The last couple of weeks have been tough. I can suck up alot but today was hard.
I got a kid with a girl that I have no realationship with, I care for her and dont like the thought of her with anotherman,but I cant see myself with her. All my plans are not with her.
Went to work this morning and when I got off,I was dying for a drink. had a shower,and said its been a long time since I wen't for a walk.
I live in the country but only because of building law. So I'm only 5 min from everything,yes it dosen't seem right but its true. I figured it only take me an hour each way,so what the heck.
I live in canada so its a little cold about -15 with the wind chill.
Its valentines day. She made it quite clear she was going out tonight. She's a girl,so it ain't tough to get laid,I'm no angel I've had rub and tugs and call girls but that thought of another guy slammin your girl is tough.
Anyway I figured fuk it walk over to liquer store get some beer ,have some on the way back take your mind off things.
The total opposite happened.
Got in to the 2nd beer and got thinking what brought me here.
I have no excuse, family's rich,I should be too.
Thats the problem when you grow up with no problems your spoiled.
Worked all my life first job was 14 on a dairy farm,saved every penny.
Then at 16 I was working at another farm beff/dairy was real interested in the bussiness all my relatives had done well for themselfes.
So I took $6000 and bought my own cattle. Got the land free of charge from my uncle and grandfather.
Things were good then you were too young to know about all the shit.
Fall had passed, but during the summer things had changed, I was the young big shot everybody was proud off,So as a 16 year old kid with money I thought I was on my way,whats a $300 night on the town for my friends.
At 16 You now nothing and the friends you have then are not the friends you have now.
Things were great hardly drank only maybe a 6 pack sat and i was pissed.
Worked 7 days a week,only bill was smokes and back then they were $4.25 a pack.
Went to the country restaurant every morning proud, because the old boys were proud of me ,it was alright to buy smokes.they said it was all right.
That summer I diden't save a cent,came to the farm late everyday and smellin like booze.
In the fall I sold the cattle and got a little over $7000 back,not a bad check for a 16 year old. Also that summer I made a deal to buy $9000 worth of hay, The idea was to take out a loan and buy cattle over the winter. As a 16 yr old I went to the bank to ask for a loan.Was denied,told we don't give small bussiness loans,Thinking back now how stupid I diden't even have any credit.
I convinced my parents that I was responsible enough to handle the check and not put it into mutal funds.
But as a kid I diden't want summer to end. So we partyed at the strippers every night ,Every one of my friends were older and had droped out to work construction for my best friends dad.
It was great no bills ,no school,no responsibility.
Things changed his dad was killed in an accident at work,We were all to busy playing hot shot to learn a single thing.
At this point,along with the weeklycheck I was spending I was spending the $7000
Had an old truck 88 ford,Fenders fallin off because of the rust,But because we were in the country I was allowed to drive it.
but eventually got my license and on a snowy day to work .I ran a stop sign .
I wrot the car off and the truck,I'll never forget digging that lady out of the ditch. thank god she was alright,but I can still remember her saying .(you never even stopped)
As the big shot I was there would be nothing as fittting then a mustang.
Found a 2 yr old stang,Parents put up the $200 down. and tomorrow
I was driven in style.
A couple of days later I found myself at the bank,no big deal.
UNTIL THE LADY EXPLAINED TO MY MOM I HAD 0 FUNDS.
I still have nightmares of my mother crying at the bank.
Nobody has to tell me that it was my fault,but I often wonder why a 16 yr old kid can withdraw 400-500 dollars at a time. and the following week when your parents are doing there banking a teller would not mention a thing,or a loan officer knowing who you are wouldn't at least offer the choice of a co signer,You'ed be surprised how many 16 yr olds don;t know what a co sighner is.
Thats when It was easy to make things right gambling.
My english skills suck I have grade 10 education.Ive never told anybody what happened before. But if your interested in the ending as of ciurrent time .I'll post it later.It don't get any truer then this.
