oops - sorry for the double post!
Ez Money,
I'm not gonna sit here and judge you, since to a certain extent we're all degenerates if we're on this site
I will say it looks like you love your wife a lot, and even though you might not think you deserve her at times, she obviously loves you and wants to be with you....otherwise she'd be gone! So, play along with me for a second - imagine you come home from work tomorrow, and she tells you she's got terminal cancer. She's got at best 3 or 4 months to live, and she wants to spend them with you, making it count. Could you pull away from gambling? Be honest...that's not a rhetorical question. Some of us couldn't, as awful as that sounds. That's how bad this addiction can get hold of you.
If you don't think you could quit gambling for a few months outta respect your dying wife's wishes, then you probably do need to eventually get some professional help. But if you do think you could quit, then that's good news man! You can start making small steps to manage this. Seriously, set a small goal, like "I'm not gonna place a bet for a day", or "I'm gonna go to the gym before I make a bet."
I know all this sounds pansy and Dr. Phil, but you can get this under control if you start setting small goals, and start "working out" your willpower. As hokie as it sounds it's worked for me. a couple years ago, I'd lost several thousand, and came clean to my wife about it. She was hurt, and I honestly wanted her to leave me, cause I felt like a douche that didn't deserve her. She reminded me that would be the easy and selfish way out, and she was right, so I worked on it. Had quite a few slip ups along the way, but it's under control now. If you can get it under control, it carries over into other parts of your life too. It would prolly help you with getting off the pills, and even losing weight, if that's what you wanna do.
Hang in there man, it sounds like you have a good lady. They're hard to come by. She's worth you making an effort on this.