1. Found out today no money for my dads insurance policy . She paid 40 a month for 29 years, , all the deductables except onecouldnt afford his last deductable . Deductables are expensive if you can't pass a physical. He dies the next day. Lawyers fees means i have to pay money in.
2. I get attacked my an uncle with alzheimers yesterday. I fall off the porch and fall down about 25 feet . People thought i was dead. I landed on my side. I might have a broken hip. Im not sure yet. Either way, i can't go to any doctor unless emergency room i guess.
3. Mom is at the house today, and is throwing up with dizziness and thinks she might be having a heart attack or stroke. She has to be at work in 4 hours. Might be taking her to the hospital any minute.
4. My cousin gets laid off and divorced on the same day, kills himself on tuesday. Put a pipe in the exhaust and took pills and locked himself in a barn. Best friend for years even though ive seen him twice in the last ten years.
5. I play carribean studd on carbon poker and betting 1 dollar at a time for fun. I get a royal flush but didnt pay the 25 cents for the jackpot. Dealer doesnt qualify so i win 1 dollar. Then i lose my remaining 50 losing 19 of 20 hands.
Jackpot was 66 grand.
6. I misclick in bodog casino on a 25 dollar blackjack bet on 19, get a ace, dealer than gets 21.
7. Ive slept 3 hours a day for the last 2 years. Not sure why, havent told anyone until now. Starting to feel the effects of it the last 3 days i believe.
8. my Fantasy football league ive had for 6 years is no more as of wednesday. Various reasons, mainly people can't afford or in too many leagues or arguments with other players.
9. I havent' been laid since 93. this one chick that acts like she likes me. we don't talk to eachother except hey and stuff like that. I start to talk to her and all of a sudden can't talk and look like an idiot.
10. followed a perfect diet this week, im 5 pounds heavier today and feel bloated. Plus over 100 miles of cardio this week.
11. Can't even jerk off like i used too. used to be a regular thing before bed. Now its 3 days a week maybe. I think tuesday was the first time i didnt jerk off before bed since the 1st day i ever jerked off.
12. i don't drink but thinking about starting drinking. I haven't drank but ten total beers since 95. I used to go to parties once a week and may of drank casually then. Nothing real. Was too afraid to drink some both grandads, dad and older cousins were all drunks. So i figured i better chill with drinking.
13. I have a mentally handicapped sister that is blind and on drugs like seroquil. She is getting worse everyday, meds are going up. Doc thinks she is having a seizure 24 hours a day making her get mad and angry and act out and not do what she is told even though she doesn't have normal seizures, just seizure activity whatever that means.
14. Just lost all 300 pts in sbr casino.. thought since i had a rough week. i could chill out and have some fun while crying the whole time trying to make myself feel better. I actually win the first hand and get blackjack and then lose about 45 out of 50 hands i played and all gone.
2. I get attacked my an uncle with alzheimers yesterday. I fall off the porch and fall down about 25 feet . People thought i was dead. I landed on my side. I might have a broken hip. Im not sure yet. Either way, i can't go to any doctor unless emergency room i guess.
3. Mom is at the house today, and is throwing up with dizziness and thinks she might be having a heart attack or stroke. She has to be at work in 4 hours. Might be taking her to the hospital any minute.
4. My cousin gets laid off and divorced on the same day, kills himself on tuesday. Put a pipe in the exhaust and took pills and locked himself in a barn. Best friend for years even though ive seen him twice in the last ten years.
5. I play carribean studd on carbon poker and betting 1 dollar at a time for fun. I get a royal flush but didnt pay the 25 cents for the jackpot. Dealer doesnt qualify so i win 1 dollar. Then i lose my remaining 50 losing 19 of 20 hands.
Jackpot was 66 grand.
6. I misclick in bodog casino on a 25 dollar blackjack bet on 19, get a ace, dealer than gets 21.
7. Ive slept 3 hours a day for the last 2 years. Not sure why, havent told anyone until now. Starting to feel the effects of it the last 3 days i believe.
8. my Fantasy football league ive had for 6 years is no more as of wednesday. Various reasons, mainly people can't afford or in too many leagues or arguments with other players.
9. I havent' been laid since 93. this one chick that acts like she likes me. we don't talk to eachother except hey and stuff like that. I start to talk to her and all of a sudden can't talk and look like an idiot.
10. followed a perfect diet this week, im 5 pounds heavier today and feel bloated. Plus over 100 miles of cardio this week.
11. Can't even jerk off like i used too. used to be a regular thing before bed. Now its 3 days a week maybe. I think tuesday was the first time i didnt jerk off before bed since the 1st day i ever jerked off.
12. i don't drink but thinking about starting drinking. I haven't drank but ten total beers since 95. I used to go to parties once a week and may of drank casually then. Nothing real. Was too afraid to drink some both grandads, dad and older cousins were all drunks. So i figured i better chill with drinking.
13. I have a mentally handicapped sister that is blind and on drugs like seroquil. She is getting worse everyday, meds are going up. Doc thinks she is having a seizure 24 hours a day making her get mad and angry and act out and not do what she is told even though she doesn't have normal seizures, just seizure activity whatever that means.
14. Just lost all 300 pts in sbr casino.. thought since i had a rough week. i could chill out and have some fun while crying the whole time trying to make myself feel better. I actually win the first hand and get blackjack and then lose about 45 out of 50 hands i played and all gone.
