[TonyTall]

Congrats bro, glad your doing well.

As for the rest of the thread I think we need to define what a "BENDER" is. 12 beers for 2 weeks str8 is a bender?

So what do you call 5 nights in a casino drinking a bottle or 2 of vodka/whiskey a day with who knows how many beers, coupled with Yayo and MDMA and maybe a few hours of sleep sprinkled in.

But too each their own...

ya you got me on that one l-kid way more ups/downs with the other drugs little sleep. but im a wuss lol

also i have been drinking for a few months but "heavy" for those 2 weeks. heavy for me

anyways i feel good today, ran a little of the booze off yesterday. tons of water. good food......tough to sleep but i didnt get up when i woke up in the early am i just laid there and eventually went back to sleep.


moving into a new house getting it fully carpeted with new furniture feel very lucky going to go back to church quit all porn only bad thing will be gambling

[TonyTall]

my problem with drinking ill go 2 weeks without it run, eat right sleep and ill feel really good. thats when i say "oh yeah some booze and id feel great", some big game going on too (theres always a big game lol)..............but really you need 2-3 months of healthy living in order to not total your body if you have a mini-bender, so you have to resist the temptaion for a while

[chilidog]

only bad thing will be gambling

bible doesn't say anything about gambling...

[Louisvillekid1]

I wish you the best of luck on your journey Tony.

[chilidog]

I define a bender as continuous intoxication for days. Friday-Monday no sleeping, candy-flipping, snorting, drinking, etc.

Congrats bro, glad your doing well.

As for the rest of the thread I think we need to define what a "BENDER" is. 12 beers for 2 weeks str8 is a bender?

So what do you call 5 nights in a casino drinking a bottle or 2 of vodka/whiskey a day with who knows how many beers, coupled with Yayo and MDMA and maybe a few hours of sleep sprinkled in.

But too each their own...

[Louisvillekid1]

I agree Chili,

See with me there is no such thing of drinking a few beers or some shit like that,

[PaperTrail07]

a 2 week "ice" beer bender LOL.......

I define a bender as continuous intoxication for days. Friday-Monday no sleeping, candy-flipping, snorting, drinking, etc.

[chilidog]

a 2 week "ice" beer bender LOL.......

yah, that ain't no bender. that's just having a good time.

[TonyTall]

alright you got me on that was a mini-bender. ice beer is strong


anyways i was searching for some winter clothes and found a fukin pill bottle with ativans in it. fukin suffered all week nursing my last ativan and right under my nose was a new stockpile. unfukin real

[TonyTall]

havent had any alcohol in 22 hours and im nauseas

this sucks. need to go 2 beers tonight. google search : alcohol kindling

serious stuff, done with this garbage

[chilidog]

found a fukin pill bottle with ativans in it. fukin suffered all week nursing my last ativan and right under my nose was a new stockpile. unfukin real

i'm too lazy to google it, but what's ativan?

havent had any alcohol in 22 hours and im nauseas

wow man, ur in this pretty deep, eh? i hope you find what you're looking for, bro, i really do

[Louisvillekid1]

alright you got me on that was a mini-bender. ice beer is strong


anyways i was searching for some winter clothes and found a fukin pill bottle with ativans in it. fukin suffered all week nursing my last ativan and right under my nose was a new stockpile. unfukin real

There you go, that shit is amazing...

[Louisvillekid1]

i'm too lazy to google it, but what's ativan?



wow man, ur in this pretty deep, eh? i hope you find what you're looking for, bro, i really do

He spelled it wrong I think, its a benzo...

Lorezapam

[Swinging Johnson]

Nice gesture by Biter on a volatile Sunday. Cheers Biter!

[Russian Rocket]

He spelled it wrong I think, its a benzo...

