[jarvol]

When you don't leave the house for weeks at a time, because you do not want to be seen. When you go days without eating or drinking anything because your self hatred is so strong you wish you were dead but don't have the fukkin balls to actually pull that trigger.. When you sleep for 24+ hours in a row because waking up you would have to be yourself. You know you're out of shape when your favorite part of the day is abusing prescription pain killers and hoping your arch fukkin nemesis on SBR loses his/her bet. When you haven't been laid in 6 years and 57 days. When you don't take showers for weeks at a time and have so much acne covering your back and chest you look like a giant fukkin pepperoni. Whenever you get drunk you end up emotionally unstable and begging for your mother. When you sabotage any opportunity at positivity and success. When you fade yourself because deep inside you fukkin hate yourself. When you cut yourself across the street because you don't have the fukkin balls to go down the road. When your favorite hobby is peaking out the fukkin blinds and watching people and wishing ill things upon them.

POTM right here.