I am just devastated right now. So emotionally drained from doing the same thing over and over and over. Once again i lost all my big winnings in the casino . This time at Sportbet $18600 .
I don't know why i keep going in there i know it is rigged and when the thing starts going on its rigged bs run i know what it is doing but instead of stopping i get more mad and try getting it back. I won some big games sports betting too . I was planning to cash out at $15000 but then i went in casino and actually won some. Not like i was getting great hands as always a lot of luck.
Then i go in again this morning and once again i started betting low and next thing you know $2500 a hand trying to get it back. I lost like every hand maybe won 2 in the entire stretch .
I think i will stop for awhile this really emotionally drained me after getting it up there again. The good thing is at least this was free $$ the 8th deposit free at Sportbet. I get the next one too free but at this point i am so drained i think i need to just step away a couple weeks.
I did lucking cash out $46500 so far this year . Thank god i got that and did not blow that . But Jesus the money i lost that i could have cashed out. I lost $18600 now , $13000 , $7000 , $4500,$4500 , $3000 and god knows how many others i cannot even think of. And that is just THIS year .
I actually tried to get help before to try and see if someone can help me stay out of an obviously rigged casino. I guess i am looking for a way to keep out once i build it up from sportsbetting. They always tell me i am fine because i have not lost my home or my car to gambling. I swear that makes no sense but that is what they told me.
I know we talked in the forum before about this others that have the same problem i do. WHY - Why do we go in a casino that we know is rigged and will just take all our money . Why can't we stop even though we know what is happening in front of us. Because i cannot give myself a reason. Is it the rush? But i know it is rigged so what is the point. Is it because i just want to feel i win something significant in there just once ? I mean -if you lose insane amounts all the time like this in seconds shouldn't you be able to win once in awhile . But that never happens either. I have won smaller amounts but never have i won 20,000 ,$18600,$9000 etc like i have lost. I figure maybe if i can figure out why i keep going in there i can put a lasso around it and keep myself out.
But for now i am stopping a couple weeks i am too drained after this it has been one too many times this happened to me and i am just spent .