Confession.......some days I just want to say "f u c k i t all"

[Fishhead]

Fishhead are you contemplating suicide??

EVERYDAY

Never, never, never would do so though.........at least up to the age of 93.

[jjgold]

They say 90% of people have suicide thoughts once per month but rarely does anyone carry it out. Fishhead I will call you later and talk with you for 4 hrs if needed to make you feel better. We at SBR like to support our fellow posters.

[in2thethickofit]

[Fishhead]

They say 90% of people have suicide thoughts once per month but rarely does anyone carry it out. Fishhead I will call you later and talk with you for 4 hrs if needed to make you feel better. We at SBR like to support our fellow posters.

S hit, I may kill myself.

[JW Cash]

S hit, I may kill myself.

...thats exactly want Alexander McQueen and Andrew Koenig said.....

[Chi_archie]

hang in there

[The General]

Fishhead, Hang in there my friend. You are of strong will and have a good vibe about you. I feel that you will be able and battle hard and come out of this feeling good in the near future.

Life tosses some amazingly tough curve balls. I am currently going thru some difficult times with my own health (primarily Blood Pressure), my girlfriends mother is living the last 20 days of her life (or less), IMO. My daughters turtle died Tuesday, one of my friends mother died unexpectedly last weekend and one of my closest friends over the last 15 years died Tuesday as well at 50 yrs old. I found out last night when calling him and his son informed me.

All of this began at the beginning of March when my girlfriends mother (She resides here with us) started acting in a strange manner. We now know she has cancer and it is wide spread throughout her body. We are only able to sit and watch the cancer do its thing and try our best to comfort. The shock involved with all of these things going on in such a short period of time is pretty overwhelming and particularly more so on the families of these sick/deceased persons. I am very concerned about and/or for my girlfriend and my daughter who turned 8 last Friday emotionally. We are battling the emotional sadness/pain involved, trying to stay strong and prioritizing the most important things in life currently which is the welfare of the friends and family involved.

I am in that mindset of 'What is next?' afraid to take a phone call fearing more possible bad news.

I am a little sorry for sharing this predicament, but it's good for me to talk about it and get some of it off my chest. You guys deserve some answers as well concerning my whereabouts I believe. I've always been pretty up front on the boards and mostly truthful.

SBR Marketing, Inc. have been real understanding and I doubt they know how much I appreciate their understanding. All of my co-workers here have been great and good people. During a period of time like this, they have shown to be a caring and concerned employer.

Anyhow, Take care, Fishhead and I wish you and everyone else the very best in life and wagering.

Semper Fi

[Fishhead]

Fishhead, Hang in there my friend. You are of strong will and have a good vibe about you. I feel that you will be able and battle hard and come out of this feeling good in the near future.

Life tosses some amazingly tough curve balls. I am currently going thru some difficult times with my own health (primarily Blood Pressure), my girlfriends mother is living the last 20 days of her life (or less), IMO. My daughters turtle died Tuesday, one of my friends mother died unexpectedly last weekend and one of my closest friends over the last 15 years died Tuesday as well at 50 yrs old. I found out last night when calling him and his son informed me.

All of this began at the beginning of March when my girlfriends mother (She resides here with us) started acting in a strange manner. We now know she has cancer and it is wide spread throughout her body. We are only able to sit and watch the cancer do its thing and try our best to comfort. The shock involved with all of these things going on in such a short period of time is pretty overwhelming and particularly more so on the families of these sick/deceased persons. I am very concerned about and/or for my girlfriend and my daughter who turned 8 last Friday emotionally. We are battling the emotional sadness/pain involved, trying to stay strong and prioritizing the most important things in life currently which is the welfare of the friends and family involved.

I am in that mindset of 'What is next?' afraid to take a phone call fearing more possible bad news.

I am a little sorry for sharing this predicament, but it's good for me to talk about it and get some of it off my chest. You guys deserve some answers as well concerning my whereabouts I believe. I've always been pretty up front on the boards and mostly truthful.

SBR Marketing, Inc. have been real understanding and I doubt they know how much I appreciate their understanding. All of my co-workers here have been great and good people. During a period of time like this, they have shown to be a caring and concerned employer.

Anyhow, Take care, Fishhead and I wish you and everyone else the very best in life and wagering.

Semper Fi

Sorry to hear buddy.

Keep the faith sir, things WILL get better............if you need anything, you know I'm only a phone call away and would help you in anyway I can.

Feel confort in knowing that hundreds just HERE on this forum are genuinely concerned for your well being.

Take it easy my friend.

[BarkingToad]

i have had some "unexpected" $2000 expenses as well, like when some moron shoots a meaningless 3 with 2 seconds left (lakers playoff game last year comes to mind) to cover the spread...

[THE PROFIT]

They say 90% of people have suicide thoughts once per month but rarely does anyone carry it out. Fishhead I will call you later and talk with you for 4 hrs if needed to make you feel better. We at SBR like to support our fellow posters.

