My friend killed himself last nite

**Cuse0323** · 02-14-19, 11:38 PM

Originally posted by Brock Landers

Everybody dies...not everybody lives

Should get tatted up with that Brocker. Deep shit. Salud!

**ikid2groove415** · 02-14-19, 11:43 PM

Cowards kill themselfs- loves one are left feeling the pain - shock this isn’t saloon - nothing 2 do with sports

**sourtwist** · 02-14-19, 11:45 PM

Originally posted by ikid2groove415

Cowards kill themselfs- loves one are left feeling the pain - shock this isn’t saloon - nothing 2 do with sports

I miss making fun of you

**Cuse0323** · 02-14-19, 11:47 PM

Not sure people even know the definition of coward. I’m a coward. People who actually off themselves aren’t.

**sourtwist** · 02-14-19, 11:49 PM

Originally posted by Cuse0323

Not sure people even know the definition of coward. I’m a coward. People who actually off themselves aren’t.

It's the idea of not being strong enough to face your battles

As hard as it is to actually do it, you're still taking the easy way out

I don't think you're a coward, I know some of what you have gone thru, and that's not how you should describe yourself

We can all be weak, doesn't make us cowards

**Cuse0323** · 02-14-19, 11:52 PM

Originally posted by sourtwist

It's the idea of not being strong enough to face your battles

As hard as it is to actually do it, you're still taking the easy way out

I don't think you're a coward, I know some of what you have gone thru, and that's not how you should describe yourself

We can all be weak, doesn't make us cowards

I’m not gonna get into it in Hurrier’s thread. Just don’t like people coming in calling his friend a coward. Don’t believe he was. RIP.

**sourtwist** · 02-15-19, 12:01 AM

Originally posted by Cuse0323

I’m not gonna get into it in Hurrier’s thread. Just don’t like people coming in calling his friend a coward. Don’t believe he was. RIP.

Gotcha

**HurryUpAndDrink** · 02-15-19, 12:04 AM

I am still struggling to process this, guys, I read some replies but had to stop...

I JUST CAN'T TAKE PEOPLE CALLING MY BROTHER A COWARD RIGHT NOW, YOU DIDNT KNOW HIM

These situations are never black or white... bunch of shades of grey man, mental issues, drug addiction, alcoholism, depression...

He was the best graphic artist I have met in my life... he was fun and caring, he was always there if you had a problem (eventho I tend to keep my friends out of the loop when I'm in a bad spot out of pride)... his biggest downfall was alcohol...

I'll come back tomorrow If I post now I will probably get banned

**HurryUpAndDrink** · 02-15-19, 12:06 AM

Originally posted by Cuse0323

Not sure people even know the definition of coward. I’m a coward. People who actually off themselves aren’t.

Dont do it Cuse, I'm sure you are a great friend, is just the penetrating booze that penetrates you up but penetrate it deep inside u are better than that

Call your best friend whenever you feel like shit... my friend didn't call me, he could have, I wish he did

**Cuse0323** · 02-15-19, 12:26 AM

Originally posted by HurryUpAndDrink

Dont do it Cuse, I'm sure you are a great friend, is just the penetrating booze that penetrates you up but penetrate it deep inside u are better than that

Call your best friend whenever you feel like shit... my friend didn't call me, he could have, I wish he did

No worries. I’m all good.

Wish he called you too man. Don’t know the situation but as much as you were there for him, and would have been, he may not have thought or knew he had anyone to call. Or he just didn’t wanna burden anyone. Mind lies to you. To fight against every last instinct in the body and do it isn’t cowardly or selfish to me. My dad did it and I’ll never be mad at him about it, feel like he took the easy way out, that it was unfair to me in any way, or any of the shit spewed when people off themselves. Always more to the situation like you said.

Hang in there man. Shit sucks.

**Harry N. Lloyd** · 02-15-19, 12:38 AM

Sorry to hear that.

A great friend of mine did the same thing a few years back. It's awfully tough.

**TheGoldenGoose** · 02-15-19, 12:41 AM

I'm very sorry for your loss. Can't even imagine the amount of pain in your heart. Hang in there bro. Just try to take it one day at a time.

