[bonusguy]

hope
crushed
hope
crushed
hope
crushed

im seeing a trend. a trend that doesnt seem to be ending anytime soon

[bonusguy]

i know whats going on here. there is a psychology

if they arent torturing me then they are doing something wrong. thats the bottomline

[bonusguy]

for instance now i think i feel decent. ive had a few beers and feel less neck tension maybe even no chest pain. not sure im riled up so i cant really tell

but they could come back again later tonight

or 5 days from now when ive put in a great effort for recovery. or the chest pain is still there i kind of feel it still actually

see what im saying. bs. what we have here is a bunch of pussies too scared to kill ppl they dont like.

[bonusguy]

theres a group of ppl watching me. maybe 3-4 that know me very personally. and a doctor who advises them on psychological input

they have to be all on the same page to hurt me. and to kill me they would need a serious sit down. right now they are fine just testing weapons and seeing how my vitamins and neuroprotecions work

[bonusguy]

but ive got nothing more to give. im going to sit down with my mother tomorrow and tell her im drinking myself to death.

ive done everyting i can. im not posting here anymore im sure what i will here is "get lost" ect

these ppl are human and can be provoked. so its best that i just shut up and let them make their decision

goodbye sbr, gl with your bets im sure its fun

[pimike]

Dude stop feeling sorry for yourself!! Go get your Bible and start reading it.

[Ebumdude]

“Hasta la vista bros” -Jose Altuve

[A4K]

Penis

[bonusguy]

this is my final thought. some psycopaths need to be watched. but when does it end. when do they have a fair chance to be right with God. ppl will say "oh yeah tranny boy"

and thats fine. i was cursed. but when does my chance to be a good citizen even start

we will see. if im tortured for the remainer of my days then they are truly evil. if im allowed to follow rules and be a good citizen then they are reasonable

[bonusguy]

i think they stopped. im not sure

but i feel better. going to just go on with life. im very interested in Gods word and very fearful of him. thats the reason i was depressed because i saw no way to heaven. of course they could come back to me tonight. in 5 minutes or in 5 days

i need friends. plz let me make friends im a good guy

[pimike]

i think they stopped. im not sure

but i feel better. going to just go on with life. im very interested in Gods word and very fearful of him. thats the reason i was depressed because i saw no way to heaven. of course they could come back to me tonight. in 5 minutes or in 5 days

i need friends. plz let me make friends im a good guy

Good!!

[gauchojake]

https://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/alcoholics-anonymous
https://meetingguide.org/

Great place to meet new friends

[Plaza23]

Nobody that is unemployed should be gambling period.

Sports wagering is a leisure activity meant for disposable income.

[zizoudane10]

Good fukkin god...
I have no idea what's going on here.
But that sounds like a severe case of mental problems here. Should seek professional help immediately.
Even bigboydan was easier to understand...

[gauchojake]

Good fukkin god...
I have no idea what's going on here.
But that sounds like a severe case of mental problems here. Should seek professional help immediately.
Even bigboydan was easier to understand...

Zizzer!!!

[swordsandtequila]

Good fukkin god...
I have no idea what's going on here.
But that sounds like a severe case of mental problems here. Should seek professional help immediately.
Even bigboydan was easier to understand...

Two days 'til WC

[Bostongambler]

At least you were good at being a loser. That’s something.

[Eddy Munny]

Bonusguy, who's "they?"

Is it the Pros you're talking about?

Is it those dadgum self-righteous SBR Pro tools who are tormenting you?

Because if that's the case, I may have to get involved. I am the G.O.A.T. here at SBR and I have a tremendous amount of pull. When I'm not playing frisbee golf on weekends, I'm Skyping with Shari and outlining the future of this forum.

What I won't stand for is cyber-bullying, or, worse yet, cyber-terrorism from the SBR Pro ranks who aim to create a divisive class system, and oppress the Broke Dikk faction, who have every right to pursue a meaningful, fulfilling life, including, but not limited to, littering the message board with trite, trivial, hamburger helper nonsense a la Lakerboy, Seaweed, Twizzler etc.

Help me help you.

[bonusguy]

well im at the final thing i can do. give up all my modafinil which puts me in a terrible spot for weeks mentally

this is killing my mother. this roller coaster ride has to end. im taking every step here.

but what if i give up all my modafinil and they dont stop?

i cant think of anything more i can do. they are making me go cold turkey on booze and modafinil at the same time. plus no gambling.

thats all i can do. if im still attacked then ill have to keep going to the hospital over and over

[Eddy Munny]

But that didn't answer my question at all, did it Bonusguy...? In order for any meaningful dialogue to take place, you need to give attention to the other party and heed their contributions to the conversation at hand. Otherwise, you may as well be consulting a parking meter.

[bonusguy]

Bonusguy, who's "they?"

Is it the Pros you're talking about?

Is it those dadgum self-righteous SBR Pro tools who are tormenting you?

