I have tried to stay away from gambling.I can't.I've posted different situations and personal feelings on here before--I"M AN OPEN BOOK.
This is virtually a "beg for points thread" for someone who's running out of money to buy giftcards that sometimes dont work.It's embarassing,but I'm genuine--as real as it gets.
I'm tired of being a liar to my girlfriend and am trying to--play contests,etc---to take place of spending every dollar.The points would be a help.Even if it's one--anything you can spare.I play poker freerolls,sbr contests,streak for the cash on espn.ANYTHING to keep my dignity and take "the high road"(for me it's a high road)--I can't live with myself anymore.My insides are a mess from spending money.
I've even tried GA---went once--felt like a cult and made me uncomfortable.The person that was responsible for me--called me at work,hounded me,and wanted to gamble himself. I decided to handle it myself.I went 178 days without gambling but unfortunately--I was depressed and had a lonely moment(thinking about my dead parents)--and was stupid enough to go into the local OTB
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I basically follow the rules of life but gambling is my vice.
--I'm there for everyone accept myself.It hurts so bad that I know that I'm such a good hearted person and can do this to myself.Just rips my heart out
.I'm such an honest person except for hiding my gambling.I feel like a real crumb(you guys are strangers).Some of you guys probably have similar problems and I know just how you feel.If I was a selfish S O B then I guess I would deserve to be sh%tted on.I'm not.I help children.I rescue animals--good karma isn't happening and I need some bad.
Bottom line: If anyone has any points to spare,I would greatly appreciate it.Just to keep me away from money that I can't spend.If any of you think that I'm pathetic,that fine.I know that I'm secure in being a good person and if this is the most humiliating thing that I do,I could live with myself.
I have to go,my girlfriend is insecure beyond belief(asking me what I'm doing)(she's as miserable as my gambling addiction)----she's asking me what I'm doing like I'm a kid(a million times over)
good luck everyone---and basher's try to take it easy on me
This is virtually a "beg for points thread" for someone who's running out of money to buy giftcards that sometimes dont work.It's embarassing,but I'm genuine--as real as it gets.
I'm tired of being a liar to my girlfriend and am trying to--play contests,etc---to take place of spending every dollar.The points would be a help.Even if it's one--anything you can spare.I play poker freerolls,sbr contests,streak for the cash on espn.ANYTHING to keep my dignity and take "the high road"(for me it's a high road)--I can't live with myself anymore.My insides are a mess from spending money.
I've even tried GA---went once--felt like a cult and made me uncomfortable.The person that was responsible for me--called me at work,hounded me,and wanted to gamble himself. I decided to handle it myself.I went 178 days without gambling but unfortunately--I was depressed and had a lonely moment(thinking about my dead parents)--and was stupid enough to go into the local OTB
.I basically follow the rules of life but gambling is my vice.
--I'm there for everyone accept myself.It hurts so bad that I know that I'm such a good hearted person and can do this to myself.Just rips my heart out.I'm such an honest person except for hiding my gambling.I feel like a real crumb(you guys are strangers).Some of you guys probably have similar problems and I know just how you feel.If I was a selfish S O B then I guess I would deserve to be sh%tted on.I'm not.I help children.I rescue animals--good karma isn't happening and I need some bad.Bottom line: If anyone has any points to spare,I would greatly appreciate it.Just to keep me away from money that I can't spend.If any of you think that I'm pathetic,that fine.I know that I'm secure in being a good person and if this is the most humiliating thing that I do,I could live with myself.
I have to go,my girlfriend is insecure beyond belief(asking me what I'm doing)(she's as miserable as my gambling addiction)----she's asking me what I'm doing like I'm a kid
(a million times over)good luck everyone---and basher's try to take it easy on me