We all get down at times and sometimes want to fukkin end it or just get depressed.
Here is what I have done a few times
Get a pair of very good grip gloves, put a 40' fukkin ladder on top of your car and find a building like 20- 40 ft or so and get on top of roof and then hang off a fukkin ledge and I swear you will feel a lot better and not get depressed anymore. It puts things in perspective. Now of course you need to be a strong guy to hold on and with good gloves, the ladder can e next to you just in case you need help. I do not advise this though to all.