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So I had another episode of compulsive gambilng last night,I overdrawn my bank again,which I dont know why I did it,Im already on chexsystem and if I messed up this account again,I'll never gonna have a checking account.Why do I do stupid things?I play black jack,and sometimes I am lucky most of the times Im not.The other day I won $1000 then I gave it back last night plus more,what a life.Where am I gonna get money to buy formula for my son? He is 2 months old.I guess I have to borrow from someone,again.MY life revolves in gambling,its like a drug I could not stop.I get high when Im winning and lows when Im losing.What I could've done with that $1000? alot.pay bills,buy food,grocery.Now I feel crap,Im broke.,not even a quarter in my pocket.Who is going to help me? NO one.I feel alone,I feel sorry for my self.Sometimes I feel like my sons deserve a better mom.This disease is eating me alive.Im scared that one day,Im just going to lose it all.
So I had another episode of compulsive gambilng last night,I overdrawn my bank again,which I dont know why I did it,Im already on chexsystem and if I messed up this account again,I'll never gonna have a checking account.Why do I do stupid things?I play black jack,and sometimes I am lucky most of the times Im not.The other day I won $1000 then I gave it back last night plus more,what a life.Where am I gonna get money to buy formula for my son? He is 2 months old.I guess I have to borrow from someone,again.MY life revolves in gambling,its like a drug I could not stop.I get high when Im winning and lows when Im losing.What I could've done with that $1000? alot.pay bills,buy food,grocery.Now I feel crap,Im broke.,not even a quarter in my pocket.Who is going to help me? NO one.I feel alone,I feel sorry for my self.Sometimes I feel like my sons deserve a better mom.This disease is eating me alive.Im scared that one day,Im just going to lose it all.
and feed the kid, then she can buy food or figure who daddy is.