Your fukked up you fuk, I would take pills and gamble. Your girl seems like a fukkin train wreck. Hey pal bail the fuk out of your relationship and just fuklkin gamble and numb your fukkin pain. I never forget when I stayed in my house for over 150 straight and just gambled and developed lots of fukkin phobias that I still have today. I do not know if your afraid of raccoons but they are the enemy not gambling. Pal call me one night to discuss your issues and optiosn.