With the heaviest of heart

[gauchojake]

Damn dude, I just saw this. So sorry for your loss.

[Ian]

Today is 8 weeks since she has passed. It has been hard still. The kids are a big help to keep going. We dedicated a movie to her yesterday the first movie i have watched since she passed.

We ordered Strombolis and Fries and Mozzarella sticks and desserts. From her memorial we watched Sonic 3. I think she would have liked it. My nieces were here to honor her . Hopefully with her there at the memorial i can start watching movies and shows again. This was the first i watched since she passed.

Still one day at a time.

It seems like you have a wonderful family, capt. Best wishes to all of you.

[ProSportsEdge]

I wanted to say i will not be gambling for awhile if at all again. I am in a bad place right now. My wonderful wife who i spent 22+ years with i lost this past Sunday. She did not like me gambling so i do not feel right doing anything right now since my world has been taken from me. I will check in from time to time but right now i will not be betting anymore. She was only 65 and it was very sudden one day bringing her breakfast and two days later she was taken from me.Thank you all for the talks and not sure how i will survive this but i will take this one day at a time.

I’m so sorry for your loss, captrobey. Can’t imagine the pain you’re going through. Take all the time you need—one day at a time is all anyone can do. We’re here for you whenever you feel like checking in. Stay strong.

[DwightShrute]

Hi Cap.

I just saw this thread and I was so sorry to hear about your loss.

With care,

Dwight

[str]

A lot of people here sending you best wishes Capt. No doubt, Deservedly so.
You seem to have a great family . A byproduct of the hard work , love and dedication you and your wife presented from day 1.
Keep leaning on one another for support. Your wife would be so proud of you all.
I wish you all the very best sir.

[ki dice]

Cappy you’re in are thoughts and prayers. You were one of the, if not the greatest one here at sbr been following youre raves and rants a long time and loved youre rants even though most of the time it hurt for you. For sure take all the time you need through this unbearable time gambling should be the last thing on youre mind and can depress you more as you need to find hobbies that give you peace at this time. Hope to see you again just talking catching up on life, about Bigfoot ghosts or whatever it might be just seeing you post and get better little by little is a start may god bless you with everything you deserve through this heartbreaking time

[ki dice]

We love you brother

[Mac4Lyfe]

Today is 8 weeks since she has passed. It has been hard still. The kids are a big help to keep going. We dedicated a movie to her yesterday the first movie i have watched since she passed.

We ordered Strombolis and Fries and Mozzarella sticks and desserts. From her memorial we watched Sonic 3. I think she would have liked it. My nieces were here to honor her . Hopefully with her there at the memorial i can start watching movies and shows again. This was the first i watched since she passed.

Still one day at a time.

I’m just now reading this Capt. I’m so sorry for your loss. No words can take the place of your lovely wife. I hope there’s some consolation that you enjoyed 20+ years together. Her memory is clearly seen through you and your family. Take time to grieve. It’s hard. It does get easier in time. You’re in my prayers.

[captrobey]

Our anniversary would have been Yesterday . Married 23 years had she not passed.Gone 11 + weeks now. I have still not placed a bet since she has been gone. It has been hard. Little things trigger more depression on.

I do miss everyone here and doing my ramblings. I may come back not heavily just a little for football season. But i wanted to hold off because the stress is just too much on top of everything that has happened. And i am not really sure i will come back . It just depends how i am feeling.My gambling had nothing to do with her passing But she did not like my gambling so i stopped to honor her wishes .

My family and friends have been critical to my surviving . My friends wife did not want me alone yesterday depressed so she made a nice dinner and invited my nieces and her husband . The nieces that work for me. The one had to work but the other came with her husband. These friends are the same ones i was supposed to go to the Mothman festival with but we got covid . I am going this year actually next month with them i think she would have wanted me to go .

I lit an electric candle all day Sat and Sun for her and had it next to her in the memorial. I watched a movie called Flow . Before she passed i played the trailer she wanted to see it. She just passed before we did. The little cat reminds me of our Snickers. My wife LOVED cats. So do i really . Her Obituary instead of flowers there was a link to donate to a cat shelter in her name. She would have loved this movie. Hopefully she watched it from the other side with me from the Memorial where her Urn is.

