Everyone,
I want to thank you for all the kind words and thoughts. I want to thank the people who pm'd me and the people who cared. I also wanted to take a minute and give a few brief updates to everything that has happened and a little paragraph to help motivate others facing hard times.
Firstly, after 3 months of dealing with all of this I AM WORSE than I was before because I was able to at least be mobile, I would take my pills when I had to and I would go drink and have fun at least. Now, I can't drink obviously, I can't eat most foods until I heal. I went through 6 days 12 hours and 31 mins (or something like that but who is counting) completely out of it. I have spent a total of about 7 weeks (not all at once) in bed.
So what is going on now? Well I finally have had it, I cannot take feeling like a test monkey and waking up and hearing bad news all the time. My heart pumps my blood the same it did as before (not very good) and I am not about to undergo hardcore heart surgery at my age. I will continue to take my medications that I take and if I need medical attention I will seek it. Preventing me from dying is like replacing an engine on a car that is only a year old.. it is pointless. Against a lot of advice I signed several medical waivers and refused treatment and finally am back home. Bed ridden and sore and wishing I could eat some good food... no more mashed potatoes please!
I am going to try to leave the state of FL, this state has things so ass backwards it is beyond me. Sure, if you like to party and love the beach you can have fun here, but any state that takes me to court several times to KEEP ME in the hospital has serious issues... I was feeling OK prior to this all happening but now after being poked, prodded, tested and ekg'd to death and having a permanent soundtrack of "BEEP, BEEP, BEEP" in my head I am ready to leave.
For those of you who think I want sympathy I do not. I caused this, not the heart condition but had I not gotten a dui and had medications in my back seat I would be singing a different tune. Granted I have discovered a lot more about my condition than I already knew and a few options that I never knew I had I did the part that caused the state to be not so pleasant with me.
What's next?
I am looking to leave this state ASAP. I have a meeting with my probation officer before I go before a district court judge asking for permission to leave the state, I have to prepare statements that show I am bettering myself and proof that I will do what is in my best interest as well as the state. Granted... signing 3 medical waivers and refusing medical treatment does not always look so great... it was what was good for me...
If anyone knows a state that has good hospitals specializing in cardiac care please let me know. Also, if anyone knows of a place that has some retail management jobs please let me know. I am not supposed to work but I am so far in debt because of medical bills I cannot stand by and live off of disability, so when I get a little better I want to return to work. Also! if anyone knows a good college to take online courses at to finish my degree in business management PLEASE let me know.
Inspiration -
Everyone, I am a young guy who has went through a ton, I have attempted suicide, went through insane depression, went through success in my career, success with women, engaged twice, almost dying 3 different times thanks to my heart and went through periods where I was broke to periods where i had so much money I didn't know what to do with it all. Life has it's highs and lows, I have seen people more depressed on this board than a lot of boards. I have lost a lot of friends and seen a lot of people be complete dicks about life.
Life is truly unfair at times, and we sometimes cause it to be that way. I want you all to know that you truly need to cherish the good times and embrace them and appreciate them because you never know when that will be the last good time. Appreciate every friend because you never know when you will be without one. Be responsible financially, I know some of you are but I know a fair amt of people here are not... I know it is hard to do but being in a place where you can afford items when you want to and not living hand to mouth is a great place to be in.
Also, DO NOT BE DESTRUCTIVE TO YOURSELF. Sure, it's great to take chances but drinking and driving, transporting drugs, doing highly illegal things that you know are illegal is just plain stupid and granted my legal past consists of 1 stupid thing... it truly is not worth what happens in the end. Call a cab, be smart about things and RESEARCH THE OUTCOME! before you do it.
In closing.. I just have a few things to ask and I truly hate to ask but I want to know all my options.
I am in debt about 400k with medical bills thanks to years of medical stuff and thus far this year about 320k. I cannot afford it all obviously.. is bankruptcy smart in my case?
I have several years of management experience and was a regional manager for a cell phone start up 2 years ago, I have been on disability ever since... is the work force that bad in that field? Anyone recommend a good major to take at school besides business management? (I was also good at IT when I was younger)
Anyone need a roommate? (semi-serious)
Thank you all for your well wishes, I hope to be active and out of bed as soon as I can.. when I look a little better I will be posting a vid. Sorry about the long post.
Brody (aka xstud)
SPECIAL THANKS... Smitch, Amby, Fisch, Sforz, Willie Bee, VegasDave, Blitty, RogueScholar
-Amby, I could not thank you enough for being more than a poster, more than a chat buddy, more than a fellow gambler... a good friend.
