I feel without drugs is something I wouldn't wish on the most evil person in the world. I would say I'll get this figured out once and for all but that would just be lying to myself as I've promised that many times. Hopefully one day I can make it a year or so clean and let my brain heal and get the old me back. Then maybe help out kids who will go down the same road as me if they don't have the help early on needed to stop when you're the most vulnerable. Have to work on me first but that would be my goal second.

[PAULYPOKER]

Reality is starting to set in after sleeping all day feeling like shit/sweating/hot to cold from the ridiculous amount of drinking. I need to get my shit together or I'm not gonna be around much longer. Found an ATM that would take my card, my bank is a bitch and it never works out here so I was worried but got enough for a taxi and some food finally. Time to look for a job when I get home either right away or after rehab as long as my insurance will pay for it which they should since my probation meeting is in a couple weeks and they'll probably mandate it or something along those lines. All my court fees are gonna come hammering down in a couple months, gonna need to work for sure to pay that off. Still cannot fathom how they didn't cover but probably for the best as I would have blown the money on the things that are making me make such terrible life decisions.

Taking a great big "positive" step in the right direction.............

[Cuse0323]

Taking a great big "positive" step in the right direction.............

Thanks Pauly and MLD and tto. I'm gonna try harder than I ever have before to beat this and I appreciate the well wishes...I know I've said it many times but I really do appreciate it a lot guys.

[Giogeorge]

Sure it was a bad beat......but the funny thing is, I had about 5 or 6 worse in the past week alone!

Lakers thunder under sucked

[Cuse0323]

Lost a bit playing poker at the Bellagio...guy calls a good size raise with 4-5 off-suit and hits two pair while I hit top pair and have top kicker...Time to get home. Not looking for a pity party just updating

[mynameismud]

I've been drinking since I was 13 so about 12 years in March and I'm addicted to benzos and opiates, not a great combination as they are three CNS depressants which I mix daily. I've always been pretty self aware of my issues and I really do want to change but it's just ridiculously hard when you've changed your brain chemistry because of all the drugs.

Nothing more in this life that I want than to be happy and not have the constant panic attacks/depression and anxiety without drugs. They don't help completely or really even make me feel good just "normal" but the other option has never worked out. I'm afraid of death but put myself in positions to die everyday because the fear I feel without drugs is something I wouldn't wish on the most evil person in the world. I would say I'll get this figured out once and for all but that would just be lying to myself as I've promised that many times. Hopefully one day I can make it a year or so clean and let my brain heal and get the old me back. Then maybe help out kids who will go down the same road as me if they don't have the help early on needed to stop when you're the most vulnerable. Have to work on me first but that would be my goal second.

i was doing up to 500mg's of oxy per day along with 4 or 5 xannax bars. crushing it and snorting it. had to do a bump every hour just to keep from getting dope sick. get on suboxone! its a life saver. its perfect for people who cant afford rehab. you have to go into withdrawal for 24-36 hrs before you take your first dose. thats the only shitty part. after 10 minutes you feel fine. you wont be able to sleep normal for about 6 months but its worth it to be happy again. its a fukking miracle. havent touched opiates in over 3 years. good luck!

[opie1988]

Cuse......how old are you, pal?

[King Mayan]

Opie, you cant do basic math???

[opie1988]

Opie, you cant do basic math???

What am I missing? The 0323? How the fukk do we know that's his age? I figured it was probably his birthday.

Hey Mayan....let me tell you what I can do......I can give basic ass whoopings. In fact, I'm gonna upgrade you to my deluxe ass whoopin' package for free, fukknut.

You feel me, motherfukker?

[King Mayan]

Opie you double-left footed motherfukker, read his posts... He started drinking at 13 and he's been drinking for 12 years.. Thats basic math son!

[jmillionz]

Hey cuse see if you can get to a doc who will taper you off. IMO it's the best and most painless way off especially with the oxy. Slow decline. Lower the dose take that for 2 weeks then again and again and so on. I know how you are feeling. The fear of stopping is ridiculous. Too hard to put into words!

[Cuse0323]

i was doing up to 500mg's of oxy per day along with 4 or 5 xannax bars. crushing it and snorting it. had to do a bump every hour just to keep from getting dope sick. get on suboxone! its a life saver. its perfect for people who cant afford rehab. you have to go into withdrawal for 24-36 hrs before you take your first dose. thats the only shitty part. after 10 minutes you feel fine. you wont be able to sleep normal for about 6 months but its worth it to be happy again. its a fukking miracle. havent touched opiates in over 3 years. good luck!

Thanks mud, appreciate the advice. At least one thing I learned from all of this is I really have no true friends. I tell people what happened and they say damn that sucks....but can you still do this or that which only benefits them. I see you guys as more of friends than people I thought had my back at home. I'm turning 25 in March Opie.

[Cuse0323]

Hey cuse see if you can get to a doc who will taper you off. IMO it's the best and most painless way off especially with the oxy. Slow decline. Lower the dose take that for 2 weeks then again and again and so on. I know how you are feeling. The fear of stopping is ridiculous. Too hard to put into words!

