Sorry fellas, just need to vent... you can ignore if you'd like.
It just sucks! I was born without the ability to get "full" or "satisfied" from food, and I absolutely love to eat... a pretty bad combination. All my life I've struggled with my weight and now it is the worst it has ever been. Generally I try not to think about it, but a few minutes ago I turned on the cam to record something for youtube and was so bummed out by what I saw I had to turn it off. I'm just a fat bum.
I hate it, but at the same time, I hate exercising and eating healthy, maybe worse. I read up on some workout routines and they are just insane... I can't imagine spending so many hours every week doing something I hate. I don't get the endorphins (sp?) or the rush from a good workout... even when I'm in "on mode" and I am running every day or whatever, I hate it the entire time I'm doing it, and leading up to it and after it, too.
Plus, you basically have to give up delicious unhealthy food forever. Sure I guess you could *occasionally* cheat but you have to spend 90%+ of days eating foods that are much less enjoyable then their unhealthy counterparts. While your lucky-good-genes friends pig out on pizza and ice cream you must always decline.
So whats more miserable, being a fat phuck and being the butt end of constant fat jokes or living a healthy lifestyle to obtain a solid body and constantly forcing yourself to exercise when you hate it and eat healthy and deprive yourself of all of your favorite foods?
I'm sick of being miserable, but there doesn't seem to be much of a choice...
It just sucks! I was born without the ability to get "full" or "satisfied" from food, and I absolutely love to eat... a pretty bad combination. All my life I've struggled with my weight and now it is the worst it has ever been. Generally I try not to think about it, but a few minutes ago I turned on the cam to record something for youtube and was so bummed out by what I saw I had to turn it off. I'm just a fat bum.
I hate it, but at the same time, I hate exercising and eating healthy, maybe worse. I read up on some workout routines and they are just insane... I can't imagine spending so many hours every week doing something I hate. I don't get the endorphins (sp?) or the rush from a good workout... even when I'm in "on mode" and I am running every day or whatever, I hate it the entire time I'm doing it, and leading up to it and after it, too.
Plus, you basically have to give up delicious unhealthy food forever. Sure I guess you could *occasionally* cheat but you have to spend 90%+ of days eating foods that are much less enjoyable then their unhealthy counterparts. While your lucky-good-genes friends pig out on pizza and ice cream you must always decline.
So whats more miserable, being a fat phuck and being the butt end of constant fat jokes or living a healthy lifestyle to obtain a solid body and constantly forcing yourself to exercise when you hate it and eat healthy and deprive yourself of all of your favorite foods?
I'm sick of being miserable, but there doesn't seem to be much of a choice...
