Savings began. First paycheck banked. On way to real estate in 18 months or less.
I realized I’ve become extremely soft. No longer is my personality attractive like it was in college. Frat guy, partied every weekend, did drugs, motorcycle, tatted etc. Now I’m fukking helping old ladies with animals and taking girls on painting dates. What the fuk is wrong with me.
I had 4 close friends who this softness had developed around. I explained the situation and then blocked them today. In college, I was arrested, attempted suicide twice, and was entirely alone to deal with my demons despite my fun. I must do that again. I must be alone and become heartless again.