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  • Cuse0323
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    • 12-09-09
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    #246
    Originally posted by The Kraken
    I get the OD thing.

    I used to always be the first to try new blow in case it had Fentanyl in it. I could always tell, that feeling is unmistakable,
    but no way in hell would I OD on it. Anyone else I ran with woulda died had they tried it before me, and we got blow more than once that had Fent mixed in.

    Most pll just know what they read on yahoo, they dont know though.
    Yep. Not much more to say than yep. I’m first to take the shot to make sure they know how safe to play it.
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    • Cuse0323
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      • 12-09-09
      • 30169

      #247
      Sol, if it works for you, then that’s great. It truly is. That’s my dream is to just have one day or weekend of relaxation, and the rest I buckle down, and don’t need it. I appreciate you rooting for me as well. All the support here is great. When I’m going to buy booze, I think “damn, this is gonna disappoint SBR, especially $$$.” Then I make some excuse and do it anyway, but I’m gonna hit a point where the clouds clear, and things line up perfectly. I finish all my booze, then pass out and get a great nights sleep. Then bam, I just wake up, and go to work then live a normal life. It’ll happen. The stars will align.
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      • BrickJames
        SBR Hall of Famer
        • 05-05-11
        • 9749

        #248
        Originally posted by Sol Diablo
        I'm blessed in the fact that I have will power. And I have looked addiction in the face and said penetrate you.

        I love beer, love alcohol. I love being numb. Love the escape.

        Drank too much for a stretch and had to look it square in the eye. Went through the whole I'm never gonna do this again phase. Etc.

        But I'm lucky because Ive never been physically addicted to anything Ive loved. Through the years Ive come to a spot that works. Sober 5-6 days a week. Then splurge on the weekends. That in and of itself takes some discipline for someone who would love to be numb more often. But I would rather live life like that. Treat myself to some relaxing weekends. Remain disciplined. Keep it under control.

        Every few months detox it all out for a couple weeks. Keep eating healthy. Keep working out.

        Most that love to drink can't manage it like I have. So I'm lucky I guess.
        A real weekend warrior!

        You are the reason I won't go downtown on weekends.

        In the strip club throwing your paycheck around like you're a boss.

        Ordering 3 Coors lights at a time making it impossible for me to get a drink at the bar.

        Posting memes about the "Sunday scaries".
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        • inmyownzone
          SBR MVP
          • 12-31-12
          • 1953

          #249
          Pm me cuse
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          • PittsburghPlayer
            SBR Hall of Famer
            • 01-11-10
            • 6760

            #250
            Cuse, PM me before you are up this way. You being isolated is currently what is killing you, as well as ... , like many.

            you are strong, too many men demonize and dehumanize men that they do not understand, and good for them - they do not understand what it is like to get your ass handed to you by someone you should be able to trust

            ftr, not going to pretend I have any answers, but I do have a push in the right direction
            crack ballz
            you can not tell us crack ballz will not ring your bell and is not a drug that will not kill you

            but no one wants you dead and this is not 1994
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            • Cuse0323
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              • 12-09-09
              • 30169

              #251
              Originally posted by PittsburghPlayer
              Cuse, PM me before you are up this way. You being isolated is currently what is killing you, as well as ... , like many.

              you are strong, too many men demonize and dehumanize men that they do not understand, and good for them - they do not understand what it is like to get your ass handed to you by someone you should be able to trust

              ftr, not going to pretend I have any answers, but I do have a push in the right direction
              crack ballz
              you can not tell us crack ballz will not ring your bell and is not a drug that will not kill you

              but no one wants you dead and this is not 1994
              I’ll definitely PM you when I’m coming up. The isolation is killing me, that’s why I’m hanging with these people I met. They’re all actually legit, except the chick who fcked me over. Hate to say it, but I smoked crack for the first time ever last night. It was just like an ash hit and nothing really in it, so all good. The little rush I got was alright. I may buy myself a rock when I get paid just to really try it. Fck it.
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              • jtoler
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                • 12-17-13
                • 30967

                #252
                Originally posted by Cuse0323
                I’ll definitely PM you when I’m coming up. The isolation is killing me, that’s why I’m hanging with these people I met. They’re all actually legit, except the chick who fcked me over. Hate to say it, but I smoked crack for the first time ever last night. It was just like an ash hit and nothing really in it, so all good. The little rush I got was alright. I may buy myself a rock when I get paid just to really try it. Fck it.
                chill out bro u know that is c is wack. here is what we have coming up buckle sit back and pass the time watching football.

