Originally posted on 04/13/2018:

I've been trying to talk some sense into you for years. The first step is accepting that you have a major problem. From there, you can take steps to avoid this happening again. Immediately PERMANENTLY disable all online casinos. For years, I used to go in and out of the online casinos as well for the attempt at quick money and lord knows how much I lost until I finally had enough, looked in the mirror and got some will power and control over myself and my actions.

I wish you the best and taking a bit of time off to clear your head is a good idea.