stuff i wrote in the last two days I never said anything before, because the whole scenario was just to exhausting to write down-I almost got kicked out of the Pedro's. What happened was my mom was getting really worried with me gone, so every little thing that came up just totally freaked her out. Like I said I wanted to go to the new york open instead of this rinkidy ass tournament in ohio. Because it was right after europe and I could really use a rest where I could just go to a tournament to watch a have fun and party-you know, be social and get away from my situation over there where everyone is either 30 or 5 years old. And my mom threw this huge ass fit about that. And before that in korea, after i lost a match, jimmy and alex when back to the hotel. I worked my way to the bronze metal match and was all crying to mom on the phone when I lost that too. She asked what jimmy said, and I was still crying and was like "I don't know, he left after I lost the first time." and mom thought I was really upset because of that. But I was only really upset because i lost when i was so close to a metal. So mom sends this angy e-mail to jimmy-who shares the same account with his wife marie (who is a real sweetheart). She's really sensative and got really upset when she read the e-mail and got the impression mom was saying jimmy is an arrogant prick. When marie wrote her back, mom could tell she was really upset (and I was like "no shit" but then again mom has never been on the receiving end of one of her rage letters). So mom called her up and supposedly straightened things out.
Then after europe and everything, aaron cohen shows up is massachusettes a week before the New York Open to stay at jimmy's to lose weight before the tournament. My mom, God knows how, found out I liked him and when all *psycho bitch* on everyone. She started throwing a fit about how we shouldn't be staying the same house together.
but no one could see what her penetrating problem was because
1. I've stayed AT AARON'S HOUSE twice before, most recently in December, and she didn't have the least bit of a problem with it then
2. I stay with guys all the time, I've stayed at their houses and shared hotel rooms multiple times.
3. Mike Pedro, a guy even closer to my age than aaron is stayed the night at jimmy's house while I was there-and mom didn't give a shit then either.
So then when everyone was like "what the penetrate is your problem?" mom started freaking out and sent two angry e-mails to jimmy which were mostly about totally irrelivant things-which usually come out during maternal rage sessions. But marie isn't nearly as used to my mom's outbursts as I am, and was really upset. So then they talked on the phone and it seemed like everything straightened itself out. But what I didn't know was that marie was still stressing over what my mom wrote and was losing sleep and crying for like three days straight.
So then one night (three days after the angry e-mails) I'm talking to aaron online from upstairs (because we weren't allowd to be in the same room alone together-jimmy threatened to send me home if he caught me) and jimmy comes in my room and says something like "Come to my room, we have something improtant to talk about." So I go and marie is sobbing on the bed, and jimmy turns to me and flat out says "Me and marie have been talking, and we just called up your mom. We've decided that we can't handle having you here anymore, so when you leave for ohio tomarrow morning, you're just going to go back home from them tournament instead of coming back here."
And I'm just standing there with absolutely no penetrating clue where the hell this is coming from, and then marie starts going on for about twenty minutes about how she just can't handle the things my mom is writing to her when all they've been doing is trying their best to treat me like their own daughter. At first I was just standing there in shock, but mid-way through marie's explaination I start crying, trying to get a grasp of the situation. I mean at first it seemed like everything is fine, and then they're like "Hey kid, you don't live here anymore." And jimmy is just sitting on the ground staring at the tv, not even looking at me while marie's telling me how she just can't understand how my mother can say the things she says and how she just can't take the stress this is putting on her. So I jimmy's like, "Okay, now pack up your stuff."
So I go back to my room, call up my mom on my cell, and I'm just like, "What the penetrate mom?!?!? These people are bending over backwards for me and you're going psycho on everybody!!!" And mom's like "You want me to call them back and try to convince them to let you stay?"
I'm penetrating sobbing by now and i'm like "yeah, whatever-I don't know why you're asking me what I want now, what I want is for you to not go off on people who are trying to help me - I mean, what the penetrate am I supposed to do now?"
so I hang up and I'm like, penetrate this- if they're gunna kick me out anyways, I'm going downstairs with aaron. So he's laying on the couch and I sit next to him and tell him the whole thing, and I'm still crying, and he was like rubbing my back and my thigh. And I know he couldn't hug me because if jimmy came downstairs and saw him holding me we both would have been in an immeasurable amount of shit. So then to cheer me up he puts this comedy show on his computer...what was it called...i forget, but its staring that guy who was the directer of the show seinfeld. Well anyways that's irrelavant. So jimmy eventually comes downstairs, looking pretty ticked, and tells me to get upstairs. So i run up to my room and then into the attic to get my suitcase and when I come back down, jimmy's all like, "Well, we talked to your mother again." and i'm just standing there staring at him. And he says "So what it comes down to is you are going to be going back to los angeles. But after the high school nationals and jr. pans ams, you'll be coming back here. So you can just think of this as a ten day ticket home, and we can all get a break."
I'm standing there thinking "If you think training at home is a break, you're wrong." but I didn't say anything except "okay."
So then he's like, "So pack up enough stuff for ten days...and I don't want you backdownstairs." and he leaves.
By now it's past 1:00am and I have to get up at 6:00am for my flight. I quickly pack, put on my headphones to drown out my thoughts, and I'm asleep within five minutes. I know jimmy, marie, and my mom, barely slept that night-because jimmy and my mom told me they didn't, and as for marie it was just obvious she didn't.
So I'm onto the next morning, jimmy wakes me up, I drag my ass out of bed (or more accurately, the futon) Say goodbye to marie from the bottom of the steps, and jimmy when to the garage to start up the car. So like I promissed aaron the night before, I woke him up and gave him a kiss. He hugged me, my hands were cold, I'm sure he noticed, i said "I gotta get going" and left. He's the best.
The car ride to the airport was pretty quiet, I half forget what jimmy said, but he said something like I shouldn't feel awkward talking to him because of last night, and made me promise to e-mail them to say how I'm doing and how the tournament went.
So I get on the plane and meet up with mom in ohio, she comes up and gives me a hug and imediately start crying on her. She seemed just as upset as I was, and she's one of those people with invincable personalities, so it was really disturbing to see. My sister told me later that my mom was actually crying the night all this stuff happened, and that I was taking their side not theirs. In ohio we had a couple of talks and she was like "I know you think all of this is my fault." and i said, "I don't think its your fault, its no one's fault, it doesn't have to be someone's fault. You and marie are just different people and you don't understand each other."
I'm just caught in the middle of all this shit, Jimmy's my idol, marie's a sweetheart, and my mom's the best. But now marie thinks mom is inexplicably mean, mom thinks marie's a bitch, jimmy's obligated to his wife and family, I'm penetrating stuck in the middle of all this, and my sister thinks im a treacherous bitch- when I've tried everything to neutral and not point fingers or blame anyone.
AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! What the penetrate!?!?! the world just hates me right now, no one else has to deal with shit like this.
I started my own blogring...and I'm all alone I don't know why I bothered, just bored I guess.
Dennis is walking around the house turning off lights- power conserving rooster_eater! Dennis is actually on my good list right now, he ordered me one of those new mini ipods (a blue one) way in advance, so I'll be getting it in a few day. Too bad it will be useless until I get my computer back (i sent it to apple to get fixed, but I went back to Los Angeles before I got it back, so I'm guessing my computer returned to Boston).