                2019 Syracuse Football Schedule
                Date Opponent Time TV/Comments
                Saturday, August 31st at Liberty 6:00 pm ESPN+
                Saturday, September 7th at Maryland noon ESPN or ESPN2
                Saturday, September 14th CLEMSON 7:30 pm ABC, probable College Game Day
                Saturday, September 21st WESTERN MICHIGAN
                Saturday, September 28th HOLY CROSS
                Saturday, October 5th BYE 1
                Thursday, October 10th at NC State 8:00 pm ESPN
                Friday, October 18th PITTSBURGH 7:00 pm ESPN
                Saturday, October 26th at Florida State
                Saturday, November 2nd BOSTON COLLEGE
                Saturday, November 9th BYE 2
                Saturday, November 16th at Duke
                Saturday, November 23th at Louisville
                Saturday, November 30th WAKE FOREST


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                • gauchojake
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                  • 09-17-10
                  • 34109

                  #253
                  The elevator only goes down pal. It's up to you when you want to get off.
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                  • inmyownzone
                    SBR MVP
                    • 12-31-12
                    • 1953

                    #254
                    Originally posted by gauchojake
                    The elevator only goes down pal. It's up to you when you want to get off.
                    Deep Jake, deep.
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                    • inmyownzone
                      SBR MVP
                      • 12-31-12
                      • 1953

                      #255
                      Originally posted by jtoler
                      chill out bro u know that is c is wack. here is what we have coming up buckle sit back and pass the time watching football.

                      2019 Syracuse Football Schedule
                      Date Opponent Time TV/Comments
                      Saturday, August 31st at Liberty 6:00 pm ESPN+
                      Saturday, September 7th at Maryland noon ESPN or ESPN2
                      Saturday, September 14th CLEMSON 7:30 pm ABC, probable College Game Day
                      Saturday, September 21st WESTERN MICHIGAN
                      Saturday, September 28th HOLY CROSS
                      Saturday, October 5th BYE 1
                      Thursday, October 10th at NC State 8:00 pm ESPN
                      Friday, October 18th PITTSBURGH 7:00 pm ESPN
                      Saturday, October 26th at Florida State
                      Saturday, November 2nd BOSTON COLLEGE
                      Saturday, November 9th BYE 2
                      Saturday, November 16th at Duke
                      Saturday, November 23th at Louisville
                      Saturday, November 30th WAKE FOREST


                      What’s y’all season total number? If it’s low I might take the over I like this schedule for y’all.
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                      • BigdaddyQH
                        SBR Posting Legend
                        • 07-13-09
                        • 19530

                        #256
                        Enough of this melodrama. Cuse, it is time for you to either crap or get off the pot. What a wuss. You asked for help. Everyone in here including myself has tried to give you help. You just carry on and on. Enough! We all have lives to live in here. If you cannot successfully live yours, you will get what you deserve.
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                        • Cuse0323
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                          • 12-09-09
                          • 30169

                          #257
                          Originally posted by BigdaddyQH
                          Enough of this melodrama. Cuse, it is time for you to either crap or get off the pot. What a wuss. You asked for help. Everyone in here including myself has tried to give you help. You just carry on and on. Enough! We all have lives to live in here. If you cannot successfully live yours, you will get what you deserve.
                          It’s simple. Don’t open the thread again. I’m venting my thoughts here.
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                          • Cuse0323
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                            • 12-09-09
                            • 30169