**TheMoneyShot** · 02-15-19, 12:50 AM

Originally posted by Brock Landers

Everybody dies...not everybody lives

The Book of Landers.

You're living the dream pal... go to fine restaurants... eat like a King.... and gamble on a phone.

That's living.

**Bostongambler** · 02-15-19, 12:53 AM

Sorry for your loss,HUAD.

**Fidel_CashFlow** · 02-15-19, 12:56 AM

it sucks, this dude named Steve was a friend of my dads (and me as well) is who got me into sports
he was shot like close to 10 times with a ak-47 , fell down stairs and rolled out a door to survive
he sued the guy who tried to kill him and got a bunch of money. So he had satellite and all the sports channels
wayyyyyyyyyyy before everyone else had it. Remember going over there to his house with my pops
at age 12 . My dad being young, Steve(guy who killed himself) being young.
Everyone happy, watching sports for hours without a care in the world
Found out he just killed himself a few days ago . He was suffering, had a lot of shit wrong
blew his brains out. Just guts you, cuz you want things to go back, to where Steve was fine
Parents were younger,before I ever started to fukk up and go to prison , didnt have a care in the world
See, this is what fukks me up about life, is death, im not afraid of anything else.
Not even my own death , I fear others dying,and it has shown me what true fear really is
Breaks my heart to think of Steve sitting there on his couch so hurt and depressed knowing hes about to blow
his brains out, as I can remember talking to him (thinkin how cool he was for surviving the shit he did with the AK-47)
and him being on the same couch in the same house.... over and over I keep picturing this.... I dont like shit to end

I
Dont
Like
Shit
To
End

**packerd_00** · 02-15-19, 01:01 AM

Sorry mate.

**kidcudi92** · 02-15-19, 01:02 AM

Originally posted by ikid2groove415

Cowards kill themselfs- loves one are left feeling the pain - shock this isn’t saloon - nothing 2 do with sports

Never thought I would agree with ikid but he is right

Suicide is the most selfish act a human can commit

I say this knowing folks who have done this and friends, family, etc it ruins ALL their lives

**convick** · 02-15-19, 01:07 AM

Originally posted by kidcudi92

Never thought I would agree with ikid but he is right

Suicide is the most selfish act a human can commit

I say this knowing folks who have done this and friends, family, etc it ruins ALL their lives

Agree. Won’t go as far as calling it cowardly though.

Death is always at a hands reach. It can truly be your best advisor...

**kidcudi92** · 02-15-19, 01:19 AM

Originally posted by convick

Agree. Won’t go as far as calling it cowardly though.

Death is always at a hands reach. It can truly be your best advisor...

Not cowardly I agree but all the other things yes

**Fidel_CashFlow** · 02-15-19, 01:40 AM

Originally posted by convick

Death is always at a hands reach.

It can truly be your best advisor...

**Cuse0323** · 02-15-19, 01:41 AM

I think it’s selfish to want someone to continue to suffer for others.

**gauchojake** · 02-15-19, 01:56 AM

To those who are saying he was a coward - Mental illness is not cowardice. I am sorry to hear about your friend Hurry.

**kidcudi92** · 02-15-19, 02:57 AM

Originally posted by Cuse0323

I think it’s selfish to want someone to continue to suffer for others.

Whatever way it works for ya.

Seen suicide ruin many families.

That is my bottom line on it

Like I said, not saying this guy was a coward

Trust me I understand mental illness, but checking out is not a fukkin answer to me, ever

**PittsburghPlayer** · 02-15-19, 03:08 AM

Most Americans (self included) are dumb fukks on many subjects . I believe life and death to be two of them (for some of you, not me). Think about it, if everything that is important in society/country is fake news. And it is. Why would anyone believe that to die is horrible.

and why would people label others selfish for whacking themselves before walking a mile in that persons shoes?

if a man or woman has no children and is suicidal and not going to hurt anyone else, I say go for it

when one is dead, who gives a fukk what people think about you so long as you were not evil or a criminal and did not hurt others

going to have a beer and a bong hit for you and your pal, Hurry
sorry you are suffering man

**Cuse0323** · 02-15-19, 03:16 AM

Originally posted by kidcudi92

Whatever way it works for ya.

Seen suicide ruin many families.