Because if that's the case, I may have to get involved. I am the G.O.A.T. here at SBR and I have a tremendous amount of pull. When I'm not playing frisbee golf on weekends, I'm Skyping with Shari and outlining the future of this forum.

What I won't stand for is cyber-bullying, or, worse yet, cyber-terrorism from the SBR Pro ranks who aim to create a divisive class system, and oppress the Broke Dikk faction, who have every right to pursue a meaningful, fulfilling life, including, but not limited to, littering the message board with trite, trivial, hamburger helper nonsense a la Lakerboy, Seaweed, Twizzler etc.

Help me help you.

sorry if i dont respond here to you guys. im really just using this message board to send them my thoughts. i need a few beers tonight and i will hand over all my modafinil and tell my mother to destroy it. is that good enough. should i wash it all down the toilet instead?

i guess ill just think about what to do here. if im throwing away a key medication that helps me stay sober for nothing then im making a big mistake. but what else could it be?

[Fidel_CashFlow]

Eddy’s trying to help you ,bonusguy

please allow him the environment needed to do so

[thechaoz]

not allowed to gamble anymore. not only that but also feel a very slight pain maybe because i slept all day and was a sloth

either way i dont have time to mourn losing gambling that will just make things worse. will start looking for a job tomorrow and will get off ssi as they dont let you save any money. so if something happened to my mother i would have no money saved. now with all this free time and a reason to work it looks like im going to be getting a job scrubbing buckets whatever

better than being bored. if im productive id appreciate the slight pain going away. i wont be posting here at sbr anymore

It's time to hunker down and change your life. Visit a shrink for prozac, get on manimprovement, weight lifting and red pill on reddit and start with the basic reading and action.

It's now or never

[Eddy Munny]

well im at the final thing i can do. give up all my modafinil which puts me in a terrible spot for weeks mentally

this is killing my mother. this roller coaster ride has to end. im taking every step here.

but what if i give up all my modafinil and they dont stop?

i cant think of anything more i can do. they are making me go cold turkey on booze and modafinil at the same time. plus no gambling.

thats all i can do. if im still attacked then ill have to keep going to the hospital over and over

Wait, so you're telling me that these rogue SBR Pro's have not only pilfered your supply of pills and booze, but have also committed the heinous act of cutting your mother in line at the roller coaster? Did I read that correctly?

That's it... I may have to resort to a rare weekday emergency Skype session with Shari in order to sort this out. This has gone too far.

[bobbywaves]

Quitters such as the OP, will never prosper.

[Eddy Munny]

Quitters such as the OP, will never prosper.

Hit the steam room, fat boy.

Pick on someone your own shape, like a pear, or maybe a mound of mashed potatoes.

Your days of harassing the broke dikks are over.

[Fidel_CashFlow]

Dudes funnier than a mother fukker yo

[bobbywaves]

Your days of harassing the broke dikks are over.

My days of harassing broke dikks like you are far from over chump.

Now get back to working your glory hole, & pony up that C-note for pro status broke dikk.

[Eddy Munny]

My days of harassing broke dikks like you are far from over chump.

Now get back to working your glory hole, & pony up that C-note for pro status broke dikk.

I know of three glory holes, and I have to look no further than your mother's anatomy for that triple crown.

[bonusguy]

It's time to hunker down and change your life. Visit a shrink for prozac, get on manimprovement, weight lifting and red pill on reddit and start with the basic reading and action.

It's now or never

i dont know if you are serious or being tricky again

[bobbywaves]

I know of three glory holes

I'm sure you know of 3, but 3 is a very conservative number. You patronizing 6 or 7 glory holes, would be more accurate.

Now get back to working your glory hole, & pony up that C-note for pro status broke dikk.

[bonusguy]

since i just did a bender (maybe the dumbest thing ive ever done) i simply need a week to weene off modafinil. any doctor would say not to go cold turkey. really i would need a month minimum but if you would just let me do a week i can do it without going to rehab and costing money unessaesary.

2
1.5
1.5
1
1
.5
.5
.5
.25
.25
.25

none

thats 10 pills. ill keep 10 pills to ween off and me and my mother will destroy the rest in the toilet. there is no point in me trying to sneak around and save more for an easier recovery. we all know that wouldnt work

these ppl dont realize how tough this is going to be to quit 2 drugs in one outing. even my brother is given suboxone i get nothing. the cravings will be real bad. the boredom, the brain fog. this is going to be bad

[bonusguy]

for anyone listening modafinil is a magic pill for alcohol recovery

and i cant use it

[Eddy Munny]

I'm sure you know of 3, but 3 is a very conservative number. You patronizing 6 or 7 glory holes, would be more accurate.

Now get back to working your glory hole, & pony up that C-note for pro status broke dikk.

Correct, six glory holes if we include your wife... fun times!

[bonusguy]

It's time to hunker down and change your life. Visit a shrink for prozac, get on manimprovement, weight lifting and red pill on reddit and start with the basic reading and action.

It's now or never

red pill on reddit?

you some kind of asshole. thanks for nothing