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People that use the word enthralling are not dumbasses, but you do lack basic common sense even though you have a disease which you found on your own through choices. Sorry pal , but one day in the foreseeable future you just might find the wrong bag & OD. A lot of laced Fentanyl out there you be careful dude.Comment -
what is next Cuse? my guess is that your dog becomes disabled and needs to be whacked
probably not for another 6 months though, might I suggest that you give the dog a push and buy a puppy now to let it know the scoreComment -
At this point, I just want them to let me go back to work. The lady I saw wants to wait another week even though the health department says I’m long past contagious. Now I have to take care of damn diabetes the rest of my life. I’m sure I’ll lose a foot or something. I’ll probably just end up killing myself in a year or so. Looks like I have to go on drug court for a year, so maybe sooner. Living the dream.Comment -
my comment about the dog might have been better left unsaid
what attaches you to Florida if you do not mind me asking?
you do not have to answer that
and if you need a place closer to home for a few months or as long as we are making money gambling
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Stay sober, go paleo.... probably love foreverComment -
Cuse you gotta stop making excuses or putting blame somewhere else. You gotta take control of your life and truly get sober. Right now your mind is penetrating wth you trying to give you every chance to use. You gotta stay strong and that will subside. If you really want a drug free life and alchol free it is possible you just gotta stay strong for first few months. Your mind will try everything it can to trick you into using again..it is all it knows at this point. Get thru that period and things will get so much betterComment -
Cuse go join a dojo you need martial arts
tell them you are poor and cannot pay but you will stay after practice and clean the facility.
tell the sensei “ Master I want you to teach me discipline and turn me into a warrior, take me under your wing and help me free my soul”Comment -
I don’t really want it. Just what I say when I feel like shit, I guess. I don’t wanna drink basically. Every thing else I couldn’t care less if I did the rest of my life. I mean I don’t really blame anyone else for all this. I knew drinking the way that I did that I’d eventually get diabetes. I just thought I’d probably be dead by now. People keep propping me up and not letting Darwin do the deed. I’m weak, I should be let go.Comment -
Keep fighting cuse. It will get better.Comment -
This is the first day I’ve felt good. Almost happy, you could say. I’m glad they’re waiting another week cause if I got my checks yesterday then I’d probably have bought crack right about now. Hopefully another week and that urge will subside. Thanks for all the support. I was kind of hoping everyone would just tell me I’m a broke dick drug addict bum fck. I need a little of both. Some $$$ reality, and some unfounded support. SBR is my only outlet to really spout everything without worry. As embarrassing as this thread is, it’s still just SBR.
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Good to hear Cuse. Stay strong.Comment -
everything good cuse?
dog healthy?
gf still with you?
what happened to your boy?Comment -
Bear, he is posting/talking sports. Probably wishing you`d let the thread die.Comment -
Yeah pretty much. I was hoping for that. But, I have some news that I’ll share just for shits. Nothing crazy really, but may have fcked myself. And I’ve been smoking a lot of crack tonight. Really have been for the past two weeks, on and off. I may have done fcked up when it comes to my felony drug possession charge. I met with my lawyer on 10/17 to sign up for a deferment program, or whatever they call it. Basically I pay $300 to do a six week program where I do some classes and shit, then pass 4 piss tests. My lawyer made it seem like I had some time to sign up.
Turns out I had 7 days to enroll in the program from the date that I signed the paper. Week late at this point. I was waiting to get paid to afford the damn program. Just got paid on Wednesday, and was gonna call later this morning to sign up. I just got a letter telling me about my pretrial date, and trial date that were supposed to go away with signing up for this program. I’m hoping when I call later today that they understand, but the enrollment people will probably say I’m not on the list anymore. Then I’ll have to contact my lawyer, and hope to God that the assistant state attorney signs off on it again.
