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So I had another episode of compulsive gambilng last night,I overdrawn my bank again,which I dont know why I did it,Im already on chexsystem and if I messed up this account again,I'll never gonna have a checking account.Why do I do stupid things?I play black jack,and sometimes I am lucky most of the times Im not.The other day I won $1000 then I gave it back last night plus more,what a life.Where am I gonna get money to buy formula for my son? He is 2 months old.I guess I have to borrow from someone,again.MY life revolves in gambling,its like a drug I could not stop.I get high when Im winning and lows when Im losing.What I could've done with that $1000? alot.pay bills,buy food,grocery.Now I feel crap,Im broke.,not even a quarter in my pocket.Who is going to help me? NO one.I feel alone,I feel sorry for my self.Sometimes I feel like my sons deserve a better mom.This disease is eating me alive.Im scared that one day,Im just going to lose it all.
So I had another episode of compulsive gambilng last night,I overdrawn my bank again,which I dont know why I did it,Im already on chexsystem and if I messed up this account again,I'll never gonna have a checking account.Why do I do stupid things?I play black jack,and sometimes I am lucky most of the times Im not.The other day I won $1000 then I gave it back last night plus more,what a life.Where am I gonna get money to buy formula for my son? He is 2 months old.I guess I have to borrow from someone,again.MY life revolves in gambling,its like a drug I could not stop.I get high when Im winning and lows when Im losing.What I could've done with that $1000? alot.pay bills,buy food,grocery.Now I feel crap,Im broke.,not even a quarter in my pocket.Who is going to help me? NO one.I feel alone,I feel sorry for my self.Sometimes I feel like my sons deserve a better mom.This disease is eating me alive.Im scared that one day,Im just going to lose it all.