Me bitches. Two month stint in rehab. Important message hopefully tonight if things work out.
Saloon this shit.
2daBank
SBR Aristocracy
01-26-09
88966
#2
Hope all is well buddy. You sure seem to be one those in and out rehab guys tho, wtf up w that? Either stop or don’t brother!!
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Slipknot26
SBR Hall of Famer
07-17-15
5046
#3
Good to see you Cuse
Hope you're doing well
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2daBank
SBR Aristocracy
01-26-09
88966
#4
Love your cuse boys tonight.
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jjgold
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07-20-05
388189
#5
Good job
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JayLA
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09-11-12
7806
#6
Originally posted by 2daBank
Hope all is well buddy. You sure seem to be one those in and out rehab guys tho, wtf up w that? Either stop or don’t brother!!
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#7
Originally posted by 2daBank
Hope all is well buddy. You sure seem to be one those in and out rehab guys tho, wtf up w that? Either stop or don’t brother!!
Definitely my last. I stopped drinking this past year since it was killing me. The other stuff caught up to me.
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kingdom
SBR Posting Legend
07-25-10
10099
#8
Originally posted by 2daBank
Hope all is well buddy. You sure seem to be one those in and out rehab guys tho, wtf up w that? Either stop or don’t brother!!
if only it was that easy.... i got family in the same spot. all you can do is hope and pray they get the strength.
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kingdom
SBR Posting Legend
07-25-10
10099
#9
Originally posted by Cuse0323
Definitely my last. I stopped drinking this past year since it was killing me. The other stuff caught up to me.
gl cuse. wish you the best.
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RudyRuetigger
SBR Aristocracy
08-24-10
65086
#10
Cuse, welcome back bro
One of my fave
I'm hoping you get drinker of the year this time
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2daBank
SBR Aristocracy
01-26-09
88966
#11
Originally posted by JayLA
I’m not trying to be a prick jay. Cuse my guy. I have friends similar to him tho and I tell them the same I just don’t get it.. god knows I gots issues and prob do more of worse than most but here the thing, if it becomes a problem in my life I stop, when I feel like partying some more I do., just don’t get the in and out rehab guys. Ultimately rehab can’t help ya, either you wanna stop and do, or you just getting away from it and minute it in your face you back at it and feeling bad for yourself which usually makes it worse.. hopefuliy he can learn to control himself !!
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jjgold
SBR Aristocracy
07-20-05
388189
#12
Stay away from
Vices pal
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gauchojake
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09-17-10
34103
#13
Welcome back pal. Call me.
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leetreaper
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10-23-10
34841
#14
Cuser
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2daBank
SBR Aristocracy
01-26-09
88966
#15
Originally posted by jjgold
Stay away from
Vices pal
Interesting advice from guy working for a gambling forum!! Lol
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chico2663
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09-02-10
36915
#16
welcome back bro. How is your mom?
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#17
Originally posted by RudyRuetigger
Cuse, welcome back bro
One of my fave
I'm hoping you get drinker of the year this time
Thanks. Not deserving this year. Only have drank about a dozen times this year.
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#18
Originally posted by 2daBank
I’m not trying to be a prick jay. Cuse my guy. I have friends similar to him tho and I tell them the same I just don’t get it.. god knows I gots issues and prob do more of worse than most but here the thing, if it becomes a problem in my life I stop, when I feel like partying some more I do., just don’t get the in and out rehab guys. Ultimately rehab can’t help ya, either you wanna stop and do, or you just getting away from it and minute it in your face you back at it and feeling bad for yourself which usually makes it worse.. hopefuliy he can learn to control himself !!
You’re right banker. It’s really pretty easy. Just gotta want it. I stopped drinking and everyone knows how bad I was. I wanted it and did it. It’s something simple that addicts complicate.
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#19
Thanks everyone else. Glad to be back.
Chico, mom is doing well, thanks.
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Shute
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03-20-17
11835
#20
Cuse
Welcome and peace for you
Have a great holidays
Your friend
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The Terminator
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11-04-18
500
#21
Cuse, I’m new here but congrats on your successful recovery and keep it going, GL on all your plays and in life in general!
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#22
Originally posted by The Terminator
Cuse, I’m new here but congrats on your successful recovery and keep it going, GL on all your plays and in life in general!
Thanks man.
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funnyb25
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07-09-09
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#23
Welcome home Cuser!
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#24
Originally posted by Shute
Cuse
Welcome and peace for you
Have a great holidays
Your friend
Thanks Shuter.
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#25
Originally posted by funnyb25
Welcome home Cuser!
Thanks funny. Good to see ya.
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packerd_00
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05-22-13
17790
#26
How you doing cuse, glad to hear you're doing okay.
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kidcudi92
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12-14-11
15434
#27
Welcome back to one of the folks I am happy to see return
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#28
Originally posted by packerd_00
How you doing cuse, glad to hear you're doing okay.
Thanks my man!
