It's amazing how fast things can change. I really never saw this coming. In the span of about 3 years, i went from being an outgoing, sport loving guy who LOVED chicks, going clubbing and taking pride in my appearance. Now, my whole brain has completely changed. I hate sports exept when im betting on them. I hardly EVER go out anymore and i spend my days completely addicted to posting on stupid internet forums and watching videos. I hate "douchbags" now, anyone with a bit of confidence and alpha male sort of personality i instantly hate. I don't even bother talking to girls anymore, i have absolutely given up on finding a girlfriend. If i couldnt get one at my peak, there is no chance i can get one now. I went from listening to mostly techno, rap and R&B to hating all mainstream music, im listening to old shit now and only rock and heavy metal. I think everyone who takes pride in their appearance as gay. When girls try to talk to me now and talk about politics and such i react with heated passion which scares them off completely.
So how did this happen? Look at the way im typing....Using capitals and stuff, even that is an influence of my nerdiness. I have no idea who i am anymore. All i know is that ive become the person no one likes and and im nowhere near as happy now as i was in the past.It fvcking sucks!
So how did this happen? Look at the way im typing....Using capitals and stuff, even that is an influence of my nerdiness. I have no idea who i am anymore. All i know is that ive become the person no one likes and and im nowhere near as happy now as i was in the past.It fvcking sucks!