i hope to hell not.. if i were told 20 yrs ago that one day i'd win a POTM award in a gambling chat room with a bunch of gambling degenerates, i would have hung myself and taken myself out of my misery knowing that this is what my life would have become. i would have hoped to become a doctor or a lawyer.. not this.. I expected much more than a POTM award at this point in my life..

It would just remind me of just how much of a loser i am today and how my life is worth nothing. my mother hoped one day many yrs ago that her son would be some successful guy, instead, i hang out at a FORUM and chat with a bunch of shut ins. how sad..

i'm sure my mother is not too proud of her son and my dad is turning in his grave as i type this post.