I've never made a thread like this before, but tonight I just kept losing and losing and now I have nothing left, no income at the moment, and $40 000 in debt. Lost $1500 on Pats on Monday, then managed to lose $1000 daily until today when I couldn't take it anymore after the Navy game, and went all in on the 2nd H Over 89.5 on the Minny/Sac game, and of course they miss every shot and the score ends as one of the lowest I've ever seen in NBA.
What's worse is that I know this isn't even rock bottom. Whenever someone tells you, 'cheer up, things could always be worse', I know I'm just not there yet. Even though this is terrible and I have no idea how I'll get out of this, I know things will be worse one day and it makes me sick. Tomorrow will be the end, I'm transferring my last $200 to 5D and will have a final all in play.
I hate this, I fukking hate this, and it wouldn't even be as bad if the wins and losses came at the same time. But it's always 10 wins in a row, then 16 losses in a row, which is the worst way to go 10-16. The only reason I started doing this was to just make a bit of income, like a part-time job because no one wants to hire me anywhere and I don't know why. For 10 years I have searched for a regular job and have never held a steady job for more than 3 months at a time. I just wanted to use wagering as a way to support myself until I finish school, so I could maybe get a job at a grocery store at least (where I live, I know I'll need a degree just for a minimum wage job at this point)
If anyone knows of anywhere online I could find a job, or be able to write for a company or something I would be appreciative. I just can't stand this anymore. Every loss is like a heartbreak, like I'm being divorced each time or rejected by someone you've liked for an eternity. I just hate this.
What's worse is that I know this isn't even rock bottom. Whenever someone tells you, 'cheer up, things could always be worse', I know I'm just not there yet. Even though this is terrible and I have no idea how I'll get out of this, I know things will be worse one day and it makes me sick. Tomorrow will be the end, I'm transferring my last $200 to 5D and will have a final all in play.
I hate this, I fukking hate this, and it wouldn't even be as bad if the wins and losses came at the same time. But it's always 10 wins in a row, then 16 losses in a row, which is the worst way to go 10-16. The only reason I started doing this was to just make a bit of income, like a part-time job because no one wants to hire me anywhere and I don't know why. For 10 years I have searched for a regular job and have never held a steady job for more than 3 months at a time. I just wanted to use wagering as a way to support myself until I finish school, so I could maybe get a job at a grocery store at least (where I live, I know I'll need a degree just for a minimum wage job at this point)
If anyone knows of anywhere online I could find a job, or be able to write for a company or something I would be appreciative. I just can't stand this anymore. Every loss is like a heartbreak, like I'm being divorced each time or rejected by someone you've liked for an eternity. I just hate this.