                            #258
                            Originally posted by inmyownzone
                            What’s y’all season total number? If it’s low I might take the over I like this schedule for y’all.
                            7.5 and we easily win 8.
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                            • gauchojake
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                              • 09-17-10
                              • 34109

                              #259
                              Originally posted by inmyownzone
                              Deep Jake, deep.
                              There's another good one that goes something like - if you find yourself in a hole, put down the shovel.
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                              • BrickJames
                                SBR Hall of Famer
                                • 05-05-11
                                • 9749

                                #260
                                How did your games go? Did you run it up?
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                                • The Kraken
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                                  • 12-25-11
                                  • 28918

                                  #261
                                  Originally posted by gauchojake
                                  There's another good one that goes something like - if you find yourself in a hole, put down the shovel.
                                  Yep, Layne Staley wrote a song about it. River of Deceit. Our pain is self-chosen and the river of deceit only flows down
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                                  • PittsburghPlayer
                                    SBR Hall of Famer
                                    • 01-11-10
                                    • 6760

                                    #262
                                    Judge, we are not going to do any crack, just a silly joke.

                                    We didn't have no dope or LSD
                                    But a coupla quartsa beer
                                    Would fix it so the intonation
                                    Would not offend yer ear
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                                    • Cuse0323
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                                      • 12-09-09
                                      • 30169

                                      #263
                                      Originally posted by BrickJames
                                      How did your games go? Did you run it up?
                                      I let the fools I was with pick. Lost it all on the Phillies. First game mentioned was Seattle. Should have rolled with it.
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                                      • BrickJames
                                        SBR Hall of Famer
                                        • 05-05-11
                                        • 9749

                                        #264
                                        Originally posted by Cuse0323
                                        I let the fools I was with pick. Lost it all on the Phillies. First game mentioned was Seattle. Should have rolled with it.
                                        Should have faded them.
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                                        • pablo222
                                          SBR Hall of Famer
                                          • 01-03-19
                                          • 8858

                                          #265
                                          Cuse. Behave buddy. Think positive and do what you say you want to do. What are your.goals to live the life you say you want to have, and then make the right decions to lead you there. Be strong.

                                          You say you are a tank. Be a tank in your resolve to change.

                                          We all know it ain't easy but we are rooting for you.
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                                          • reigle9
                                            SBR Posting Legend
                                            • 10-25-07
                                            • 17879

                                            #266
                                            f\*g

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                                            • Cuse0323
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                                              • 12-09-09
                                              • 30169

                                              #267
                                              Originally posted by pablo222
                                              Cuse. Behave buddy. Think positive and do what you say you want to do. What are your.goals to live the life you say you want to have, and then make the right decions to lead you there. Be strong.

                                              You say you are a tank. Be a tank in your resolve to change.

                                              We all know it ain't easy but we are rooting for you.
                                              I think I just enjoy the dumbass lifestyle. I could easily end up in jail. I’m back chilling with the crew. Loneliness is a bitch sometimes, I guess. I’m gonna get this figured out though. I pissed all my money I had left away gambling, and more drugs. I have three checks left coming before Cuse, so I gotta save those. I can stay with friends for free, and like $144 for a rental car. I’ll have enough, just not enough to do everything I wanted for my girl, if she even is my girl. We shall see.

                                              These people pretty damn boring anyway, and crack ain’t even that good. I’m all set with that. Just love benzos, but I have other options than getting them from them. And I’m making money getting rid of my subutex. Not NY prices, but oh well.

                                              Main issue now is the drug test on Tuesday that could be a smorgasbord of drugs. I’ll be okay though. I can pass em with ease through just drinking water.

                                              Thing is, I have no goals. I like booze, drugs, gambling, and hoes. No hobbies outside of that. My goal was to wife this girl up, have a kid, and move in together eventually after we figured out her situation with the twins. Now that’s probably out the window. Cutie at work that’s a sweetheart. Tempted to ask her if she wants to go on a date. Idk man, I’m all over the place.

