How bad is this?
I know I'm gonna hear a ton of shit for this, but I just wanted to put my story out there as a warning to others and any support from those with an ounce of sympathy in their bodies. I am a recreational bettor who plays all sports, but mostly tennis, hockey, and baseball. Over the last 3 years since I began I've had my ups and downs, but mostly downs. Then lately I figured out a pattern of betting parlays that had been really successful. To put it in a nutshell, I took $500 and built it up to about $20,000 in 3 days playing parlays alone. Then my crazy side took over and I hit the casino to play blackjack over the course of a few days with some straight wagers along the way that built my bankroll up to $80,000, I kid you not. Somehow I won over $50,000 in the casino playing blackjack, unbelievable.
That was more than enough to make up for my lifetime losses and then some (about $10K profit). However, my degenerative ass took it back to the casino again and lost about $30,000 on one day causing me to chase losses with huge straight wagers I've never played before, I'm talking $10-20k per game on heavy chalk, rookie mistake I know. Bottom line, I hit a few, lost a few, and lost the remaining $25k I had in blackjack busting me out all in just a week's time.
I went from so far under to just above when I should've quit to right back to where I was a week ago and I'm still in a state of shock. I have no idea why I didn't retire altogether when I hit $80,000 and live off of that for a while (it's 3 years salary for me now), and I don't know how to handle it in general. What are the odds anything like this ever happens again? Do I even bother betting another game in my life? I mean that was some serious life changing money for me and my family and I ****** it all up. Has anyone ever suffered a similar let down? It's one thing to deposit win and lose, and another to go through the extreme high and devastating low that I'm at now.
Any suggestions? Already tried GA and that's not my scene whatsoever, God does not exist in my life and will not help me turn around my life. These boards are the next best thing since everyone is still in the thick of things. I'm thinking about counseling next, but damn what I wouldn't give for another crack at a run like that. Please talk me out of being stupid again. I'm tempted to deposit another $500 and see what happens. Has there ever been a worse story than this? Thoughts? Comments? Blast away.
That was more than enough to make up for my lifetime losses and then some (about $10K profit). However, my degenerative ass took it back to the casino again and lost about $30,000 on one day causing me to chase losses with huge straight wagers I've never played before, I'm talking $10-20k per game on heavy chalk, rookie mistake I know. Bottom line, I hit a few, lost a few, and lost the remaining $25k I had in blackjack busting me out all in just a week's time.
I went from so far under to just above when I should've quit to right back to where I was a week ago and I'm still in a state of shock. I have no idea why I didn't retire altogether when I hit $80,000 and live off of that for a while (it's 3 years salary for me now), and I don't know how to handle it in general. What are the odds anything like this ever happens again? Do I even bother betting another game in my life? I mean that was some serious life changing money for me and my family and I ****** it all up. Has anyone ever suffered a similar let down? It's one thing to deposit win and lose, and another to go through the extreme high and devastating low that I'm at now.
Any suggestions? Already tried GA and that's not my scene whatsoever, God does not exist in my life and will not help me turn around my life. These boards are the next best thing since everyone is still in the thick of things. I'm thinking about counseling next, but damn what I wouldn't give for another crack at a run like that. Please talk me out of being stupid again. I'm tempted to deposit another $500 and see what happens. Has there ever been a worse story than this? Thoughts? Comments? Blast away.
