I cant feel my life!!

[Pecos Bill]

i want to return to the days of pre internet when i actually felt like a normal human living in a normal world. i feel like im living in a fake world now. i spend more time with strangers on the internet than i do with family and friends. i just dont feel human anymore....its like im dead. i walk around with a blank, stoic expression on my face. theres no spark in my eye anymore, no healthy glow of the skin, no excited eyes...im just a crusty shell.

i want to be part of a human community again and not some electronic copy. you guys dont fill my deep spiritual need that i can get from real people. you guys make me happy like a glass of coke makes me happy when im thirsty. but coke isnt going to cure my emptiness.I dont even give a shit about gamlbing, i just do it as an artificial purpose in my life, something make me feel alive i guess. i felt this way for so long i dont know whats depression and whats happiness. my life peaked as a kid. i think thats sad. thousands of years ago, i would be dead by now from fighting in a war for my society or a disease. now im 24, living a dull life in front of the computer all day rotting like a piece of shit. thing is, i have nothing else to replace gambling or the my internet addiction. love. i need more love in my life.

[Fiasco]

get rid of computer

not rocket science...

[flyingillini]

This guy resembles Nicky and his writing style, Ghost alert!

[InTheHole]

Start Here!

Trust Me

[Pecos Bill]

this guy resembles nicky and his writing style, ghost alert!

fvck you, fvck you already!!!!

[G's pks]

Get help...

[InTheHole]

Buy a new shirt and grow the hair out

[flyingillini]

fvck you, fvck you already!!!!

What does Swede, Onthewhat and this idiot have in common?

[InTheHole]

It's gotta be nicky with the "glow"

[Pecos Bill]

I want to feel love

Ive never been in love, ive never had a gf, how does love feel?i want to feel love. inside, i feel like a monster trapped inside a castle and the only thing that would set me free is a kiss from a woman that loves me. i want to feel loved, to feel special..to feel wanted.

i want time to stand still and i want everything around me to not matter. my life would be whole. every day i get uglier, meaner and more angry. i need to be saved. oh what i would give to just hug a girl on a couch by the fire and just stay in that position all night. just to have her beauty seep into my soul and heal me. replenish me with the love that ive been so deprived of. i want to look into the eyes of a woman and look into her soul. i want see baby dolphins leap for joy in her beautiful infinte eyes. i want it all to come together when i find her....If i find her.

love is not something you can buy. its not something you can study for and achieve or win at a poker table. do i deserve love? i want love but is it too good for me? i dont deserve something that beautiful. but i long for it with all my heart.

some nights i lay on my bed and pretend theres a girl next to me sleeping. and im stroking her hair and kissing her neck. i put my arms around her, shut my eyes real tight and fall asleep with my loved one. but it's just my pillow.

i want a girl to really like me. i want her to laugh at all my jokes. i want her to hug my arm when we go out and ill protect her. ill be her man and she'll feel safe and proud.

will i ever experience this?

i will do anything for love....
i will do anything for love....

[BadNina]

Mr. Pecos Bill, you sounds a little depressed.

[ijustwant2bpaid]

tough break guy, guess im lucky to have plenty of people that love me and have loved me. go surf the internet for a hooker, u can get laid and u dont even have to listen to them bitch, you will be ok guy...

[Chi_archie]

I wish you luck in your attempt to break free from the internets..... I think it is just a passing fade, so don't worry too much.... computers will never catch on

[wtf]

this cannot be for real

you are not that ugly dude, like the elephant man

there must be some chick desperate enough to date u, your not trying

[reno cool]

The problem is the culture we live in. It just doesn't sit well with some people. Probably most people. But we find ways to deal with it (sort of). Forum isn't as much the problem as what brought you here.

If you're serious to begin with.

[Flyers09]

then do it muslim fvck, ditch the comp just dont go blowing up building

[Irish Jet]

First off, Stop feeling sorry for yourself and do something about it! Even if you don't know what that is. You need to get out of your comfort zone and do something else. Set yourself some goals, because it doesn't sound like the path your heading down has a happy ending.