I got a kid with a girl that I have no realationship with, I care for her and dont like the thought of her with anotherman,but I cant see myself with her. All my plans are not with her.
Went to work this morning and when I got off,I was dying for a drink. had a shower,and said its been a long time since I wen't for a walk.
I live in the country but only because of building law. So I'm only 5 min from everything,yes it dosen't seem right but its true. I figured it only take me an hour each way,so what the heck.
I live in canada so its a little cold about -15 with the wind chill.
Its valentines day. She made it quite clear she was going out tonight. She's a girl,so it ain't tough to get laid,I'm no angel I've had rub and tugs and call girls but that thought of another guy slammin your girl is tough.
Anyway I figured fuk it walk over to liquer store get some beer ,have some on the way back take your mind off things.
The total opposite happened.
Got in to the 2nd beer and got thinking what brought me here.
I have no excuse, family's rich,I should be too.
Thats the problem when you grow up with no problems your spoiled.
Worked all my life first job was 14 on a dairy farm,saved every penny.
Then at 16 I was working at another farm beff/dairy was real interested in the bussiness all my relatives had done well for themselfes.
So I took $6000 and bought my own cattle. Got the land free of charge from my uncle and grandfather.
Things were good then you were too young to know about all the shit.
Fall had passed, but during the summer things had changed, I was the young big shot everybody was proud off,So as a 16 year old kid with money I thought I was on my way,whats a $300 night on the town for my friends.
At 16 You now nothing and the friends you have then are not the friends you have now.
Things were great hardly drank only maybe a 6 pack sat and i was pissed.
Worked 7 days a week,only bill was smokes and back then they were $4.25 a pack.
Went to the country restaurant every morning proud, because the old boys were proud of me ,it was alright to buy smokes.they said it was all right.
That summer I diden't save a cent,came to the farm late everyday and smellin like booze.
In the fall I sold the cattle and got a little over $7000 back,not a bad check for a 16 year old. Also that summer I made a deal to buy $9000 worth of hay, The idea was to take out a loan and buy cattle over the winter. As a 16 yr old I went to the bank to ask for a loan.Was denied,told we don't give small bussiness loans,Thinking back now how stupid I diden't even have any credit.
I convinced my parents that I was responsible enough to handle the check and not put it into mutal funds.
But as a kid I diden't want summer to end. So we partyed at the strippers every night ,Every one of my friends were older and had droped out to work construction for my best friends dad.
It was great no bills ,no school,no responsibility.
Things changed his dad was killed in an accident at work,We were all to busy playing hot shot to learn a single thing.
At this point,along with the weeklycheck I was spending I was spending the $7000
Had an old truck 88 ford,Fenders fallin off because of the rust,But because we were in the country I was allowed to drive it.
but eventually got my license and on a snowy day to work .I ran a stop sign .
I wrot the car off and the truck,I'll never forget digging that lady out of the ditch. thank god she was alright,but I can still remember her saying .(you never even stopped)
As the big shot I was there would be nothing as fittting then a mustang.
Found a 2 yr old stang,Parents put up the $200 down. and tomorrow
I was driven in style.
A couple of days later I found myself at the bank,no big deal.
UNTIL THE LADY EXPLAINED TO MY MOM I HAD 0 FUNDS.
I still have nightmares of my mother crying at the bank.
Nobody has to tell me that it was my fault,but I often wonder why a 16 yr old kid can withdraw 400-500 dollars at a time. and the following week when your parents are doing there banking a teller would not mention a thing,or a loan officer knowing who you are wouldn't at least offer the choice of a co signer,You'ed be surprised how many 16 yr olds don;t know what a co sighner is.
Thats when It was easy to make things right gambling.
My english skills suck I have grade 10 education.Ive never told anybody what happened before. But if your interested in the ending as of ciurrent time .I'll post it later.It don't get any truer then this.
