Suicide?

[Iwinyourmoney]

Im sure this is a touchy subject, but has anyone here came close to doing it? Me and my buddy where talking about it last night. I dont care how bad your life is, could you really pull the trigger? Could you really make that cut? How could you swallow the pills?

I to much of a pussy, I cant even get blood drawn without freaking out. Knowing you are not coming back....man there is no way.

The only way to do it would to be run the exhaust in your car. My dads best friend did that 1yr ago. So sad he left a family behind, he was whacked out on meds from a bad back and cancer. They say after 10 minutes you just fall asleep like nothing and in 20 minutes your gone.

I guess the more I think about it, sometimes people cant control wat they do if they are on the wrong meds or drugs.

But still.........the even thought of making myself die scares the crap out of me. How can somebody do it?

[MilfDriller]

if you do it, can you take out Ryan first?

[Iwinyourmoney]

lol I am not doing it nor thinking of doing it. Never would do such a thing, most selfish thing in the world to do

[pico]

gambling is just money. more imporatnt things in life than that.

girls are dime a dozen...no need to go overboard over one snatch.

maybe for revenge. i can see myself go kamakazi if they fvck with my family too much.

[MarioBareseSP]

You can't. Some will argue that It's human nature to enjoy the Art of Self-Destruction, But, That's Just It, We enjoy it we don't really want it to end.

I would have to say that alot of the people who actually do it. Had some kind of mental disorder or were on some kind of drug.

[wtf]

i did it once

its ok

back now

[onlooker]

No.

[Chi_archie]

if you do it, can you take out Ryan first?

who is ryan



IWIN,

seriously though, why are you even bringing this up?

you had a call from your ex tonight... I'm worried about you man


only way I could ever off myself, was if it was for the greater greater greater good of those I love deeply....... I've faced some bad bad bad bad times... but they always pass and the good times far outweigh them....gotta love the adventure of life

[MilfDriller]

wtf, great post.

gave me a tremendous laugh. loved it. you sir, deserve great, winning picks..... ( so go check out my cat, dog thread)

[daggerkobe]

Brock Landers crossed over.

[Slim]

Shane Dronnett just did it.

[Iwinyourmoney]

no no no Archie. Not at all buddy. Far from it, life is great with her being a little speed bump

[xstud]

sadly I can say when I was younger and dumber (not by much) I did attempt.

I had just found out I had a serious heart condition, my gf left me after I moved 1300 miles for her, I was stuck in GA with no friends, no family and living in a hotel (the apartment I was going to lease when I first moved down was "Accidently" leased to someone else).

I took 85 tylenol pm, 15 valium, 10 clonipin and 10 nitro pills.

needless to say I got to experience absolute horror when I woke up... they had to give me charcol which I could not keep down when I was in and out of conciousness and then they pumped my stomache.... by sticking a tube up my nose down my throat... I then woke up a few days later... with a catheter in as well as being pumped full of a drug called "mucomyst" which essentially makes you horribly sick to your stomache and muscles ache... after 4 days in ICU I was finally transfered to the psychiatric part of the hospital for 2 weeks.... then back to the cardio portion for more observation...

all said and done... failed attempt (thank god) and a month in the hospital and a few thousand dollars in hospital bills... I don't remember a ton because I was a wreck but a piece of advice..

CALL SOMEONE, ANYONE when you are that down... and when you see people that down do not punch them in the gut.... if they seem like they could do something.

[Tsoprano]

No

[Iwinyourmoney]

****! With this post I am 91 posts away for 5,000. I dont want to be in that club

[Slim]

I think about it all the time. Maybe because i'm such a fuking loser and can't get layed to save my life.

[Iwinyourmoney]

XStud, do you have any perm effects from it?

[CS-Cedrick]

Whomever commits suicide is such a big ass loser, it takes balls to withstand every single problem in your life, and definitely every problem has a solution. Been there, that's why I can talk about it like this.

[xstud]

Iwin,

I lucked out. I have minimal effects... it really is tough to gauge considering I have heart disease...

I suffer from extreme heartburn, I cannot take tylenol anymore (when I do I usually vomit even from 1 pill), numerous doctors have said that the damage I caused to my liver could very well result in dialysis by the time I am 45-50, also the psychological effects are pretty extreme as well...

whenever you do anything like this and do not succeed in most states you usually get thrown in a psych ward and you better make sure to have an insurance card on you or you will be thrown in a state psychiatric facility until they deem you are "safe"... I spent 2 weeks in a private facility... most people are extreme train wrecks... you have to take meds constantly and you are under CONSTANT observation... no privacy... you cannot leave the grounds or anything of that sort... I also got a court order that assigned me a mental health social worker I had to meet with 3 times a month for a year.... if you disobey you can get locked up in a state hospital...

so yeah hopefully nobody you know is seriously considering this...

[Chi_archie]

sadly I can say when I was younger and dumber (not by much) I did attempt.

I had just found out I had a serious heart condition, my gf left me after I moved 1300 miles for her, I was stuck in GA with no friends, no family and living in a hotel (the apartment I was going to lease when I first moved down was "Accidently" leased to someone else).