Lorezapam

Lorazepam is the generic name for Ativan...it is also the name of the main active ingredient in this drug
Ativan is the brand name - more expensive and has a safer compound

[PaperTrail07]

Here is a thought....Maybe everytime you get the "ice beer" shakes...dont run to a benzo.....save the benzo's for the real shit...otherwise you will start to become super anxious over time and not even be able to leave the house without a pill....by overeating the pills, your actually fuckkn making it worse on yourself...its tough when your "normal" becomes 2mg of Xanax...had to be that chill w out the pill...."why am I anxious"..cause usually 2-5mg of xanax is floating around in your system lol...Either way GL....but its all in your head...take control sir haha

[SharpBoxing]

Am I the only one who thinks this guy works for SBR? Probably another fake account

[TonyTall]

Here is a thought....Maybe everytime you get the "ice beer" shakes...dont run to a benzo.....save the benzo's for the real shit...otherwise you will start to become super anxious over time and not even be able to leave the house without a pill....by overeating the pills, your actually fuckkn making it worse on yourself...its tough when your "normal" becomes 2mg of Xanax...had to be that chill w out the pill...."why am I anxious"..cause usually 2-5mg of xanax is floating around in your system lol...Either way GL....but its all in your head...take control sir haha

i hear you and all the warnings about benzo addiction. its the worst thing to get addicted to

not a big fan of benzos myself. i dont like downers i like having energy so i only take them when i really need them, but this is when they are huge...........which is after you have been drinking for a few nights and your body is used to the liquor to go to sleep. and you try no booze and you lay there for hours. a little benzo to settle the heart rate is sweet...........i never take them in the day

[TonyTall]

Am I the only one who thinks this guy works for SBR? Probably another fake account

wtf? they saloon every thread i make

[daneblazer]

Half measures availed us nothing.

[TonyTall]

well now i need 2 beers in my system every 5 hours or i get anxious

havent dipped into my ativan yet, still have money in my pocket which means more ice beer


moving into a new place in a week, will devout one room to a home gym. will lose 40 lbs. this if i survive this week of constant beer



my goal is tomorrow to only have 6 beers thru the day. that way at night i can jog and the next day 4 beers ect

by saturday i will be sober, then i get new carpet in my new place and start moving in monday

[chilidog]

Have you tried smoking mj instead of drinking so many beers to counter your anxiety?

[TonyTall]

never liked weed

plus when i did do it i ate an extra 2000 calories a day. i really only like stimulants and thats why i like booze it is a stimulant for the first few hours, then you just eat and go to sleep


ill make it thru this no big deal, couldnt imagine if i was mixing in coke and stuff id be on deaths door

[chilidog]

alcohol is actually a cns depressant; it's the sugars in alcohol that give you a boost. and i hear yah on the munchies from weed, i can't smoke weed either for the same reason, i'll eat like crazy and just get fat.

do you like any type of exercise? whether it be lifting weights or maybe mountain biking, swimming, playing any kind of sport, etc? just anything to help you relax without having to depend on alcohol.

[TonyTall]

chili i can easily break the habit. ive gone 40+ days a few times this year without a drop. lost weight felt real good ect

problem is when you are in a bender (mini bender) whatever its tough to get out of. you have to be real disciplined and taper off correctly. and its hard to drink 8 beers one night when your body wants 12

plus i get so fukin bored after all that neurotransmitter spiking on the alcohol. fukin sucks.

but overall im hydrating and eating with all this drinking so ill make it

[MoneyLineDawg]

Take a painkiller instead for the next few days and you'll be off the booze in no time

[TonyTall]

this is absolutely my last night getting drunk. but this guy says it all. at 8:40

he had his run with vodka and that was that

im such a pest on society it finally ends. im sorry for being a pest i am a maniac i knew i was different when i was in grade school i would get real depressed even when i was like 8.

will be a tough few days. my goal is 3 beers sipping all day tomorrow. no naps. 100 oz water. ativan at bedtime


back to church soon. no porn no sorrow.

http://youtu.be/vqOuUrI2yGI

[TonyTall]

painkillers make me depressed the next day

[TonyTall]

if i dont do something positive with my life i will die in sorrow

[TonyTall]

pretty sure ill have a home in colorado springs that will have 2-3 open bedrooms for recovering boozers. no gayness. no alcohol. nightly bible meetings for just 30 minutes. rent is $200 a month they have to make that happen. ill give them spinach/fruit shakes for health

damascus could be buring soon. who knows. the time to live right is now. i love this country if i was in a black country id be long gone. but im in a white county and i need to do my part to give back. really im sorry


tomorrow. 3 beers. no more.