Thanks man.

[MoneyLineDawg]

i was doing up to 500mg's of oxy per day along with 4 or 5 xannax bars. crushing it and snorting it. had to do a bump every hour just to keep from getting dope sick. get on suboxone! its a life saver. its perfect for people who cant afford rehab. you have to go into withdrawal for 24-36 hrs before you take your first dose. thats the only shitty part. after 10 minutes you feel fine. you wont be able to sleep normal for about 6 months but its worth it to be happy again. its a fukking miracle. havent touched opiates in over 3 years. good luck!

Damn bro that's alot of pills and a dangerous combo......Great to see you get off of it

Was never into benzos at all but I am a very casual user myself of roxys, percs, whatever (few times a month).....but not a daily user and never mix it with alcohol because I was always cautious as I've seen a few friends go down that road......It's very easy to see how people get caught up in it though seeing it first hand

One of my good friends did the suboxone thing and he's finally back to normal after like 6 months.....Being social, going out with us on the weekends, etc.....He said that it basically saved his life but he also said its pretty hard to get off the suboxone as well at the end......but overall well worth it

[JayLA]

I've been on both sides of horrible drug stories, I wish you all the best.

Not to sound preachy but it's truly mind over matter. Whatever way you decide to kick the habit, you can do it. Opiates, benzos, stimulants, alcohol....mind over matter. Good luck.

[mynameismud]

Damn bro that's alot of pills and a dangerous combo......Great to see you get off of it

Was never into benzos at all but I am a very casual user myself of roxys, percs, whatever (few times a month).....but not a daily user and never mix it with alcohol because I was always cautious as I've seen a few friends go down that road......It's very easy to see how people get caught up in it though seeing it first hand

One of my good friends did the suboxone thing and he's finally back to normal after like 6 months.....Being social, going out with us on the weekends, etc.....He said that it basically saved his life but he also said its pretty hard to get off the suboxone as well at the end......but overall well worth it

i know, its a huge amount. took me almost 6 years to get there. i remember when 10mg would make me "nod". i envy people who use opiates casually. i truly wish i could. the suboxone took away the dope sickness but i was nowhere near normal for about 7 months. nothing made me happy because i was so used to being high. literally slept only 1-2 hours a night for 6 months until my body got used to sleeping without opiates. it takes a long time for the receptors in your brain to heal. its a tough 6 months but eventually its worth it big time!

[mynameismud]

I've been on both sides of horrible drug stories, I wish you all the best.

Not to sound preachy but it's truly mind over matter. Whatever way you decide to kick the habit, you can do it. Opiates, benzos, stimulants, alcohol....mind over matter. Good luck.

dope sickness is the worst thing on this planet.

[JayLA]

i know, its a huge amount. took me almost 6 years to get there. i remember when 10mg would make me "nod". i envy people who use opiates casually. i truly wish i could. the suboxone took away the dope sickness but i was nowhere near normal for about 7 months. nothing made me happy because i was so used to being high. literally slept only 1-2 hours a night for 6 months until my body got used to sleeping without opiates. it takes a long time for the receptors in your brain to heal. its a tough 6 months but eventually its worth it big time!

prescription drugs do their job (binding to receptors) "better" than illegal drugs made in clandestine labs; extracted and 'cut' with god-knows-what....this is why benzo's like xanax and opiate's like blues are so hard to kick.....

but it's possible. i'm not proud of it, but i've seen and heard it all relating to drugs and their tragic effects on people of all ages.
don't give up, don't hand your life over to some drug. the mind is a terrible thing to waste.

dope sickness is the worst thing on this planet.

i know first hand how bad it is. south florida has a huge problem with blues.

btw, my name is mud by primus is that song i love that everyone i know hates lol. les claypool

glad you got out ok, mynameismud.. congratulations.

[mynameismud]

prescription drugs do their job (binding to receptors) "better" than illegal drugs made in clandestine labs; extracted and 'cut' with god-knows-what....this is why benzo's like xanax and opiate's like blues are so hard to kick.....

but it's possible. i'm not proud of it, but i've seen and heard it all relating to drugs and their tragic effects on people of all ages.
don't give up, don't hand your life over to some drug. the mind is a terrible thing to waste.



i know first hand how bad it is. south florida has a huge problem with blues.

btw, my name is mud by primus is that song i love that everyone i know hates lol. les claypool

glad you got out ok, mynameismud.. congratulations.

thanks, i appreciate it. was a huge primus fan back in the day.

[tshafer117]

Just saw Primus and Fishbone a couple months ago here in Las Vegas! Great bands!

Cuse just try and limit yourself and get help. Can't really say anything positive myself I battle with drug addiction also. I do rockers almost daily but never really feel sick without them thank god. My father overdosed when I was 12 and my mom overdosed when I was 19 so I know all about drug addiction. Try and stay clean and honestly a day at a time is the best way to look at things. Good luck man

[PAULYPOKER]

Opie you double-left footed motherfukker, read his posts... He started drinking at 13 and he's been drinking for 12 years.. Thats basic math son!