Chico there is only 2 times in my life time that I backed down and bitched out from fights and basically got punked and humiliated..
Once was in Jr High School 7th grade when THE older bigger black school bully walked up to me in an empty school hallway and punched me hard in the chest and knocked me down, he said give me a dollar or I'm gonna kick your ass... I reached in my pocket and gave him a dollar.. I had never felt so humiliated and weak in my life.. I told my older brother the story when I got home hoping he would beat up the bully for me, that backfired as my older brother beat me up some more for giving him that dollar...
.. I still never fought that bully and avoided him that entire school year..
Another time was in the gym in my mid 20's and a professional HW boxer (won't mention names) was in a complete rage and was looking to fight anyone in the gym.. I happen to be in the gym minding my own business, I was exhausted after a work out. He walked right up to me and challenged me chest to chest, eye to eye saying let's go, I knew he would have kicked my ass so I backed off and walked away.. He didn't hit me though or it would have been on, wouldn't have cared if I got knocked out either..
Those are the only times I got weak and folded in my life time.. Both times bothered me for years.. Today I think back and I'm glad I did bitch out or I would have gotten really hurt in both those situations...