Originally posted on 04/21/2014:

Tony is like me in a sense in that he has given up all hope of happiness.

Tony, it's OK, but it's either drink (or in my case smoke) yourself to death, or commit to taking control of your life and being disciplined enough to make all the necessary changes.

You're driving the car here, Tony. You're in control. It's hard for us to realize that sometimes when we hate ourselves so much, but you still have to acknowledge that nothing will change for the better unless you start taking steps to improve yourself and your situation.

Good luck, Tony.