That is my bottom line on it

Like I said, not saying this guy was a coward

Trust me I understand mental illness, but checking out is not a fukkin answer to me, ever

I hear ya. Ain’t no winners in this game. I’m down to keep going so my mom doesn’t suffer, but I’m lucky to still be able to think somewhat rationally when I take a step back. It wanes at times, as it starts to feel like there’s no other option. Doing more bad than good being around.

The mind is a sick bastard. Tough to realize the negatives you’re imparting on others right now alive is cake compared to what it will be when you’re gone. Hard to come to this realization when you’re not in your right mind. It starts to feel like it will be a selfless act. Doing everyone a favor. Shit is just way more complicated than just all suicide is selfish.

That’s just a bit from my mind. No telling what is going on for anyone else. Can only hope that the moment passes and they reach out for help. Cause in any moment it just may get that bad where they’re able to defeat the survival instincts. Which is damn hard to do.

**PittsburghPlayer** · 02-15-19, 04:00 AM

Cuse, you ever get below a negative 7 on the 20 scale
call me
you can crash here for a few months until your family returns to cny

**VeggieDog** · 02-15-19, 04:17 AM

I don't think it's cowardly. Some people just can't put up with the struggle of living. Or they think they have a problem that is too much to get over.

I have heart disease and cancer. When I get to the point that I can't take care of myself, can't get to the bathroom on my own, and it's not going to get better - you damn well bet I'm going to check out when I think the time is right.

Married, no kids. Talked about it with Wifey. We're in agreement.

**PittsburghPlayer** · 02-15-19, 04:19 AM

Originally posted by VeggieDog

I don't think it's cowardly. Some people just can't put up with the struggle of living. Or they think they have a problem that is too much to get over.

Nice to see others that can read between the lines.

edit: in case he wanted to

**Cuse0323** · 02-15-19, 04:31 AM

Originally posted by PittsburghPlayer

Cuse, you ever get below a negative 7 on the 20 scale
call me
you can crash here for a few months until your family returns to cny

Had to look that up. All I learned is I have no clue what any of that means. Not sure if you think I’m an unempathic sociopath with this alexithymia or not.

Actually been wondering if I’m a sociopath lately.

**PittsburghPlayer** · 02-15-19, 04:40 AM

Cuse, Thought you were unhappy in Florida and thought that maybe I could help, that is all.

**Cuse0323** · 02-15-19, 04:57 AM

Originally posted by PittsburghPlayer

Cuse, Thought you were unhappy in Florida and thought that maybe I could help, that is all.

Gotcha. Appreciate it. Been up for a few days so I’m all over the place. Still trying to figure out what to do with the living situation. Gotta see how a few things play out.

**PittsburghPlayer** · 02-15-19, 05:33 AM

Originally posted by Cuse0323

Gotcha. Appreciate it. Been up for a few days so I’m all over the place. Still trying to figure out what to do with the living situation. Gotta see how a few things play out.

have an idea what you mean but there is no way I will discuss it here

I think you know that I am an honest fukker Cuse. Well you don`t know that, but we would both be under the scrutiny of the SBR community!
I just see more positive than negative if you were ever to make that call.

reminds me of the Pat Travers tune, "You make that call, he`s guaranteed to paralyze your brain"
Crash and Burn
get some rest man, I`m going to have another beer and breakfast then go back to bed

**mpaschal34** · 02-15-19, 05:36 AM

Thoughts and prayers.

**pablo222** · 02-15-19, 06:29 AM

Sorry to hear about your loss Hurry. I hope your friend can rest in peace.

**mikejamm** · 02-15-19, 09:14 AM

This fuk’in drama queen, it’s always something with you huh, attention whore? So your puss “friend” killed him self over guilt for the way he treated an ex girlfriend? Yeah, that’s real fuk’in smart. One less abusing jerk wad on the planet.

Just like people on here who have a clue have said, killing your self is a coward move.

Dying is easy. Living life is the hard part.

We’ll await your next “oh poor fuk’in me” sad sack of shit loser thread.

Yep, there it is now... “JJ I’m sick” A word of advice, Get the fuk over your narcissistic self absorbed phony persona. This is a gambling forum. You’re not fooling anybody.