I am still having a hard time but Snickers and Twix need me still and i need them to just survive. Anyway hope you are all doing well. Here's a couple pics of her memorial and Snickers (Her baby in the box)and Twix (On the bed)and the dinner my friends wife made and a scene from Flow
Take care guys ....

[captrobey]

Sorry i had to add on another after all that takes forever too

[Optional]

It's not the same here without your ramblings either Cappy.

But you do what you need to do and dont worry about us.

Even though it's sad for now, I'm glad you continue to check in.

[captrobey]

a couple more

[captrobey]

It's not the same here without your ramblings either Cappy.

But you do what you need to do and dont worry about us.

Even though it's sad for now, I'm glad you continue to check in.

Thanks Op

I will try i just figured on my anniversary i wanted to say hi . I was going to put more pics but they take forever to download lol .

[ChuckyTheGoat]

capt:

1) That looks fantastic. Imagine feeding ten SBR posters with that.
2) Football season is almost here, capt. Lots of guys coming out of a summer coma to watch the NFL.

[batt33]

Our anniversary would have been Yesterday . Married 23 years had she not passed.Gone 11 + weeks now. I have still not placed a bet since she has been gone. It has been hard. Little things trigger more depression on.

I do miss everyone here and doing my ramblings. I may come back not heavily just a little for football season. But i wanted to hold off because the stress is just too much on top of everything that has happened. And i am not really sure i will come back . It just depends how i am feeling.My gambling had nothing to do with her passing But she did not like my gambling so i stopped to honor her wishes .

My family and friends have been critical to my surviving . My friends wife did not want me alone yesterday depressed so she made a nice dinner and invited my nieces and her husband . The nieces that work for me. The one had to work but the other came with her husband. These friends are the same ones i was supposed to go to the Mothman festival with but we got covid . I am going this year actually next month with them i think she would have wanted me to go .

I lit an electric candle all day Sat and Sun for her and had it next to her in the memorial. I watched a movie called Flow . Before she passed i played the trailer she wanted to see it. She just passed before we did. The little cat reminds me of our Snickers. My wife LOVED cats. So do i really . Her Obituary instead of flowers there was a link to donate to a cat shelter in her name. She would have loved this movie. Hopefully she watched it from the other side with me from the Memorial where her Urn is.

I am still having a hard time but Snickers and Twix need me still and i need them to just survive. Anyway hope you are all doing well. Here's a couple pics of her memorial and Snickers (Her baby in the box)and Twix (On the bed)and the dinner my friends wife made and a scene from Flow
Take care guys ....

Cap I understand what you are going thru.... I lost my wife to cancer in 2019 ... just passing 20 years of marriage.. It was pretty rough for awhile.. still hard but I finally moved forward.I know we don't chat in the forum's, but send a message in private chat if you would like to chat.... or vent...Batt

[RITZ]

May her memory be a blessing.

[captrobey]

capt:

1) That looks fantastic. Imagine feeding ten SBR posters with that.
2) Football season is almost here, capt. Lots of guys coming out of a summer coma to watch the NFL.

I am thinking about it. But her passing has given me a chance to save in the bank with the life insurance. Plus other things i did not know about. She has done so much for me i feel kinds guilty gambling. But again it had nothing to do with the gambling when she passed.

The meal was incredible. Salisbury steak and Teriyaki Chicken and Broccoli and cheese and Garlic bread and Banana Pudding

[captrobey]

Cap I understand what you are going thru.... I lost my wife to cancer in 2019 ... just passing 20 years of marriage.. It was pretty rough for awhile.. still hard but I finally moved forward.I know we don't chat in the forum's, but send a message in private chat if you would like to chat.... or vent...Batt

Thank you that is very nice of you. Losing a spouse is so different then anything else. In not even the last year we lost her mother in Sept. I still remember us driving 5 hours to get there more than once when she was not doing well then after her mom passed . Then my Aunt beginning Dec and my Uncle Godfather on New Years Eve.

