[lyon804]

I just closed my account with my local..have just lost way to much money this month and have to cut myself off..it sucks cause i love this shit but cant sustain these large hits anymore...i have not made a bet above 1x this week and still gonna pay $1300...im an absolute head case right now and need a break..no matter what i do it is wrong and i lose...not sure if i will be on here anymore but i will miss it..this has been like a 2nd family to me in some ways and i appreciate all the help..i hope you all kill it and make lots of money..thanks again lb for everything but it is time for me to go..i wanna try and pop in here on occasion but it will be hard cause i will want to gamble...BOL all...

MT, You are one of the better people here. I am sorry the way you are feeling. I would be lying if I told you I have never felt that way myself. Once, I took off several months to clear my head and when I got back I could see things for what they really was again. I learned some things from my time off and it made me better. That being said I don't blame you if you never come back to it. Gambling is a "tough" lifestyle rather your winning or losing and in the end I don't know anybody that has a family actually wins at it even if you have a nice balance in your sportsbook. I have had a very good season, but I would be lying to you if I told you I felt like a winner. I have some nice feeling moments after good nights/weeks or such but overall it is clouded with a significant amount of guilt because what I am sacrificing to get it. Best of luck whatever you decide in your future but take it from me there are no real winners at this if you have a family because you can't have balance in your life with this. You are either in or you are out, no middle ground. Unfortunately, I am addicted... Not to the gamble nor the money...but the pursuit, the chase, the being right...the competetiveness of it. As I digress I will leave you with this.. The time that I was away from the game was the most peaceful of my adult life. The first few days is hard, maybe the first few weeks....but in time you can live and feel like a normal human being again.