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#29
Originally posted by kidcudi92
Welcome back to one of the folks I am happy to see return
Appreciate it brother. Good to see you too.
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19th Hole
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03-22-09
18863
#30
Welcome Back Cuse.
Wish you the best on your new journey.
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#31
I’m not gonna lie, I got high tonight and am working on a few beers.
I guess I’ll tell y’all what my message was gonna be. Really not looking for attention, but I was gonna kill myself. I have no one else to tell this, without getting hospitalized. Getting high may have saved me. My plan was to get drunk, then shoot up all the fentanyl I had. It would have been enough. My best friend died from just two of these bags earlier this year, and I had four with no tolerance. Though he did some ketamine too. The 16 beers would have been enough to boost my chances. Absolutely painless death.
I really don’t want to die. I love life. The problem is that I can’t do what I truly enjoy, and it doesn’t look like I ever will be able to. My joys in life are gambling, drugs, and alcohol. I don’t have the money to do any of that as much as I’d like to. I just want to live in Vegas, and get high and drunk everyday. No interest in anything else, and my mental health makes it difficult for me to get a job. I’m a 30 year old baby.
I’m lonely and need a girl. Rehab taught me how much I desire a woman in my life. I fell for this girl, but she wasn’t having it. Another gorgeous girl came in after the first left and I fell for her too. Doubt I had a chance with her either. I get attached to females easily. I’m a sappy, hopeless romantic. Think I need someone else to make me happy, but in reality I need to find happiness within myself first before I can be happy with someone else. You really do have to love yourself, or at least like yourself before being able to be loved.
After getting high, I just felt so happy and have no desire to off myself now. Who knows if that changes tomorrow when I wake up. I hope I still have the will to persevere. I’m not going to do it. It would absolutely crush my mom. Getting the money from her, along with letting me drive would cause her so much guilt. I just couldn’t do it to her, but I just don’t see a decent future for myself. I’m a decent, somewhat intelligent human being who could do well for myself if I put the effort in. Just so hard to picture a happy existence. Who knows fellas, and ladies. We shall see.
Thanks for letting me vent. Sorry for the depressing topic. Just feel comfortable enough here to post this. I know I sound like a little bitch, but hey, it is what it is. We have BIGDAY fighting for his life, and here I am whining about mine. Saloon this, if necessary.
I’m not gonna lie, I got high tonight and am working on a few beers.
I guess I’ll tell y’all what my message was gonna be. Really not looking for attention, but I was gonna kill myself. I have no one else to tell this, without getting hospitalized. Getting high may have saved me. My plan was to get drunk, then shoot up all the fentanyl I had. It would have been enough. My best friend died from just two of these bags earlier this year, and I had four with no tolerance. Though he did some ketamine too. The 16 beers would have been enough to boost my chances. Absolutely painless death.
I really don’t want to die. I love life. The problem is that I can’t do what I truly enjoy, and it doesn’t look like I ever will be able to. My joys in life are gambling, drugs, and alcohol. I don’t have the money to do any of that as much as I’d like to. I just want to live in Vegas, and get high and drunk everyday. No interest in anything else, and my mental health makes it difficult for me to get a job. I’m a 30 year old baby.
I’m lonely and need a girl. Rehab taught me how much I desire a woman in my life. I fell for this girl, but she wasn’t having it. Another gorgeous girl came in after the first left and I fell for her too. Doubt I had a chance with her either. I get attached to females easily. I’m a sappy, hopeless romantic. Think I need someone else to make me happy, but in reality I need to find happiness within myself first before I can be happy with someone else. You really do have to love yourself, or at least like yourself before being able to be loved.
After getting high, I just felt so happy and have no desire to off myself now. Who knows if that changes tomorrow when I wake up. I hope I still have the will to persevere. I’m not going to do it. It would absolutely crush my mom. Getting the money from her, along with letting me drive would cause her so much guilt. I just couldn’t do it to her, but I just don’t see a decent future for myself. I’m a decent, somewhat intelligent human being who could do well for myself if I put the effort in. Just so hard to picture a happy existence. Who knows fellas, and ladies. We shall see.
Thanks for letting me vent. Sorry for the depressing topic. Just feel comfortable enough here to post this. I know I sound like a little bitch, but hey, it is what it is. We have BIGDAY fighting for his life, and here I am whining about mine. Saloon this, if necessary.
Man...I just love Cuse's bedtime stories
Cuser do you still have that bike, pal?
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Cuse0323
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12-09-09
30169
#33
Originally posted by Russian Rocket
Man...I just love Cuse's bedtime stories
Cuser do you still have that bike, pal?
No sir. I do not.
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5mike5
SBR Aristocracy
09-21-11
51872
#34
Cuuuuuuuuuuuuuser.
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Russian Rocket
SBR Aristocracy
09-02-12
43910
#35
Originally posted by Cuse0323
No sir. I do not.
Cuser let's not go to the dark place
Life is too beautiful, pal
In the moments like that, always think about the people who matter the most to you and everything will be alright