Find a nice girl and start a family. Sounds like you have a lot to give, and that is a good thing my friend.
First follow all about $$$ advice, if that doesn't work...
The kid will be ok. It must be tough but it is out of your control. Can't dwell on things that are beyond your control... it is a waste of energy and because you get nowhere it can suck you dry.
And if I ever hear you bitch about a 5 handicap again, I will find you and slap the shit out of you.