                                              I’m an idiot, no need to repeat it. I know it.
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                                              • reigle9
                                                SBR Posting Legend
                                                • 10-25-07
                                                • 17879

                                                #268
                                                come make fun of vitty with me

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                                                • Cuse0323
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                                                  • 12-09-09
                                                  • 30169

                                                  #269
                                                  Ahhhh the great horrible new stories I could tell. I’m even too embarrassed to do it. I crashed and slept through work, so hopefully I just have a job still and then everything else can fck off. Do not ever smoke crack. I get it now. Never understood why it was so hard to just not be a bum, and put the pipe down. And I hate stimulants.
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                                                  • Cuse0323
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                                                    • 12-09-09
                                                    • 30169

                                                    #270
                                                    I’m an embarrassment. I belong toothless on the street, begging for change to get a few Natty Daddy’s. Maybe I should just move to skid row. That’s where I belong. My mom has kept me going this long, and I deserve none of it.
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                                                    • JAKEPEAVY21
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                                                      • 03-11-11
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                                                      #271
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                                                      • PittsburghPlayer
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                                                        • 01-11-10
                                                        • 6760

                                                        #272
                                                        Jesus Christ, I was joking about crack.

                                                        Cuse, `bout to jump on bike for Lake Ontario, had not intended to sign in here for awhile until I read the above...

                                                        Offer stands, you need a place to detox without going to detox, I`m here.
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                                                        • jts1207
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                                                          • 12-15-16
                                                          • 8011

                                                          #273
                                                          Its all over if youre on the crack.
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                                                          • JAKEPEAVY21
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                                                            #274
                                                            cuser, I don't think you can do this by yourself, get help from someone, anyone...

                                                            you are a smart guy but the addiction is too strong...Godspeed
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                                                            • jts1207
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                                                              • 12-15-16
                                                              • 8011

                                                              #275
                                                              On crack guy will be selling his computer and phone within a week. Get help guy.
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                                                              • allabout the $$$
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                                                                • 04-17-10
                                                                • 9843

                                                                #276
                                                                What's next bro you gonna start sucking dick for a rock?
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                                                                • Cuse0323
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                                                                  • 12-09-09
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                                                                  #277
                                                                  Originally posted by JAKEPEAVY21
                                                                  cuser, I don't think you can do this by yourself, get help from someone, anyone...

                                                                  you are a smart guy but the addiction is too strong...Godspeed
                                                                  I’m guessing my doctor today will force me into rehab. But, I can’t go because my dog, which I almost killed. That is what I needed to stop. I don’t know how he’s alive. I almost killed the thing I love the most. Even if my mom comes back early the house needs to be cleaned so she doesn’t murder me. Doc will have the answers for me today. I hope it just says coke in general on the test, and not crack. I can explain some coke, heroin, and Xanax. Who am I kidding? No, I can’t.
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                                                                  • Cuse0323
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                                                                    • 12-09-09
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                                                                    #278
                                                                    Originally posted by allabout the $$$
                                                                    What's next bro you gonna start sucking dick for a rock?
                                                                    Nah. I can only do it with benzos or I’d freak out. It scares me. I’m done with it. Yeah, I’ve been saying that about everything. But, I’m not hanging out with these hustlers anymore. I’m fine without the money since my dog is alive, and I didn’t crash my Mom’s car or something. Or jail. Could be so much worse. I’ll work it out with my doctor and come up with a plan. AA oriented of course.
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                                                                    • allabout the $$$
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                                                                      • 04-17-10
                                                                      • 9843

                                                                      #279
                                                                      It could be worse? Only way it's worse is if you're dead.
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                                                                      • Cuse0323
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                                                                        • 12-09-09
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                                                                        #280
                                                                        Originally posted by jts1207
                                                                        On crack guy will be selling his computer and phone within a week. Get help guy.
                                                                        Pawned the engagement ring I bought for $75. But, it has a major flaw in it or else it would be $1500. My luck. I went to multiple places and they all saw it. Such a nice ring but that damn flaw. May just leave it there.
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