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I'm feeling like an idiot for even considering this whole thing.
Health not good, RF maybe not successful.
I'm very frustrated and this whole has only cost me money. I don't think I can move forward.
We're going over things now, but it doesn't look good. I have a registered company in CA that is doing nothing but costing money. There is a minimum tax of $800 just to be registered, whether you go in business or not. Not to mention fines and possibly out right losing the corp because I have submitted nothing to the Sec of State.
Mentally, I am not in it at all.
I'm already meeting with surgeons next week.
Instead of getting better, I am worse than a year ago.
Only this time, there is no relief in sight, no hopeful answer or procedure to cling to. Meanwhile, while still dealing with neuritis along with some pain we were supposed to burn away, I forced a cold turkey quit of pain killers...the strong ones.
Knee deep in the shit now and it only gets deeper, I'm only two days into what will be at least a 2 week withdrawal.
They offered more pain killers, I politely told them to fuk off.
I am not a happy camper, and feel a bit failed here, again, by the system.
All of life is a gamble, and this year, with three trips to the RF table, there were three major mistakes, causing delays and problems. These procedures cost me thousands of dollars as medical insurance was working fast enough.
Starting to lose faith in the one thing that kept me going.
The situation is not good, I've lost more than 10% of my weight in the last couple of weeks. That's not good considering I was already under weight to begin with at less than 150 lbs. Take another 10% that we can't even figure out where it came from.
The only thing I accomplish each day is the bare minimum posting of plays, nothing more. I don't even eat anymore.
This isn't just a response to CashFlow. The reason I rarely post anymore isn't just because SBR is shithole from top to bottom, though that was a big part of it.
Shit, I finished all the results of everything from last week on Sunday, they're just sitting, waiting to be posted. What is today? Thursday? Sorry.
Debating whether to even hit submit on this post, feeling defeated here.
But then again, when you are withdrawing from Perks, you feel all sorts of things on a daily basis.
Maybe I just need more time.
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The KVB NBA Contrarian Fund has picked up...
Again this is actually belongs in the market tracking Contrarian Fund.564 31-Oct NO +4 (-105)
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Thoughts and prayers, KVB.I'm feeling like an idiot for even considering this whole thing.
Health not good, RF maybe not successful.
I'm very frustrated and this whole has only cost me money. I don't think I can move forward.
We're going over things now, but it doesn't look good. I have a registered company in CA that is doing nothing but costing money. There is a minimum tax of $800 just to be registered, whether you go in business or not. Not to mention fines and possibly out right losing the corp because I have submitted nothing to the Sec of State.
Mentally, I am not in it at all.
I'm already meeting with surgeons next week.
Instead of getting better, I am worse than a year ago.
Only this time, there is no relief in sight, no hopeful answer or procedure to cling to. Meanwhile, while still dealing with neuritis along with some pain we were supposed to burn away, I forced a cold turkey quit of pain killers...the strong ones.
Knee deep in the shit now and it only gets deeper, I'm only two days into what will be at least a 2 week withdrawal.
They offered more pain killers, I politely told them to fuk off.
I am not a happy camper, and feel a bit failed here, again, by the system.
All of life is a gamble, and this year, with three trips to the RF table, there were three major mistakes, causing delays and problems. These procedures cost me thousands of dollars as medical insurance was working fast enough.
Starting to lose faith in the one thing that kept me going.
The situation is not good, I've lost more than 10% of my weight in the last couple of weeks. That's not good considering I was already under weight to begin with at less than 150 lbs. Take another 10% that we can't even figure out where it came from.
The only thing I accomplish each day is the bare minimum posting of plays, nothing more. I don't even eat anymore.
This isn't just a response to CashFlow. The reason I rarely post anymore isn't just because SBR is shithole from top to bottom, though that was a big part of it.
Shit, I finished all the results of everything from last week on Sunday, they're just sitting, waiting to be posted. What is today? Thursday? Sorry.
Debating whether to even hit submit on this post, feeling defeated here.
But then again, when you are withdrawing from Perks, you feel all sorts of things on a daily basis.
Maybe I just need more time.
I love you, man.
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Wow man, thank you DDD. I know I have some friends around here.
It's a downpour alright, and that's exactly what it is. thanks for seeing that and even giving me some perspective.
I think I just need some time, even just a week, and oh how outlooks can change.
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The KVB NCAAF Visiting Dog ML Fund has added...
A very late addition.303 31-Oct GA SOUTHERN +490
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Left, Right or Middle?
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Nice bike
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Nice bike
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KVB, Take care of yourself. You know you have a lot of friends here who care about you.
Some days will be tough to get through, but know that tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities.
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Thank you kind sir. Now can I have her?Comment -
I’ll share my food, money and coloring books, but feliones, eh.Comment -
Come on BG... She has THREE holes, man.
Don't be greedy.Comment -
I know I didn't post last week's results yet, there were 41 plays for -.17 units overall. I'll post it all soon, but the star of the week was the haymaker Fund, having 10 plays for +5 units. The leaves the Fund at -6.71 units on the season.
Remember, as posted before, I missed a Purdue +170 play, and tonight GA Southern just paid the Fund +490.
This Fund, down 11.71 units a week ago, is near even, or you get what I mean even without Purdue.
I'll get all the summaries out tomorrow, but we are seeing that turn, that shift from those giant upsets, down to the two td range guys. Let's hope it lasts.
With 11 plays in the haymaker Fund tomorrow, we could end up right back where we were a week ago.
Amplified Farms still on the same batch of Motor Breath and Slurricane as before, growing some of the best in the world.
Those guys are innovators. They say it's the lights, but I know they have to be fukkin with genetics...
I clearly picked the wrong week to stop sniffing glue, so I need to make up for it in other ways...
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Hahahaha that picture is more like it.Comment
