Good luck.
I know this is not B.S.
You don't have to defend yourself.
You have posted about this for too long.
Just because they have not read it does not mean others have not.
Focus on this !!
If you win tonight, nice.
If you lose tonight, forget it.
Either way. No doubling or anything rash.
Tomorrow is another day.
Enjoy where you are and what you are doing and remember that paying off a *********** with your winnings is without a doubt the best thing you could have ever done.
You would not have done that before so look how far you have come.
Now, focus on winning and having an edge.
That edge might be tomorrow or might be next week.
Relax, find the edge and wager.
Just because you have an edge does not mean you win.
You might lose, but, edge bets, and that takes time and patience, will improve your odds tremendously.
Having played parimutual for years, this never failed long term. NEVER !
Playing games is close to parimutual but not quite the same.
Stay the course, and feel the need to WIN.
And here comes the best advice I will EVER GIVE ANYONE. !!
Make winning more important than the monetary sum that you play.
The day you decide that, is the day you turn all this around.
There you have it.
Can't believe I said it because I rarely do.
But I have always tried to help people out that really wanted it and this is the 1st time I ever felt that you REALLY wanted it.
I sure hope it helps.
Stick with it and I guarantee it will.
Best of luck.