As usual, you are smart jerky.
Scared money is bad to bet with, even for an advantage gambler, spitting out the most advanced predictions.
Most need to live by the motto..."Don't gamble the rent money"...but the truth is the real advice is...."Don't pay rent with the gambling money."
Be patient, keep the gambling roll aside, don't withdraw, at least not as much. Continue to work, keep your roll part time. It can sit, be patient.
Don't bet with scared money, I know that you know what a toll it takes.
I know that you are feeling it now. I have been there too. So many of us have, and we all know. You have been able to turn around a long MLB season, you have experience here over years that you should not ignore, you have skills and a desire that you should not set aside.
Over the years when I've thought about tossing it all aside and doing something else, the one thing that has kept me in the game is the amount of experience and knowledge that I have gained over the years as every type of bettor.
I just can't throw that all away.
Think part time, but still think business. Think investment. Think of the goals of your money and do your best, even with all this shit that gets thrown at us in life (I got kdis too, my friend), to stick to those goals with discipline.