It’s a third degree felony, which is the lowest, I guess. Still up to five years in the clink, and/or a 5K fine. I spent $180 on crack tonight already, and another $80 on all the other shit. Smokes, some whore, my dick didn’t work per the usual so that was a waste, gas and a few drinks. Basically got half of the buck 80 out of it since I hook up my boy. Just the way I am, and I always split what I buy with my homies. He got his nut off, so at least one of us did. I had to pee, so my junk was like nah and wouldn’t even let me get a half chub nut. Shit doesn’t work since I turned 30, but I usually can pull off a halfie and splash. Probably will waste a 20, and a few hits of the rock to get one off before work tomorrow. Easier without another dude chilling in the car.
Aaaaaaand that’s my update on this ridiculous life I lead. Work is going well though. I get six days a week, and I’m pumping out as much hours as I can. 30-35, which ain’t shit, but the best I can do there. May hit 40 this week. Gonna look for a second job at like midnight to 4-6 AM. Get to sleep at like 8, and wake up by 4 for the next one, boom. Can get my 8 hours of sleep, and make as much as I can. Living the dream in that poverty life. Trying to move in with my boy, and his wife soon. We all smoke, but he serves, and with my money, and her 1st of the month we can make it happen. May seem crazy, but I think it will be nice to have a place. She’s super chill, and doesn’t want anyone around our spot, since she knows that people are scum. No crackheads allowed. That’s not us. We are just smokers.
Hope y’all enjoyed the read. I think I pissed away any chance I had at gambling this weekend. Oh well, in two weeks I’ll be able to.
TL
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Wow!Yeah pretty much. I was hoping for that. But, I have some news that I’ll share just for shits. Nothing crazy really, but may have fcked myself. And I’ve been smoking a lot of crack tonight. Really have been for the past two weeks, on and off. I may have done fcked up when it comes to my felony drug possession charge. I met with my lawyer on 10/17 to sign up for a deferment program, or whatever they call it. Basically I pay $300 to do a six week program where I do some classes and shit, then pass 4 piss tests. My lawyer made it seem like I had some time to sign up.
Turns out I had 7 days to enroll in the program from the date that I signed the paper. Week late at this point. I was waiting to get paid to afford the damn program. Just got paid on Wednesday, and was gonna call later this morning to sign up. I just got a letter telling me about my pretrial date, and trial date that were supposed to go away with signing up for this program. I’m hoping when I call later today that they understand, but the enrollment people will probably say I’m not on the list anymore. Then I’ll have to contact my lawyer, and hope to God that the assistant state attorney signs off on it again.
It’s a third degree felony, which is the lowest, I guess. Still up to five years in the clink, and/or a 5K fine. I spent $180 on crack tonight already, and another $80 on all the other shit. Smokes, some whore, my dick didn’t work per the usual so that was a waste, gas and a few drinks. Basically got half of the buck 80 out of it since I hook up my boy. Just the way I am, and I always split what I buy with my homies. He got his nut off, so at least one of us did. I had to pee, so my junk was like nah and wouldn’t even let me get a half chub nut. Shit doesn’t work since I turned 30, but I usually can pull off a halfie and splash. Probably will waste a 20, and a few hits of the rock to get one off before work tomorrow. Easier without another dude chilling in the car.
Aaaaaaand that’s my update on this ridiculous life I lead. Work is going well though. I get six days a week, and I’m pumping out as much hours as I can. 30-35, which ain’t shit, but the best I can do there. May hit 40 this week. Gonna look for a second job at like midnight to 4-6 AM. Get to sleep at like 8, and wake up by 4 for the next one, boom. Can get my 8 hours of sleep, and make as much as I can. Living the dream in that poverty life. Trying to move in with my boy, and his wife soon. We all smoke, but he serves, and with my money, and her 1st of the month we can make it happen. May seem crazy, but I think it will be nice to have a place. She’s super chill, and doesn’t want anyone around our spot, since she knows that people are scum. No crackheads allowed. That’s not us. We are just smokers.
Hope y’all enjoyed the read. I think I pissed away any chance I had at gambling this weekend. Oh well, in two weeks I’ll be able to.
