But also you will now see how my whole damn life has changed since then! Now all I think is WHAT THE FUK DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE THAT I SOMEHOW SQUIRRELED MY WAY OUT OF THAT GIANT HOLE? SOME HOW SOME WAY, I MANAGED TO "GET MY LOSSES BACK" BUT IT TOOK 90 FUKIN GRAND AND ALL MY SANITY TO DO IT!! WELL SO WHAT? NOW WHAT DO I DO WITH IT? JUST SIT THERE AND LOOK AT IT ON A COMPUTER SCREEN? MY GOSH I CERTAINLY HOPE NOT!