I am going to the mothman festival this year though next month. She would have wanted that .

I am sorry you lost your wife also. That is a lot of years too. Add in the years before you got married too . We were together for 5 years before so almost 28 years .Thank god for my family and Snickers and Twix .

[captrobey]

May her memory be a blessing.

It is but sometimes seeing things triggers off more depression . I just miss her so much.

[ChuckyTheGoat]

What did she think of your gaming, capt?

[QuantumLeap]

Just reading about this now Captain. It sounds like you're bouncing back a little bit.

I think being back here just talking with the gang will help. It will help you get back in the swing of things and hopefully will get your focus on good things, all us degenerates here!

[Ian]

Enjoy the festival, Capt. Continued well wishes.

[ProSportsEdge]

I wanted to say i will not be gambling for awhile if at all again. I am in a bad place right now. My wonderful wife who i spent 22+ years with i lost this past Sunday. She did not like me gambling so i do not feel right doing anything right now since my world has been taken from me. I will check in from time to time but right now i will not be betting anymore. She was only 65 and it was very sudden one day bringing her breakfast and two days later she was taken from me.Thank you all for the talks and not sure how i will survive this but i will take this one day at a time.

So sorry to hear that man… can’t imagine the pain you’re going through right now… take all the time you need, we’re all here for you whenever you feel like checking in again… stay strong one day at a time.

[JAKEPEAVY21]

Good to see you skipper and take one day at a time amigo.

[captrobey]

What did she think of your gaming, capt?

She did not like it . But it was mostly the casino i had my meltdowns but she did not see the difference.

[captrobey]

Just reading about this now Captain. It sounds like you're bouncing back a little bit.

I think being back here just talking with the gang will help. It will help you get back in the swing of things and hopefully will get your focus on good things, all us degenerates here!

It is like free group therapy . But yea days i can cope better and days it just feels like i want to give up. I cant kill myself because they say you go straight to hell and i would not see her . I would end up in eternal fire playing checkers with Hitler and Pee Wee .

[captrobey]

So sorry to hear that man… can’t imagine the pain you’re going through right now… take all the time you need, we’re all here for you whenever you feel like checking in again… stay strong one day at a time.

help checking in from time to time. And trying to get all this financial stuff in order. I fell behind on all my own Drs stuff so doing those too . And of course once they see you they find more stuff to talk about. I wanted to go to my diabetes Dr but they said i needed bloodwork. Finally got that now they want me in for a wellness thing. And still have to see the Diabetes Dr. She always went with me there so that will be a bit tough when i go for that too.

[captrobey]

Enjoy the festival, Capt. Continued well wishes.

Thanks . Really looking forward to it. But of course will be a bit sad too without her she was supposed to go . We got covid last year

[captrobey]

Good to see you skipper and take one day at a time amigo.

Thanks Jake my friend good to see you too again .

[ChuckyTheGoat]

She did not like it . But it was mostly the casino i had my meltdowns but she did not see the difference.

We all need our escapes. Gotta stay sane. Women normally don't understand why guys like the rush of gambling.

[ChuckyTheGoat]

Hey, Capt: "Remember that time you made me chase my tail? I'll do it again."

[captrobey]

We all need our escapes. Gotta stay sane. Women normally don't understand why guys like the rush of gambling.

Yea the worst is when i lost what i won in sports in casino i would be pissed. But still i wanted to honor her by not doing it a little while. She took care of me in life and in death so i owe this to her.

[captrobey]

Hey, Capt: "Remember that time you made me chase my tail? I'll do it again."

Yea we can do that again just watch out for that old man lol.

[ChuckyTheGoat]

Yea we can do that again just watch out for that old man lol.

Ha-ha. "Pass me around. Put me on the mosh-pit."

[captrobey]

Ha-ha. "Pass me around. Put me on the mosh-pit."

Give you some of those illegal drugs too then lol