TLR
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Cuse, Stop smoking rock today, or yesterday. Call whoever you need to call today and say to them whatever you need to say and do to buy yourself a couple or three days to throw a clean piss for them.
Then do it as we know you can, you just need someone to give a fukk.
Also, being alone and isolated can be torture when it is all the time, but the people you are hanging with will probably do more harm than good for you in the long run. And when I write "probably", I am being kind.
Don`t know what else to tell ya at this point, other than you might want to stop thinking/believing that too many people here or in real life truly give a fukk.
Some do, but most will not lift a finger to help a parent/friend/family member in a way that makes any difference at all.
That is what made this nation great, people giving a fukk and leading by example. I see less and less of that every day, thus my view that the country is already gone.
But you are not, stop the rock and anything else that will make you fail a drug test, take deep breaths and walks and shit!
when all is said and done and you are free, we will do a blast one day, just for kicks
see, now you have something to look forward to!
tough to not love the player, huh?
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Much love for ya Player. I’m going hard today, then the rock is dropped...hopefully. As long as they take me in this program. If not, then what’s the point? I’m not out here sucking dick for crack. Holding down my job just fine. Only issue may be my heart exploding. That bad boy is bumping. Anyway, I look forward to a few beers, and a blast once we both have our shit in order. Though you’re fine, just have to deal with the mess your family threw at you. I hope all that bullshit goes away soon man. When I finally make it back to the Cuse, I’m gonna hit you up.
Really hope they just understand why I waited to sign up for the program, and let me in. Otherwise my best case is probation. Highly doubtful they throw the book at me. I had a perfect statement when I was popped about the pills being in multiple pieces for me to take a little bit at a time for my anxiety. Which is the absolute truth anyway. Lawyer said I should just find a doc for pills. He was cool as can be, but didn’t tell my ass to sign up in a week. Oh well. It will work out. It always does. Now back to letting this thread be buried. If that fool didn’t quote me then I was gonna delete my post. Fuuuuuck.
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ask him to delete it Cuse, if Brick knows it bothers you, I`m sure he will
that is why I do not quote others when they write shit while stressed out or bothered by something, to give them an out
and thank you for the well-wishes concerning the criminal cokksuckerzComment -
All good. Is what it is. This whole thread is one big cluster fck of shit I’d rather not read again. Not even gonna humor myself, and go back to read any of it. I’m an open book though, so no worries. I have this issue with not being able to refrain from telling anyone who cares to listen all about the fcked up shit I do.Comment -
Bro`, that is cool/understood as I`ve done the same once or twice. At least we have shame or embarrassment and regret for when we`ve done wrong, while others don`t - prefer to be sociopaths that drag others down.
We can all name a few.
edit: Cuse, over the next few days or so, give thought to how you will have this thread end.
also, made my 1st trip to the `Stone 2 days ago
$100 loser, under 7, game 6Last edited by PittsburghPlayer; 10-31-19, 08:46 AM.Comment -
Wait, whaaaaat?! You can bet at the Stone now?
As for this thread, I’m just hoping to be able to make more posts. Have smoked enough to kill Rick James, and just can’t stop.Comment -
yes, since Aug 1st
and you might want to try to eat something and get some sleep
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to think i really wanted to help this guy out and see him get on the right path instead he is a fukking junkie. always thought cuse was a solid person. we all have our demons but this thread is beyond ridiculous.
after that first hit of crack you said it sucked and would never do it again now you cant stop smoking. i hope they dont give you the deal back because the only place you will get some type of help is in the penComment -
Only problem prison will solve is helping him figure out if he’s gay or not
He’s so banged up and damn near immobile, wait til a pack of horny bbc’s lay on eyes on that virgin ass. Gonna be tore upComment -
somebody told me that prison rape doesn’t happen anymore Kraken and that for the most part everyone gets along
anyway, cuse stop smoking crack man
just see if you can go 1 day
they say the best way to stop a bad habit is replace it with a good habit
so every time you get the urge to smoke crack, pop in a yoga dvd and get your mat out
or go for a nice walkComment