The mere thought of talking to JJ on the phone for 4 hours would drive someone to suicide who wasn't even thinking about it

[Fishhead]

The mere thought of talking to JJ on the phone for 4 hours would drive someone to suicide who wasn't even thinking about it

[fsugolf]

what would the o/u be for the amount of time "fuk" was said by JJ during a 4 hour phone call?

[jjgold]

Hang in there Pete, hope things turn out ok

I think if I could talk to Fishhead for about 4 hrs on the phone I could straighten him out

[INVEGA MAN]

Fish, hang in there. Everybody goes through slumps. u have to get off the computer and take a walk. meet people. i knew there was trouble when you quit playing cards and on the coputer 16 hoursw a day. hang tough man, we are praying for you

[M@ximo]

Take two ALEVE and hit the sack after a shot of whiskey, wake up tomorrow and take the day by the ball's it's a NEW day

It happens to me every now and then..., i think the best way is to try to put evething on hold and try to pick up the pieces the next day...

remember that most of the time you'll see thing according to your state of mind.., so if you are on a bad mood, everything will be awful, if you are in a good mood.., probably you wont see the same situations as bad as you are seen it when you are feeling mad...

take your time... hope your better...

[The General]

Hang in there Pete, hope things turn out ok

I think if I could talk to Fishhead for about 4 hrs on the phone I could straighten him out

Thanks, Gold. All will end as it is meant to be. I truly believe that. I agree and believe that you could help Fishhead if he would take time to make the call. Do it, Fishhead.

Mom (I refer to her as mom also) made the decision today to ride it out at home and abstain from any type treatment. The treatment, according to the docs, might prolong life by 30 days with those days being much worse than the natural days ahead and experienced currently.

Hospice came on board today, brought in a real nice hospital bed, a walker, a wheelchair, a bedside toilet and bed tray. They set it all up and now they will stop in everyday to assist in any manner possible if they can. Hospice is pretty much in charge now for any needs that arise, material and/or medical. Hospice is a great service from my past experiences relating to other friends/family dealing with a terminal illness, mainly cancer.

The wish of the family and mom is that we all get thru the ordeal with the least suffering possible. My number (guess/prediction) is at 18 days or less remaining life. Mom says she is not in any pain so that is good. We wonder if the multiple brain tumors have not numbed the pain receptors. A nurse told us that is very possible.

My friend who passed away Tuesday is having a graveside service tomorrow at 11 AM and I have already had service for and buried the turtle with my daughter so we are making progress slowly but surely.

I have a doc appointment next Thursday 4/1 concerning my blood pressure and the medicines (atenolol and ramipril) I am taking which are working good for the blood pressure, but causing me to have shortness of breath and that has me concerned because it is very uncomfortable. I may be experiencing some anxiety/tension also (Most likely) throughout all of this chaos. A lack of rest has set in: went to bed at 4.30 AM and got up at 6.30 AM this morning.

Let's try and enjoy the evening and worry over tomorrow if/when it arrives.

I'm trying to sit back (Relax) here in my bedroom/sanctuary (no one really bothers me when I'm in my room/sanctuary) and enjoy some hoops, horses on TVG or HRTV and strum on my acoustic gueetar a little while watching over the board tonight.

Another day, Another dollar.

Give em' hell, Gold and best of luck on your picks tonight and throughout the weekend, my friend.




PS...Good game here between Tennessee and Ohio State. And, Baylor? What a showing for them this day. Blowing out St Mary's like a middle school team.

Looking forward to the next round of games tonight and I'll have a pick in a few minutes that I like.

[jjgold]

Pete you need to get back to gambling and numb the fuk out of you

I gamble and it fukkin numbs me

GL Pete

[The General]

I'll be gambling in some fashion forever most likely, Gold. I have done pretty well in NHL playoffs the last couple seasons and I think I can show profits in bases this season as well. I am looking forward to when things calm around here so I can get back to posting more picks for everyone to fade. I do ok in NBA. The last couple bowl seasons have treated me well, but regular season football, NCAA or NFL is not good to me. I love to toy with the ponies and watch races every day at some time on the dish. I like auto racing pretty well, too. WNBA is good to me.

At least I realize where I am weak and where I do well. It took a long time to figure this out and accept it.

I still love this chit very much. I've went thru some real challenges and changes during my tenure on the gambling boards with all kinds of business and personal things going on. Did some real good things, but made some poor choices along the way as well. I took some chances and risks (I think we have to try), learned a lot of things and still have ideas yet to be played out. I'm not retiring though unless I get tossed in the slammer for an extended period.

JJ, we'll be sitting on the E-porch swing together talking about the good ol' days and watching the women walk by as we get older. Sounds relaxing to me. And, if you wish to party, I'll be the designated driver for you and the gang, no problemo.


Duke by 1 at Half. Go Boilermakers and Butler Bulldogs!

How about Northern Iowa? I am pulling for them, too.