Life is what you make of it. If you think there's some grand mystery to be solved, there's not. (Unless you believe in an afterlife and everlasting salvation.) A good life is about three things and three things only: Friends, Family, and Fukking. Anybody who tells you otherwise is selling you something or has failed to find true friends, hates their family, or can't get laid. And those folks need some sort of bullshit Quixotian quest to justify their existence. Which is why the most miserable and lonely people in the world are the ones generally trying to save it. (and wrecking it as a result) The educated man in his misery will deride ignorance as bliss, while the wise man in his joy lives blissfully ignorant. In this country, some of the poorest and most uneducated people around are the happiest. They are happy because they spend their free time laughing it up, hanging out with friends and family. The people who aren't happy in this country are those who think they need more--fancier clothes, bigger televisions, bigger houses, and will do anything to get those things so as to fill the giant hole in their hearts which are usually filled with love and friendship. These friendless toolbags are the turds in the punchbowl---the oblivious busy-body douchebags who wreck shit with their good intentions and the soulless vicious criminals who wreck shit with their bad ones. You are obviously in a rut right now. You know how you get out of a rut? Small steps that lead to bigger ones. Start doing some push-ups everyday. As many as you can do. If you can only do 5-10, only do five or ten. But push yourself. Everyday. Make yourself do it. It's 30 seconds of your life. After a while you will want to start doing more. And more. And more. Pretty soon that 30 seconds will turn into 5-10 minutes of exercise. And then 30. And then an hour. You're going to see results and you're going to like it. Even if they come slow. And then you want more dramatic improvement. So you stop eating junk food. Stop drinking so much. You will feel stronger and more alive. You will have greater confidence and courage. You will start wanting to improve other areas of your life. You will read more. Maybe take up a musical instrument. In the months that follow you will find you are turning into one of the more interesting people to talk to at parties and the bar. Women will take notice. And you will notice them with more fervor than you had in your prior indolence. And that's when you'll bring them home, and take them on the kitchen floor. And that'll be the moment you realize you love your friends, you love your family, you love fukking, and you love life.