I want to thank you for all the kind words and thoughts. I want to thank the people who pm'd me and the people who cared. I also wanted to take a minute and give a few brief updates to everything that has happened and a little paragraph to help motivate others facing hard times.
Firstly, after 3 months of dealing with all of this I AM WORSE than I was before because I was able to at least be mobile, I would take my pills when I had to and I would go drink and have fun at least. Now, I can't drink obviously, I can't eat most foods until I heal. I went through 6 days 12 hours and 31 mins (or something like that but who is counting) completely out of it. I have spent a total of about 7 weeks (not all at once) in bed.
So what is going on now? Well I finally have had it, I cannot take feeling like a test monkey and waking up and hearing bad news all the time. My heart pumps my blood the same it did as before (not very good) and I am not about to undergo hardcore heart surgery at my age. I will continue to take my medications that I take and if I need medical attention I will seek it. Preventing me from dying is like replacing an engine on a car that is only a year old.. it is pointless. Against a lot of advice I signed several medical waivers and refused treatment and finally am back home. Bed ridden and sore and wishing I could eat some good food... no more mashed potatoes please!
I am going to try to leave the state of FL, this state has things so ass backwards it is beyond me. Sure, if you like to party and love the beach you can have fun here, but any state that takes me to court several times to KEEP ME in the hospital has serious issues... I was feeling OK prior to this all happening but now after being poked, prodded, tested and ekg'd to death and having a permanent soundtrack of "BEEP, BEEP, BEEP" in my head I am ready to leave.
For those of you who think I want sympathy I do not. I caused this, not the heart condition but had I not gotten a dui and had medications in my back seat I would be singing a different tune. Granted I have discovered a lot more about my condition than I already knew and a few options that I never knew I had I did the part that caused the state to be not so pleasant with me.
What's next?
I am looking to leave this state ASAP. I have a meeting with my probation officer before I go before a district court judge asking for permission to leave the state, I have to prepare statements that show I am bettering myself and proof that I will do what is in my best interest as well as the state. Granted... signing 3 medical waivers and refusing medical treatment does not always look so great... it was what was good for me...
If anyone knows a state that has good hospitals specializing in cardiac care please let me know. Also, if anyone knows of a place that has some retail management jobs please let me know. I am not supposed to work but I am so far in debt because of medical bills I cannot stand by and live off of disability, so when I get a little better I want to return to work. Also! if anyone knows a good college to take online courses at to finish my degree in business management PLEASE let me know.
Inspiration -
Everyone, I am a young guy who has went through a ton, I have attempted suicide, went through insane depression, went through success in my career, success with women, engaged twice, almost dying 3 different times thanks to my heart and went through periods where I was broke to periods where i had so much money I didn't know what to do with it all. Life has it's highs and lows, I have seen people more depressed on this board than a lot of boards. I have lost a lot of friends and seen a lot of people be complete dicks about life.
Life is truly unfair at times, and we sometimes cause it to be that way. I want you all to know that you truly need to cherish the good times and embrace them and appreciate them because you never know when that will be the last good time. Appreciate every friend because you never know when you will be without one. Be responsible financially, I know some of you are but I know a fair amt of people here are not... I know it is hard to do but being in a place where you can afford items when you want to and not living hand to mouth is a great place to be in.
Also, DO NOT BE DESTRUCTIVE TO YOURSELF. Sure, it's great to take chances but drinking and driving, transporting drugs, doing highly illegal things that you know are illegal is just plain stupid and granted my legal past consists of 1 stupid thing... it truly is not worth what happens in the end. Call a cab, be smart about things and RESEARCH THE OUTCOME! before you do it.
In closing.. I just have a few things to ask and I truly hate to ask but I want to know all my options.
I am in debt about 400k with medical bills thanks to years of medical stuff and thus far this year about 320k. I cannot afford it all obviously.. is bankruptcy smart in my case?
I have several years of management experience and was a regional manager for a cell phone start up 2 years ago, I have been on disability ever since... is the work force that bad in that field? Anyone recommend a good major to take at school besides business management? (I was also good at IT when I was younger)
Anyone need a roommate? (semi-serious)
Thank you all for your well wishes, I hope to be active and out of bed as soon as I can.. when I look a little better I will be posting a vid. Sorry about the long post.
Brody (aka xstud)
SPECIAL THANKS... Smitch, Amby, Fisch, Sforz, Willie Bee, VegasDave, Blitty, RogueScholar
-Amby, I could not thank you enough for being more than a poster, more than a chat buddy, more than a fellow gambler... a good friend.
