Video - went out and did some drugs last night and

[jjgold]

Stevey do a video about how to get a girl

Do simulations like I Do

[stevek173]

J gonna be tough this time. I dunno i fI can ge tback on me feet this time maybe just time to make $ and be content by myself this time.

J I'nm so tired, so tired. All I do is give give give. It's never enough man. Never enough. I look pretty good. There must be something missing I just dunno about.

J I"m just so tired.

[stealthyburrito]

holy shit. i wasn't sure if i was watching a movie from steviek or by stanley kubrick. what a goddamn mindfukk.

i am going to watch this several times to catch the symbolism and allegory, it is chalk full of artist expression thats impossible to get through just one watch. steve this vid is going to escape too many here, the layers to this complex soul are unfathomable.

Steve, having the Skype line open gives YOU the upper hand with Shari.

i beg to differ.

[stevek173]

holy shit. i wasn't sure if i was watching a movie from steviek or by stanley kubrick. what a goddamn mindfukk.

i am going to watch this several times to catch the symbolism and allegory, it is chalk full of artist expression thats impossible to get through just one watch. steve this vid is going to escape too many here, the layers to this complex soul are unfathomable.





i beg to differ.

Stealthy this is a "Producer's Video" only a few would get it.

I knew from your initial vieo you might so I am very glad for your feedback.

I put a lot into this and what you had to say is gratifying, these 2 took a lot out of me - we aren't all in U of Va where chicks come easy and drinks go down quick.

It's tough out here and I did pretty good w the ladies but they don't get that my job and gambling comes 1st.

Stealthy find one who does. And I want Vids.

Stealthy please do good in school 1st and foremost and keep your family close to you. Friends come and go as does money.

If you do those things your future here is classic.

[stealthyburrito]

Stealthy this is a "Producer's Video" only a few would get it.

I knew from your initial vieo you might so I am very glad for your feedback.

I put a lot into this and what you had to say is gratifying, these 2 took a lot out of me - we aren't all in U of Va where chicks come easy and drinks go down quick.

It's tough out here and I did pretty good w the ladies but they don't get that my job and gambling comes 1st.

Stealthy find one who does. And I want Vids.

Stealthy please do good in school 1st and foremost and keep your family close to you. Friends come and go as does money.

If you do those things your future here is classic.

stevie i don't know if i will find one, uva is a swallow place. sometimes i wonder if i didn't have such nice things, would these people give me a second look?? dunno.

you are right, friends come and go, its about finding those who stick around through adversity, that reveals the true characteristics of friendship (or lack thereof). a lot of the younger girls love the accomodations of my place, but thats about it. don't get me wrong, its great, had plenty of fun times, but it is just so hollow and empty sometimes. sometimes you want something deeper.

stevie, school and family/true friends will always be top priorities, right behind gambling and you guys

i will try to never forget that.

[Cougar Bait]

Pretty good till you went scuba diving

Nicely done Stevie

Now go make a porno

[36mafia]

yooo steves urks

mad props doggg. respect

this vid is maaadd stooopid dogg

[36mafia]

dis shit is so stupid iss stooopppiddddddd

[stevek173]

stevie i don't know if i will find one, uva is a swallow place. sometimes i wonder if i didn't have such nice things, would these people give me a second look?? dunno.

you are right, friends come and go, its about finding those who stick around through adversity, that reveals the true characteristics of friendship (or lack thereof). a lot of the younger girls love the accomodations of my place, but thats about it. don't get me wrong, its great, had plenty of fun times, but it is just so hollow and empty sometimes. sometimes you want something deeper.

stevie, school and family/true friends will always be top priorities, right behind gambling and you guys

i will try to never forget that.

Wise beyond your years kid. don't make the mistakes I did. Mine involve women, always women. I crush my job, I always easily did excel in school. Always in at least decent shape was semi pro beach volleyball for a long time sounds like a joke to many but for those who actually did that you know it's very, very demanding.

Stealthy the women though. I don't know. I am a well documented case of addiction. maybe I wasn't held enough as a baby. I don't know what it is or what I need. It's not even the sex. I mean sure it feels great to skeet in a great place but I love being held. I love holding hands. I love kissing and being kissed. When I was engaged I went to gambling because she was not affectionate enough. then when I broke it off with her I got into girls who spoiled me as much sexually as I did them monetarily. Got so into it. Bondage. Punching (them me, never me them I don't hit girls they are too pretty). Such ****** up stuff I cannot describe butt when you are doing it right you convince yourself it is not that ****** up so as to go through with it.

I know I am an addict and I am ignoring any of them to get back to what is me - WORK. Just work. And these vids which give me an opportunity to vent and of course some gambling though pucklines have been brutal to me for about 6 weeks. Means little though I only bet what I can afford. Ever.

Stealthy I know I am ****** and I know I won't win it is just how it is. I will work my ass off, enjoy my life and I will blow it all on broads. That's 173. It's meant to be - I accept fate and am done fighting it. This just all got way too complicated but was so simple at the same time - I am forever doomed by the oppisitie sex and unlike many of you out there who will be Ok I accept that I won't. Either one from the past will kill me for sodomizing her under false pretences or one from the future will. Doesn't matter I won't and cannot stop. I'm very strong Stealthy mentally and physically. If you met me you would be like "Wow that guy has his shit together" you really would.

But Stealthy I am ******. It all went to far because I am compulsive. And I know I can't beat that.

It's over. I accept it.

And it's OK.

Keep those priorities like I told you. Find a good one who is your best team mate in every facet.

It will be good if you actualize your potential.

You do have a great place there and it seem slike great friends too/ When you are 35, like me, don't find yourself ******* girls with 3 kids up the ass just to kill time.

Kid it is counterproductive.

And ya know it really does hurt people's feeling I learned later.

Stealthy be good.

You are in my corner guy.

[stealthyburrito]

stevie,

i appreciate the candor, it is worrisome but refreshing at the same time.

the wisdom is great, you've seen and done a lot and imparting something to improve my life is simply priceless to me.

i totally feel the same way about affection. it doesn't even have to be touching or hand holding, affection comes in so many forms and with words. lately i've felt the need for members of the opposite sex to challenge my intellect, challenge my spirit. i used to hate it, i wanted people to reaffirm my lifestyle and the habits i enjoyed. but know i see that someone challenging your way of life, simply out of care for your person, is true affection. and i love them for that, not because i wanna **** them or whatever, but for their patent honesty. those kinda people i need more of in my life.

stevie, you've aired a lot out here but if you wanna talk away from the boards i'm all ears pal.

stevie