I took 85 tylenol pm, 15 valium, 10 clonipin and 10 nitro pills.

needless to say I got to experience absolute horror when I woke up... they had to give me charcol which I could not keep down when I was in and out of conciousness and then they pumped my stomache.... by sticking a tube up my nose down my throat... I then woke up a few days later... with a catheter in as well as being pumped full of a drug called "mucomyst" which essentially makes you horribly sick to your stomache and muscles ache... after 4 days in ICU I was finally transfered to the psychiatric part of the hospital for 2 weeks.... then back to the cardio portion for more observation...

all said and done... failed attempt (thank god) and a month in the hospital and a few thousand dollars in hospital bills... I don't remember a ton because I was a wreck but a piece of advice..

CALL SOMEONE, ANYONE when you are that down... and when you see people that down do not punch them in the gut.... if they seem like they could do something.

wow, sobering account of an experience I'm sure you no doubt regret deeply.

I applaud your ability to be real and vulnerable here in the name of honesty.

I also applaud your ability to put down that many pills.... I have trouble with my flinstone vitamin still..

[Iwinyourmoney]

Wow thats tuff bro. Nobody (that I know of) is thinking of it. Glad to see you made it out, hopefully you have a new outlook on life

[Iwinyourmoney]

I also applaud your ability to put down that many pills.... I have trouble with my flinstone vitamin still..

[onlooker]

Damn xstud. Sorry to hear that, but good to see you made it through it.

[xstud]

just so everyone knows...

yes this is a horrible account of a horrible incident. I tell everyone what I experienced so they can think about what will happen if they do not succeed.

Also, I was in ICU and was EXTREMELY lucky to survive. The pain I caused family and friends is and was extreme...

I am better now, but obviously after this and my heart problems I was diagnosed with depression... not an excuse or anything but a lot of people that go through these thoughts have a totally different thought process and outlook on things..

I agree that people are total losers if they do this... if you look at my situation.. I defined what most people would call "loser", what most people need to realize is that a lot of people are mentally unstable and they truly cannot always help it... when most people have a bad day they talk about it or say "well maybe tomorrow will be better"... some people who I have met through groups look to drugs to overdose.

Everyone is built differently in regards to this...and every thing you do in regards to suicide impacts so many... and as a health impact...

I heard stories of people that survived gunshot wounds and were vegetables for the rest of their lives...
I heard of overdoses that resulted in kids 17 years old getting dialysis

so I look at it like someone looked over me.... granted at any time I could experience aftereffects from events a few years ago

Thanks for again keeping the ripping out of a serious thread like this.

[InTheHole]

thanks for sharing that xstud. lost a brother to suicide ...hung himself and it killed my family

[Chi_archie]

Stud,

again the candor and honesty is appreciated and earns my deepest respect...

glad you have moved on and have no just repressed/denied what happened in the past....

circumstances of life can get over on people somtimes.... you have bounced back, and are able to learn lessons from your previous mis steps.... and try to caution other people to do the same.

I wish you, your body, your mind, your spirit and your wagers longevity, wholeness, and success for as long as you want and that you would never want for as long as you live

[xstud]

I am EXTREMELY sorry about your loss.... I spend my time now educating people as best I can about all of this.

My family was torn apart and I survived.... I am sure just like myself we cannot stress enough how you should talk about your problems no matter how big or small and if the thought ever crosses your mind... pick up the damn phone.

again... my deepest sympathies

[xstud]

Stud,

again the candor and honesty is appreciated and earns my deepest respect...

glad you have moved on and have no just repressed/denied what happened in the past....

circumstances of life can get over on people somtimes.... you have bounced back, and are able to learn lessons from your previous mis steps.... and try to caution other people to do the same.

I wish you, your body, your mind, your spirit and your wagers longevity, wholeness, and success for as long as you want and that you would never want for as long as you live

Thanks for the kind words... it means alot chi.

[Shortstop]

No, I love life!

[InTheHole]

Well I have to be honest with you xstud...when you said you were afraid of jailtime it sparked something in me and I may have been a little out of line calling you an idiot in you dui thread...my brother was facing significant time for his third dui...he died very young (27) but battled alcoholism his whole life with brief periods of abstinence...the reality and fear associated with the third dui (guaranteed time) sent him over the edge. In the end he was a pussy but I don't blame him. He was in a lot of pain and I can see how he saw no way out. I much rather see mandated treatment than jailtime.

[jjgold]

Never really thought about suicide but I get depressed at times when looking back on things and my current status/state I am in.

It is actually easy to just pack it in in life and kill yourself especially in todays world.

[Shortstop]

Never really thought about suicide but I get depressed at times when looking back on things and my current status/state I am in.

It is actually easy to just pack it in in life and kill yourself especially in todays world.

[l7ustin]

Corbin no one takes you seriously anymore pal

[teaserpleaser]

Hell no... no matter how bad it gets i can always find one of these and im good again. Crazy I'd never try to off myself sorry to hear about these things.

[Slim]

Its not selfish to kill yourself. Those people that don't have major depression don't understand how it is when you're suffering.